THE CRIMSON CIRCLE MATERIALS
The Discovery Series
SHOUD 3: âDiscovery 3â â
Featuring ADAMUS, channeled by Geoffrey Hoppe
Presented to the Crimson Circle
November 2, 2013
I Am that I Am, Adamus of Free and Sovereign Domain.
Ah! We have a few here this time. Welcome. Greetings.
Having A Body
Lovely to see so many of you here. Lovely bodies you have, hm.
(a few giggles) No, truly. Truly. Can you imagine the joy of having a body and
being in it? Oh! I can vaguely remember my days when I had a physical body. Oh,
I know sometimes you curse it. You cuss it. Sometimes itâs filled with pain.
Sometimes it gets old, maybe a few wrinkles here and there, but such a delight
to have a physical body.
Iâm occupying Cauldreâs body just for a few minutes here,
which is okay, but my dear friends, to have this body! Take a deep breath into
it. Oh! This isnât the thing that makes you a human. No, the body is not what
makes you human. No. Itâs the consciousness â or letâs say the limited
consciousness â itâs the perception from which you operate. Thatâs
what makes you human. Just because you have this physical body doesnât make you
a human. Not just that. You can go out in the cosmos and bring your body with
you. Thatâs not what theyâre looking at. Theyâre looking at this perspective
that you have, the level of awareness.
But to have a body â what an amazing thing! You
can be sensual, and even sexual, Edith.
EDITH: Yes, you bet.
ADAMUS: Yes. Thank you, yeah. Weâve been talking. Good to
see you again, my dear. (he kisses her)
EDITH: Thank you. Thank you.
ADAMUS: To have this thing called the body. Just breathe
into it for a moment. Ohh! Eat into it. Love into it, this body, yeah, because,
well, youâre going to need it. You have a lot of years ahead of you on this
planet. Thatâs good news, isnât it Larry? Youâre smiling, Larry. Larry, howâs
that abundance?
LARRY: Good.
ADAMUS: Good. Just keep thinking that. Itâll come your way.
So breathe into it. You have a lot of years left on this
planet. No, youâre not going to be leaving any time soon. Although once in a
while you wonder about it, think about it â âOh, what a relief to get out of
this human consciousness.â No. Youâre just getting out of your body, and then
still take that human consciousness with you.
Oh, and thatâs a badge of honor, by the way. You go to the
other realms, hell, you go to the Near Earth realms and you say, âI just came
through yet another human biological experienceâ â oh, they cheer you on. Yes.
You go to these other dimensions with some of the alien beings â oh,
itâs such an honor to have been an embodied human.
So breathe into your body, love it and appreciate it.
Adamus
This facet of St. Germain (French pronunciation) thatâs
called Adamus or Adamus (pronounced Ah-de-mus), I love it. I love it. Itâs kind
of a co-creation between you, Shaumbra, and me. I had the desire to do it, but
I didnât quite have the group to do it with, until you came along, and then we
created Adamus. Pretty amazing isnât it? (a couple of people say âYeahâ) Yeah. Yeah.
(Adamus chuckles) Yeah, two people out of ⊠(laughter) Three, if Lindaâs kind
of thinking it over. She might be swayed.
No, I love the Adamus persona, this facet of St. Germain,
because, you know, thereâs a lot of messengers out there for St. Germain. Some
of them have a contract, an agreement with me. Others feel into me and feel
into this essence, but St. Germain is a little bit boring. A little bit boring.
If youâve ever read ⊠(someone nods, Adamus laughs) Yeah, you have read some of the books! (someone
says âYesâ) Ohhh! And I have to say â Iâm not shirking my responsibilities so
much, but I have to say it wasnât necessarily just St. Germain that was a
little boring.
You know there is such a tightness at times in this
spiritual journey, such a reverence, kind of a false reverence. So to be able
to break away from that kind of boring St. Germain, itâs such a relief for me.
I can come here. I can hop into Cauldreâs body. I can be in a lot of your
bodies too all at the same time. I can be a joy. I can be laughter. I can be
irritating. I can be obnoxious, and just wait ⊠(laughter)
LINDA: All of that. Yeah, all of that.
ADAMUS: ⊠we have a long time ahead of us.
LINDA: Mm hmm.
SART: Crap!
ADAMUS: Adamus is the co-creation, you and I. Itâs the part
of you that would really like to break out and to be irreverent and to be
undisciplined, and to do the things, you normally wouldnât associate with being
spiritual. But there is this perspective, this overlay of what spiritual is
supposed to look like. Iâll tell you, and weâll get into it today. You arenât
going to get to heaven in that car, in that spiritual car. (some chuckles) No
way. Iâm going to show you why and why not.
So itâs good to be here with you to have some fun. For those
of you who are tuning in for the first time, today Iâm going to be humorous
(audience applause), because Adamus is you and me, right? Today Iâm going to be
provocative, often called ⊠(someone says âYayâ and a couple of claps) ⊠fewer
laughs on that one. Often called irritating. Irritating. Oh why? Because you
want it â we want it â because
weâve got to find the way out. Weâve got to find the way out and today weâre
going to definitely take a look at that.
For some of you tuning in thinking youâre going to get a
nice spiritual message, no. Weâre going to be raucous. Weâre going to be rather
crude at times. Weâre going to do the things that you would never expect would
happen in a spiritual group, other than an orgy. (laughter) But other than that
â other than that, my dear friends â we are going to go outside of the
spiritual box today.
So I do ask you if youâre watching in for the first time or
even the second, and if youâre watching and thinking to yourself, âWhat am I
getting into and what are they doing there?â please try to see it through the
end, because the story is yours â from boredom to enlightenment. Mmm. Yes,
indeed. (a couple of claps and a whistle)
We do it a bit different here, because you allow it. Some of
you allow it. I notice thereâs not so many today. Youâd think, with the
profound wisdom, the wisdom of the ages thatâs coming through these Shouds â
yours and just with me messaging it back to you â you would think with the
profound wisdom that is here thatâs going to bring joy in this lifetime, thatâs
going to save you from having to do this lifetime thing about 30, 40, 50 more
times; with the humor that we do it with, with the amazing wisdom â all
free of charge at the monthly Shouds â you would think there would be a
line out that door all the way down the canyon into Denver and out to Kansas
with people just waiting to hear, wouldnât you? Wouldnât you? (one person says
âYeahâ) I mean, you would think that national television would be here with
their satellite trucks and dishes filming this because of the profound
simplicity that you are discovering.
LINDA: No. The NSA is here though. (some laughter)
ADAMUS: They might learn something. (more chuckles)
You would think that it would cost at least twelve hundred
dollars to attend this session and to be able to touch the hand of â go
ahead, itâs free today (laughter as he offers his hand to someone) â to be
able to touch the hand of Adamus, which is really you. You would think, but no.
I look out here in the audience, and of course, last time it was â last month â
stuffed animals.
Now can you imagine what itâs like for me going back to the
Ascended Masters Club and they say, âAdamus how was the meeting today?â Good.
Good. (a few chuckles)
âOh really. Was the audience, was it full?â Oh yeah. Oh
sure, sure.
âHow were everybody, these humans?â Ummm, they were a little
quiet today. (some more chuckles) Yeah, but they really embraced the message,
yeah, for a change. (more chuckles and Adamus chuckles)
You would think that the room today would be full. So it
takes an extra 42 minutes to drive up here to Coal Creek Canyon, an extra 42
minutes for your enlightenment. You would think. But no, some people just
arenât going to take even ten minutes from their schedule â their schedule of
chaos, their schedule of drama, and their schedule of whatever. Theyâre not
going to take three minutes extra to drive up here.
So when I opened my eyes just now and saw that half the room
is full of hardy pirates â aargh, aargh, aargh, aargh, aargh! (audience is
also saying âAarghâ) aargh! â I said to myself, I said, âAdamus, St.
Germain, Shakespeare,â all my other names, I said to myself â thatâs very
confusing, by the way â I said to myself, âWhat to do? What to do with a
small but hardy group thatâs here today?â Weâve got a couple hours to talk
about enlightenment, what to do?
And I thought about it for a moment and I said, âAdamus what
would you do? What would you do
â you Shaumbra who are here â what would you do as humans when
others arenât here? What do you do in your everyday life when others arenât
around? What do you do when youâre there, maybe with a few other people, and
thereâs other ⊠What do you do when you get together with your family and some
of the family members arenât there? What do you do? (someone says âWe talk
about themâ) You talk about them! And thatâs what weâre going to do today! (laughter
and applause)
Shaumbra Gossip
We are going to gossip. (a few chuckles) Nothing wrong with
that; you can be enlightened and gossip. As a matter of fact, the more
enlightened, the more gossip. The funnier it gets. Why? Because then itâs not
vicious. Theyâre funny stories. Theyâre very funny stories.
So today letâs gossip about those who arenât here. (a few
chuckles)
Now take a deep breath. Get out of the spiritual tightness
that you might have about that. Linda, dear Linda, would you stand up for a
moment please?
Dear Linda tries so hard not to gossip. (some giggles as she
nods yet)
LINDA: Iâm pretty good.
ADAMUS: She tries so hard not to gossip, but sometimes it
takes everything in her power to hold her tongue, although her mind is not held
so much. She tries so hard, but today you have license to gossip. You Linda,
you Shaumbra, who are here, and the very few who are listening in online today.
I see thereâs a few of you, but not nearly as many. Youâre so busy that you
canât tune in for your enlightenment today, the ones who arenât here? The ones
who are here, please join in our gossip today. Weâre going to talk about
Shaumbra. Yes.
Now Linda, youâll need the microphone. Me, Iâll need the
board so we can capture all of this essence. (heâs clearing the area and hands
a footstool to David) Here you go. (Adamus chuckles)
LINDA: What?!
ADAMUS: The essence of Shaumbra.
So take a moment to feel in about Shaumbra. Weâre going to
do a composite â a Shaumbra composite here â with a lovely ⊠(Adamus draws a
human figure) Not sure if thatâs a smile or a laugh. So what is it about
Shaumbra? Itâs just us here.
So Linda would you take the microphone, please, out to the hardy
pirates who are here. Letâs talk about the attributes of Shaumbra from the
standpoint of things like ⊠(heâs trying to raise the side arms on the easel) things
like ⊠angel wings. Ah yeah. If we could get some tape, please. Yeah, very
clever. From the standpoint of their desires â what do Shaumbra
desire? Not yet. (to Linda) Not yet. From the standpoint of their beliefs
â what do they believe in? From the standpoint of their truths â what
are their truths? In other words, what is really true to them?
From the standpoint ⊠if you would tape that up â up here.
All these things you have to do.
LINDA: So complicated. (Linda tapes up his drawing)
ADAMUS: From the standpoint of their reality ⊠their
reality. What about Shaumbra? Hm. (heâs writing)
Shaumbra composite. You know like sometimes theyâll do a
composite of humans and overlay all of the characteristics onto of it. Does
anybody feel uncomfortable about gossiping? We can turn off the cameras and the
microphones and everything. Anybody ⊠turn the lights off. Yeah, yeah, yeah!
(Adamus is chuckling) You want to wear bags over your head. (a few chuckles) I
suddenly felt an energy crash in the room, like âUgghhh!â No, no. Itâs okay.
They donât mind. Theyâre not here. So we can talk about them.
So Linda if you would take the microphone, please. Letâs get
started. Think about it in terms of what are their desires? Letâs start there.
Shaumbra desires.
PAUL: I would say that most Shaumbra feel that they are
finally getting the answers.
ADAMUS: Getting the answers. Good.
PAUL: Yes.
ADAMUS: Okay. Finally getting answers. Thatâs a good one.
Are you, Paul?
PAUL: Most definitely.
ADAMUS: Most definitely.
PAUL: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: Whatâs the best answer that you got?
PAUL: Yes.
ADAMUS: Good. And what was the question?
PAUL: Doesnât matter. (Adamus chuckles)
LINDA: Oooh!
PAUL: Doesnât matter.
ADAMUS: Oh, wise one!
LINDA: Ooooh!
ADAMUS: Oh Grasshopper. Good! Good. (Adamus chuckles and a
couple of claps in audience)
SART: He gets an Adamus Award
ADAMUS: Excellent. Excellent. Good. Okay.
PAUL: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Shaumbra.
LARRY: (moving the easel) Youâre blocking the people weâre
gossiping about.
ADAMUS: Oh right. Shaumbra. What are their desires? Whatâs
their reality? What are the truths? What are their spiritual truths? Ah good,
good. Please do stand up. Come on up here. I havenât seen you in a while.
KERRI: I feel so special. (Adamus chuckles; she comes half
way) Is this good, or all the way?
ADAMUS: No, no, no. Come on all the way up. Come on all the
way up. If weâre gossiping they might as well have everybody see whoâs doing
the talking. So tell me âŠ
KERRI: What was the question?
ADAMUS: The question is, tell me about Shaumbra.
KERRI: Shaumbra want â the single women want to get laid.
ADAMUS: Oh, hang on a second.
KERRI: Iâm going to tell you the truth.
ADAMUS: Let me ⊠I have to write that.
KERRI: I hear it all the time.
ADAMUS: Um, well, Iâll just write it like it is.
KERRI: Itâs the truth, I mean âŠ
ADAMUS: Oh. Just single women or married women?
KERRI: I donât talk to the dudes. Oh they probably want it
too. They might be getting it. I donât know. (some laughter)
ADAMUS: Okay. So what youâre saying here just the women want
to get laid, not men?
KERRI: I donât talk to the dudes, and theyâre all paired up.
They not single here. Theyâre all with somebody. Do you see a single ⊠oh Sart,
sorry about that. (Adamus laughs) Oh, oh, wait. Sorry. But no, I hear from the
women, my girls, and âŠ
ADAMUS: Girls, okay.
KERRI: ⊠they would like to get a little bit once in a
while.
ADAMUS: Girls. Get a little bit of what?
KERRI: And I tell them get out of your mind.
ADAMUS: Get a lit- ⊠I donât always understand the modern
phrases.
KERRI: Yes, you do.
ADAMUS: Get a little ⊠(heâs writing) Okay. Why just a
little? Why not âŠ
KERRI: Itâs so true.
ADAMUS: Iâm assuming youâre talking about abundance? Why not
a lot?
KERRI: Because they get in their mind and they go, âI need
my soul mate. He has to be perfect and spiritual.â
ADAMUS: Oh, âneed soul mate.â Okay. What does that have to
do with getting a little?
KERRI: Thatâs what I say. (some chuckles)
ADAMUS: Okay. (Kerri giggles) Need a soul mate. (he writes
is down) Okay, and ⊠good. So getting a little. And you?
KERRI: You havenât stopped by. (laughter from Adamus and
audience) Iâve been waiting.
ADAMUS: I have but you were asleep.
KERRI: You havenât been coming to dance at my front door.
ADAMUS: You were asleep and snoring.
KERRI: Oh whatever.
ADAMUS: Not so attractive â the snoring. The sleep was fine.
And what else? What else about Shaumbra?
KERRI: What else about Shaumbra?
ADAMUS: What else about Shaumbra, because Iâve heard you âŠ
KERRI: They think too much.
ADAMUS: They think too much.
KERRI: Thinking too much, far too much.
ADAMUS: Think too much. Okay. And what do they think about?
KERRI: And Iâm not doing this sugarcoated, because if you
ask me, Iâll tell you.
ADAMUS: No. Weâre gossiping today. Think too much. What do
they think too much about?
KERRI: Their enlightenment.
ADAMUS: Getting laid. (Adamus chuckles)
KERRI: Oh yeah, yeah. They donât admit to that.
ADAMUS: Right, right.
KERRI: They told me that on the sly, because I can see it
all over them.
ADAMUS: Right, right.
KERRI: And I get it out of them.
ADAMUS: Right.
KERRI: The true desires.
ADAMUS: Yeah.
KERRI: But then theyâre like, âWhy canât I have that
abundance?â
ADAMUS: What do you tell them when they say, you know, âDear
Master Kerri, Iâm just looking for more physical sensual experiences.â
KERRI: I say, you know, have a few drinks, number one.
ADAMUS: Right.
KERRI: Have a wing man like me.
ADAMUS: Right, right.
KERRI: Take me out, Iâll find you somebody for sure.
ADAMUS: Really?
KERRI: Yeah, yeah.
ADAMUS: Oh, okay. Good.
KERRI: You donât need help like that, Iâm sure. But âŠ
Adamus: I donât go out.
KERRI: Oh, okay.
Adamus: Good. So ⊠we wonât go there. So they think too
much, and what do they think about?
KERRI: Beyond sex, their enlightenment and why they donât
have any abundance.
ADAMUS: No abundance. Okay.
KERRI: Their stinkinâ thinkinâ I call it, Larry.
ADAMUS: (writing on board) No abundance.
KERRI: Stinkinâ thinkinâ.
ADAMUS: And what do they think about their enlightenment?
KERRI: They say, âWhat the hell! Iâve gone to all these
workshops all these years and Iâm still broke.â
ADAMUS: Duh!
KERRI: Duh!
ADAMUS: Good. And why do you think they want enlightenment?
What do they think enlightenment is?
KERRI: Well, they got on this train a long time ago and they
want it to pull on the track, and theyâre just â I donât think they think too
deeply into it.
ADAMUS: (writing on board) Not too deep ⊠you donât mind if
I write some of these down. Not too ⊠they think too much, but not âŠ
KERRI: Iâm going to send you my bill.
ADAMUS: ⊠too deeply. Excellent. Thank you. Weâre getting a
good list going here. Good. Thank you. Thank you.
KERRI: Youâre welcome.
ADAMUS: Linda?
LINDA: I was ready.
ADAMUS: Good. Thank you Kerri.
KERRI: Youâre welcome.
ADAMUS: Youâve kind of opened this up. Itâs getting a little
saucier now. Good, good, good. (some applause) We knew we could count on you.
Okay what else? Shaumbra come â we have some good ones going
here. We started off a little makyo, but now weâre getting the good stuff.
Okay. What else?
LINDA: Iâm going to give the mike to our very, very famous
special guest here today â Patricia Aburdene, the author of Conscious Money.
ADAMUS: Oh!
LINDA: Since all these abundance problems, this woman âŠ
ADAMUS: Do you get paid for these product positions?
LINDA: This lady has answers.
ADAMUS: Do you get product placement, you know, commission?
LINDA: Yes, I do. She sends me blessings.
ADAMUS: Good.
LINDA: Thereâs an exchange of blessing that goes on.
ADAMUS: Good. Do you have a copy of the book with you today?
We could hold it up for the camera. (Patricia shakes her head no) Okay.
LINDA: Itâs called Conscious Money, Patricia Aburdene.
ADAMUS: Good. So, dear Patricia, what is it about Shaumbra
in our little âŠ
PATRICIA: (she shouts) They want to be famous! (Linda
laughs)
ADAMUS: Oh yes! They want to be famous. They do, actually.
They do and they donât. Okay. So they want to be famous, and are they?
PATRICIA: No. Thatâs why you have to dredge me up. (they
both chuckle)
ADAMUS: And what is it âŠ
PATRICIA: And Iâm not even famous!
ADAMUS: Why is it that they want to be famous?
PATRICIA: Well, thatâs a validation. That means youâre
loved. Youâre âŠ
LINDA: Ohh.
PATRICIA: Youâre âŠ
ADAMUS: I love that.
PATRICIA: Look at Kim Kardashian. How can you question? How
can you ask?
ADAMUS: Such a good role model.
PATRICIA: Why?
ADAMUS: Yeah. So validation. Excellent. Validation at what
level?
PATRICIA: Well, it depends on the group. (she chuckles)
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Yeah.
PATRICIA: Depends on who thinks youâre famous.
ADAMUS: Yes. Well, the validation is kind of that human
self, what I call the little human self, that is trying to feel like a big
human self. And it wants the validation from others. It wants ⊠that part wants
to walk in a room and everybody to go âOooh. Ahh.â
PATRICIA: âThere goes âŠâ whatever.
ADAMUS: And then the validation from themselves, of course.
The validation â âAh, I made it. Because Iâm famous I did something great
that Iâm really noted for. Because Iâm famous I must be kind of enlightened.
Kind of. And because Iâm famous Iâm probably going to have some money and Iâm
going to have happiness and peace.â Yes.
PATRICIA: Sure.
LINDA: Probably sex too.
ADAMUS: Yes. How does that work?
PATRICIA: Yeah.
ADAMUS: And sex, yes. How does that work?
PATRICIA: Well, sometimes it works. It works for some people
sometimes.
ADAMUS: Yes. Yes.
PATRICIA: And then after a while maybe thereâs a little
crash.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. (some laughter) I guess so. I guess so.
(Adamus chuckles) Yes, kind of gets locked up.
PATRICIA: Well, you become ⊠itâs addictive.
ADAMUS: Yes, it is addictive!
PATRICIA: If youâre slightly less famous, then âŠ
ADAMUS: Because thereâs usually somebody more famous âŠ
PATRICIA: ⊠âIâm a failure.â
ADAMUS: ⊠unless youâre Adolph Hitler or Genghis Khan.
PATRICIA: Right.
ADAMUS: Usually, somebody more famous. And it is an addiction, not that I ever had
that problem.
PATRICIA: No! (someone else says âNoâ)
ADAMUS: But â but I had notoriety, and I like to say thereâs
a difference between notoriety and fame, although thereâs really not. Itâs just
a nice way of saying it. But addiction, they want to be famous, and it is
addic- ⊠addic- ⊠(heâs spelling it out)
LINDA: A what?
ADAMUS: ⊠tive. And âŠ
LINDA: Whyâd you get stuck on that?
ADAMUS: Ehhh. You try
to do all this.
It is kind of
addictive and itâs crazy and then they look in the mirror and say, âI must have
done something important in this lifetime.â So would it be fair to say most
Shaumbra â are they famous or not so famous?
PATRICIA: Not so famous.
ADAMUS: Not so famous. But yet do you think theyâre looking
for fame?
PATRICIA: (she sighs; someone else says âNoâ) Somebody said
no. Okay.
ADAMUS: Good. Not so famous. How many here â you can just
answer to yourself â how many here of you have kind of dreamt or
desired about being kind of a little famous? Just a little. Yeah, I mean, itâs
natural. Itâs natural. Part of it, if you take a look from the other
perspective, itâs also taking pride in what youâve done and recognizing that
other people recognize what youâve done. But it can be a trap.
How many here â and you donât have to raise your hand,
because weâre just gossiping with each other â how many of you here have
thought at one time or the other in the past, âOh, you know, Iâll be
enlightened. Iâll be kind of right up there with Yeshua and Buddha and Kuthumi.
Not St. Germain, nobody can aspire that high (laughter), but Iâll be right up
there, and yeah, Iâm going to be a Master, a teacher, a healer. Wwffft! Healed. Zap! Whoa! Everywhere I
walk, people â âAh! Please would you heal.ââ
And, in a sense, thatâs interesting, you know, because there
is something to be said about helping those who are truly ready to be helped.
But in a sense, itâs â Iâm going to say, Iâm going to put the label on it â itâs
power. Itâs power, and I just got done in Colombia talking about power and
asking the Shaumbra that were there to pull the rug of power out from
underneath them, to live powerlessly, without power. Itâs an amazing way to
live. You start discovering how much of your conflicts and problems are derived
because of power.
Excellent. Thank you.
PATRICIA: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Letâs continue the gossip circle. What else is it
about Shaumbra? Think in terms of what are their desires? What are their
realities? What are their spiritual truths? What is it about Shaumbra?
LINDA: Iâm going to another expert here.
ADAMUS: Ah yes.
MARTY (âMOFOâ): We are the worldâs best breathers.
ADAMUS: Breeders. Good breeders. Oh. (laughter)
MARTY: No, no, no, no! (someone shouts âBreatheâ) Breathe.
ADAMUS: Breathers. The best breathers.
MARTY: Breathers.
ADAMUS: Best breathers. Good. Good.
MARTY: Breathe with me. Donât âŠ
ADAMUS: Breathers. Good. Why is that Mofo? Best breathers, why
is that?
MARTY: Plenty of practice.
ADAMUS: Plenty of practice.
MARTY: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
MARTY: Yeah.
ADAMUS: What do you think happens when most Shaumbra â when
theyâre asked in a group like this to breathe â what happens?
MARTY: Itâs just a natural opening. It just comes naturally.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
MARTY: All the other advice âŠ
ADAMUS: Where do you think they go?
MARTY: Um, closer to their true self.
ADAMUS: Really. I mean really?
MARTY: Ha, ha! (Adamus chuckles) It is the easiest way to
get to center, because of all the advice you give us and that we give
ourselves, itâs the easiest thing to do. It works every time. Itâs badass.
ADAMUS: Right. It is easy, yes. It is easy.
MARTY: Yep. Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: You know instead of all the mantras and the chanting
and, you know, remembering certain lines and phrases or whatever, it is pretty
easy. Unfortunately, just between us boys, I have to say that most of the time
when Shaumbra are asked to breathe they go straight out of their bodies.
Theyâre not doing conscious breathing. Breathing gives them a license to leave
for a little while. They go into la-la land.
MARTY: Check out.
ADAMUS: Just nice â whoosh!
Wow. They donât even real- ⊠they donât do the conscious breathe, the real
conscious breath that brings up the feeling â not the thought but the feeling â âI
exist.â Take a breath on that. Wow. Yeah. A lot of them go out, but thatâs
okay. At least itâs a reprieve. At least theyâre not really getting mental. At
least theyâre just relaxing. Thereâs a biological change that takes place at
least when we say the word âbreathing.â Itâs like a hypnotic âBreatheâ â âHaah,
okay.â Good. Good. Okay, best breathers.
MARTY: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: Yes, and what else? What else about Shaumbra?
MARTY: Um. We think weâre better than everyone. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Ah. I like that. I like that.
MARTY: I mean, not in a snotty way.
ADAMUS: No.
MARTY: I âŠ
ADAMUS: Noooo.
MARTY: No! No! (more chuckles)
ADAMUS: No! (Adamus chuckles)
MARTY: We are some kickass angels. I mean âŠ
ADAMUS: Who do you think theyâre âŠ
MARTY: Itâs not bragging if itâs the truth.
ADAMUS: Sure, sure, sure. No. No, actually, you know, that has
an interesting dynamic to it â âbetter than othersâ â which is good. Now, a lot
of people would say, âOh! Shame on you for thinking youâre better.â Itâs like,
why? Why not? I mean âŠ
MARTY: Exactly.
ADAMUS: I Am that I Am. I canât help it!
MARTY: Yeah! (laughter)
ADAMUS: Sorry about your fate.
MARTY: I canât help it Iâm so damn good!
ADAMUS: I Am that I Am. So yeah, yeah. And the question I
have for you ⊠a lot of times they do think theyâre better than others, and I
purposely play right into that. I love it. And I love telling Shaumbra that I
love working with them, because I do. It would really be boring to work with
some of these other groups. Truly.
But the question I wonder at times is, is it just candy? Is
it just a little drug, a little cocaine of the day? Is it just a feel-good, you
know, just to get them back propped up a little bit to walk out the door and go
face life?
I donât know. Iâm not making any judgment. (some laughter)
But ⊠but ⊠and is it a bad thing to think I am different than others? Different
in a way that I like and I appreciate even if they donât âŠ
MARTY: Exactly.
ADAMUS: ⊠and yeah, Iâm better. So. Yeah. Thatâs a very
interesting observation. How do you feel?
MARTY: Um âŠ
ADAMUS: Letâs say you walked down to church tomorrow, which ainât
going to happen, but letâs just say you did. You walked in the door of church
and the priest is up there doing his priesty kind of thing. Are you going to
think, âPffft! Iâm better than this?â
MARTY: Thatâs very interesting you say that.
ADAMUS: I know it is. (Linda can be heard chuckling)
Everything I say is kind of interesting!
MARTY: Well, for one, I wouldnât make it through the door,
because Iâd get struck by lightning probably going in, but ⊠I actually went to
a funeral just yesterday, a service, and as the preacher was doing his, you
know, âWe are Godâs children and he gave you lifeâ and all this, Iâm just ⊠it
was very interesting what was going through me, because it wasnât pffft, psssft, cchhhhtt. But, it
was. (he chuckles)
ADAMUS: I didnât quite get that.
MARTY: I mean, you know ⊠(laughter)
ADAMUS: What was that? What was that?
MARTY: It was pffft,
psssft, cchhhhtt.
ADAMUS: Ah! Yeah, yeah.
MARTY: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Thatâs kind of like the WTF, you know, but I like
yours better. Could you do that one more time so we could play it again on the
video next month?
MARTY: Sure!
ADAMUS: Okay.
MARTY: Sure. Pffft,
psssft, cchhhhtt. (laughter and some applause)
ADAMUS: Itâs that simple!
MARTY: Easy as breathing.
ADAMUS: I see Vicki or whoeverâs going to edit just looping
that time and time and time again.
MARTY: We could turn it into a song.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Ohhh! Yeah. Good. Good. And what happened at
the funeral, after your pfft, che, pfft?
MARTY: Same as always. Everybody was, you know âŠ
ADAMUS: Out of their body.
MARTY: Yeah.
ADAMUS: They always are at funerals.
MARTY: Uh huh.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Very out of their bodies. Yeah, yeah.
MARTY: And then afterwards everybody just slowly seeps back
into the same old grind theyâre normally in.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Itâs interesting. I pop in on some funerals
now and then just for grins.
MARTY: For laughs.
ADAMUS: Things are a little slow with the Ascended Masters.
And I pop in, and itâs so interesting, because at the funerals there is the
kind of the perception, the kind of the façade of sadness, and once in a while
there actually is. But come with me some time â we should do a DreamWalk
to somebodyâs funeral (some chuckles) â but come with me some time and
theyâre thinking about what theyâre going to have for dinner. Theyâre thinking
about their vacation. Theyâre thinking about sex. Theyâre thinking ⊠yeah, in a
church at a funeral. Theyâre thinking about all these things, and a lot of
guilt. A lot of guilt, their guilt. Theyâre really not thinking of, âHey, howâs
Bob? Howâs Bob doing on the other side?â Theyâre afraid to know that Bob is
sitting right there with them, and Bob ainât happy. (a couple of chuckles)
Good. Good.
Anything else? Anything else for our gossip list?
MARTY: That about wraps it up. Iâve probably offended
plenty.
ADAMUS: Oh thatâs okay. Thatâs okay.
MARTY: Theyâre not here. Theyâre not here.
ADAMUS: Theyâre not here.
LINDA: Whoâs funeral was it?
ADAMUS: You know, perhaps the whole reason Iâm doing this âŠ
MARTY: A receptionist.
ADAMUS: ⊠is just so they damn well better be here from now
on, otherwise, weâre going to talk about them.
MARTY: Thatâll learn âem.
ADAMUS: Thatâll learn âem but good. Good. Thank you. Letâs
do a few more. Good.
LINDA: Okay.
ADAMUS: Nothing like a little Shaumbra gossip. What is it
about Shaumbra that really annoys you?
LINDA: That wasnât the original question. (laughter)
MICHELLE: Yeah!
LINDA: (laughing) That wasnât the original question! (more
laughter)
ADAMUS: I evolved. I evolved. But what is it about Shaumbra,
period?
MICHELLE: Weâre all waiting for our enlightenment. Every
month.
ADAMUS: Oh!
MICHELLE: Weâre waiting, weâre waiting, weâre waiting.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
MICHELLE: And then weâre easily distracted.
ADAMUS: Yeah.
MICHELLE: But weâre very committed, I think.
ADAMUS: (writing on board) Waiting for enlightenment.
MICHELLE: Like âWhere is it? When?!â (someone shouts âWhen?!â)
ADAMUS: Enlight- ⊠waiting for enlightenment.
MICHELLE: Yeah. By 2012, 2013 âŠ
ADAMUS: But you know, this is at the top of my list.
MICHELLE: ⊠2020.
ADAMUS: What is it about Shaumbra? Theyâre all waiting. I
mean, theyâre all waiting. I can dance up here for a while, not forever, but
for a while. I can distract, because that is my job, by the way. I can distract
for a while, but theyâre all waiting. I go back from a lot of meetings, and I
go to my castle, one of my many, many, many castles, and I ⊠(someone giggles)
And I see theyâre all waiting! So I donât mind â Iâm entertaining myself,
if nothing else â but theyâre all waiting. Yeah. Why?
MICHELLE: Because itâs the most important thing for us?
ADAMUS: No, why are you waiting. Why arenât you doing it?
MICHELLE: Oh, why arenât we doing it?
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
EDITH: Because heâs such a good lover!
ADAMUS: Ahh, thank you. Shhh! Donât tell, Edith. Edith
doesnât want her enlightenment because she thinks I wonât come around visiting
at night and âŠ
EDITH: You donât know what I want.
ADAMUS: You whispered it in my ear the other day.
EDITH: Maybe I lied.
ADAMUS: (chuckling) Good. So why the wait? Why the wait?
MICHELLE: I donât know. I think maybe weâre waiting for some
magical moment where things just instantly change.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Peowww!
MICHELLE: You wake up and you feel different. You feel
connected. You love yourself.
ADAMUS: Yeah.
MICHELLE: You donât care about being famous. You donât care
about anything, because youâre just so ⊠I donât know.
ADAMUS: Oh, letâs stop right there â you donât care
about anything.
MICHELLE: Well âŠ
ADAMUS: Well, no, really.
MICHELLE: Yeah, I just âŠ
ADAMUS: No, no, really.
No, I mean, no really. You donât care about anything. Period. Maybe thatâs a
little secret clue in our game of gossip â you just donât care about
anything.
Now, most people would say, âWell, that sounds awful. That
sounds so boring. Youâre supposed to care about things.â Really? I mean just
imagine for a moment if power was pulled out from your life, if you stopped
playing the power game. Power is everywhere. Itâs in politics. Itâs in money,
business, your relationships with others, everywhere else. Everybody plays
power. Power came to be because there was a belief that there was a limited
amount of energy and you had to steal it from someone else, because you certainly
werenât going to bother looking within yourself for energy or consciousness or
answers. So it started the whole power game, which has never really stopped.
But itâs all an illusion.
Power is an absolute illusion, because everything is within,
and that which is within attracts all the energy that you could ever need and
you never have to steal it from anyone else. But everyone lives in this
illusion of power, lives in the illusion that you have to be doing something
and that you have to care about something.
I contend that you donât have to care about a damn thing.
Then youâre free to actually enjoy everything. Powerless. Without having to
play the games. You can actually finally start appreciating having a physical
body and not worry about it aging or getting sick. You can actually enjoy being
with other people without worrying about them stealing your energy, twisting
you, lying to you, deceiving you and all the rest of that. Oh, so easy.
So I liked when you said you just donât care about anything
â period. Mm. But Shaumbra will fill in the blanks.
Thereâs always â Iâm going to put mine on
here â thereâs the what I call the infamous âShaumbra but.â One ât.â
There is the Shaumbra but. So weâll be talking at a workshop or talking in our
dream state, and youâre getting right ⊠not you, they. Theyâre getting right to
this threshold of enlightenment â âbut âŠâ
Oh! What am I to do? What am I to do? Just bring out the
wheelbarrow, fill it with all the buts and haul it back over to the other side
for a while. Thereâs the but â âBut!â Yeah. Like that. Letâs try that once
again.
Thereâs always the inspirations, everything else, and then
they get right to the moment of enlightenment â âBut!â (Adamus chuckles) Good.
What else? What else? Oh, Iâm having fun.
LINDA: Wait I got a âbut.â I do not understand Sartâs thing
here.
ADAMUS: I donât want to see Sartâs thing. I really donât.
LINDA: Heâs got this Palfinger on. (Sart is wearing a
lanyard that says âPalfingerâ) Whatâs a Palfinger?
SART: Oh thatâs a big crane.
LINDA: Sure. (Adamus motions to him)
SART: Oh, I gotta get up and talk?
ADAMUS: Would you stand up, Sart? Yes. And I want to make
sure the camera can see you. Come on over here.
SART: Oh no!
ADAMUS: Oh yes! Yes. (Sartâs chuckling) Father Sart. Yes.
Good. So what did Linda say about your thing?
SART: I donât know what it was.
ADAMUS: What thing?
LINDA: Heâs got a Palfinger. What in the hell is a Palfinger?
Sounds scary.
SART: Oh, thatâs just heavy equipment, a little truck. (laughter)
ADAMUS: I donât want to hear about it. I really donât want
to ⊠I donât want to hear about â what did you call it now â a pal
finger?
SART: Who wants to hear?
ADAMUS: Yes. Yes, itâs just ⊠ohh. So Sart, while youâre up
here, letâs move this along. Yeah. (Sat sits in Adamusâ chair) Pretty nice,
isnât it?
SART: This is nice!
ADAMUS: Yeah. I want to trade places with you. Excuse me,
Linda. (laughter as Adamus goes to sit in Sartâs chair) Yes, and âŠ
SART: Lesson for today, everybody needs to wear one of these
shirts, then weâd know where everybody stands. (some laughter)
ADAMUS: So Sart, what is it about Shaumbra?
SART: I like the part about feeling better than other
people. In my life right now I think itâs still about rules.
ADAMUS: No, about other Shaumbra. Letâs talk about them.
SART: I think Shaumbraâs tired of the rules.
ADAMUS: But they still have them.
SART: Yeah. We still live by them, but I think weâre tired
of them.
ADAMUS: Tired of rules.
SART: Tired of rules, looking for freedom.
ADAMUS: Rules. Still ⊠still trapped in them. (Adamus is
writing)
SART: I mean, the old red light and green light â thatâs
pretty good, weâve got to have that â but some of these other rules
that we have⊠(a few chuckles)
ADAMUS: Good. Good. Yeah. Give us an example of a Shaumbra
rule.
SART: Umm, that we have to fit in.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Ainât gonna happen.
SART: And weâre done with that.
ADAMUS: Not going to happen.
SART: We donât need fit in anymore.
ADAMUS: Eh, fit in. Okay. Thatâs a good one.
SART: We used to get our head whacked off for it back in the
old days, but I think thatâs changed too.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Good.
SART: We can do more enlightening. And I noticed it out in
the restaurants or whatever. I see people and they kind of cringe when I tell
them Iâve had 1400 lives maybe, and âŠ
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
SART: But I canât prove it to you.
ADAMUS: Right, right.
SART: But you canât prove to me that youâre only on your
first life.
ADAMUS: Sure. You have these conversations when you go to the
restaurants. (a few giggles)
SART: Yeah, and itâs a âŠ
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
SART: People are listening more, from my perspective anyway.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
SART: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Good. Anything else about Shaumbra?
SART: Oh, weâre a crazy bunch.
ADAMUS: Crazy bunch. Okay. Good. Thank you Sart. You can
take your equipment back to the chair.
SART: You sure? Iâm just getting rolling. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Thatâs why ⊠yeah. I know. I figured that one out.
Okay Linda, a few more here. A few more before we move on.
Shaumbra gossip. What is it about Shaumbra, huh? At least
speak your mind, speak your heart. Letâs not hold back.
JOYCE: Well, Iâm fine with them.
ADAMUS: Pardon?
JOYCE: Theyâre okay.
ADAMUS: Theyâre okay.
JOYCE: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Okay.
JOYCE: Yeah.
ADAMUS: But what about ⊠what about ⊠what are their
desires?
JOYCE: Enlightenment and thinking that through enlightenment
and their abundance will come.
ADAMUS: Oh, okay. Through enlightenment ⊠E = dollar sign.
Enlightenment is abundance. Thatâs a kind of interesting way of approaching
enlightenment. (Adamus chuckles) Okay. What about the other way around,
abundance = enlightenment?
JOYCE: Well, that would work. (some chuckles)
ADAMUS: (chuckling) That would work pretty good!
JOYCE: If the abundance was there to begin with.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Why is it that so many Shaumbra are broke,
right on the edge? Maybe not so much more than people in general â well,
maybe a little bit more â but youâd think â youâd feel â that
Shaumbra, knowing all about energy and consciousness and knowing about the
physics that weâve all come up with right here in this classroom, that theyâd
be so wildly abundant that they wouldnât even know what to do with all that
money. Theyâd just bring it here and burn it in the fireplace to keep the room
warm theyâd have so much. I donât even see a fire today, much less wood, and
certainly not money. Youâd think.
What else about Shaumbra? I can see youâre clicking away
there. What else about Shaumbra?
JOYCE: Well, we kind of like to do things our way, and we
donât like people to tell us what to do. (she giggles)
ADAMUS: Kind of ⊠okay. âOur way.â
JOYCE: So maybe thatâs why we donât have abundance, because
weâre always out there spending it.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah, or not willing to take a job.
JOYCE: Or trying a new way.
ADAMUS: Not willing to take a job.
JOYCE: Well, thatâs me.
ADAMUS: Not willing to take a job. (she giggles a little)
Not will to take a job.
JOYCE: That sounds like me.
ADAMUS: if I sound like a broken record is because a lot of
Shaumbra do. Oh, eh ⊠but there is this mentally, âGeez, I have to have a job
to make money.â Who invented that? Thatâs the biggest bunch of crap Iâve ever
heard in my whole life. Actually, having a job will limit your abundance. Yeah.
Thatâs not saying to park your Shaumbra butt on the sofa, but you donât have to work for somebody else. As a matter of fact,
I think it was Tobias that said you need to work for yourself.
JOYCE: Well, I do.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. You know, Iâm not talking ⊠weâre
talking about Shaumbra.
JOYCE: Well, okay.
ADAMUS: Weâre just gossiping about the ones who arenât here.
Yeah, good. What else about Shaumbra?
JOYCE: Mmm, sometimes they can wear you out.
ADAMUS: They can wear you down?
JOYCE: Yeah, they can wear you down.
ADAMUS: Youâre telling me?! (laughter) Oh, Iâm sorry!
(Adamus chuckles)
JOYCE: I run to the car and run home.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Is that what we call the makyo factor?
JOYCE: Yes.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Okay. If youâre wondering where weâre
going with this, I have no clue. (laughter) But weâre going anyway. Thatâs the
important thing. Weâre going. Weâre going. Okay, thank you.
JOYCE: Youâre welcome.
ADAMUS: Thank you so much. I say two more. Quick. What is it
â oh yeah. What is it about Shaumbra? Youâve just been â mm mm â thinking away
there. What is it about Shaumbra?
KATHLEEN: Stuck âŠ
ADAMUS: Stuck. Thank you.
KATHLEEN: ⊠in ⊠stuck in integration. âI have to integrate.
I have to go over the story.â Stuck in the story.
ADAMUS: Ah, well letâs do âŠ
KATHLEEN: In the mind.
ADAMUS: ⊠stuck and some processing. (heâs writing)
KATHLEEN: Perpetually recycling.
ADAMUS: Recy ⊠I like that. Good, good, good. Recycling.
Yes, as a matter of fact for the next meeting, letâs put signs up on the door
âNo recycling,â itâs funny because there are signs all over here for recycling â recycle
your butts and your cans. But, yeah, recycling. Good. Good. And back over and
over and over. Same thing. Good. And what else about Shaumbra?
KATHLEEN: Well, we are fucking special. (Linda gasps)
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. I wouldnât have used that word, but ⊠âWeâre
special.â
KATHLEEN: Why not? (Adamus chuckles)
ADAMUS: No, this is âŠ
KATHLEEN: Why not? Itâs a good release.
ADAMUS: Can I write this on the board?
KATHLEEN: Please do. (Linda gasps again)
ADAMUS: Weâll just say âSpecial; very special.â (writing)
KATHLEEN: Well, thereâs a song about that.
ADAMUS: Special.
KATHLEEN: There is a song.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Good, good.
KATHLEEN: Iâm just quoting a song, and I donât know it that
well.
ADAMUS: Yes. Good. Do you want to sing a few bars?
KATHLEEN: No, thank you.
ADAMUS: What else about Shaumbra? What about health? What
about their health?
KATHLEEN: Well, Iâm healthy.
ADAMUS: No, weâre gossiping about everybody else.
KATHLEEN: Oh.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
KATHLEEN: Theyâre using things outside of their self to try
and balance instead of owning it for their self.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yep. Always looking for outside healing
somewhere, when the simplest healing â chh!
chh! â comes right from there. Yeah. Yeah. Good. Good. What kind of stuff
do they use, because I try to pretend I donât see it? What do they use for this
healing?
KATHLEEN: Whatever medicine is in the moment.
ADAMUS: (writing on the board) Outside healing. Give me a
few examples.
KATHLEEN: Well, thereâs acupuncture. Thereâs Bach flower
essences. Thereâs oils. Thereâs all kinds of medicine.
ADAMUS: Yes. And healers.
KATHLEEN: Whatever form.
ADAMUS: And a lot of healers too to accommodate them.
KATHLEEN: And healers.
ADAMUS: Absolutely.
KATHLEEN: Yes.
ADAMUS: Good. Thank you. One last one. What is it about
Shaumbra?
EDITH: Is there anything wrong with having good gossip?
ADAMUS: I just said gossip. I didnât define it as good or
bad.
EDITH: Well, everybody is putting crap up there.
ADAMUS: Isnât that something? Amazing, isnât it? Yes. Well,
you can be the last one then and you can tell us.
LINDA: Second to the last.
ADAMUS: Go ahead
ANDY: I find the commonality of Shaumbra to be âsomething
better.â We all came here to this place to get our badge of honor in the
universe, and then we get here and itâs pretty crappy.
ADAMUS: Yeah.
ANDY: So we come to people like you who say, âThere is
something better and itâs enlightenmentâ or whatever the term of the day is,
and I think that is the commonality of Shaumbra âŠ
ADAMUS: I like that.
ANDY: ⊠is that we are looking for something better.
ADAMUS: Kind of a family, a nice family type of bond.
Absolutely.
ANDY: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Good. See? There was a nice one, Edith.
EDITH: Better.
ADAMUS: Commonality.
ANDY: Oh, itâs Edithâs turn.
ADAMUS: Kindred spirit syndrome. Yeah. (someone giggles)
And, and âŠ
ANDY: (handing the microphone to Edith) Go for it!
ADAMUS: Edith, now your turn. Gossip. Gossip doesnât have to
be what you would call negative.
EDITH: The Shaumbra I feel are thinking about how grand and
glorious it is to be an Ascended Master, to be a grand creator and to love
themselves.
ADAMUS: Oh good, good. I love that Edith. (some applause)
Would you repeat that speech? Ascended Master, and what else?
EDITH: That theyâre grand creators.
ADAMUS: Grand â oh, yeah, theyâre so good at that â grand
creators.
EDITH: And that they love themselves.
ADAMUS: And theyâre really good at loving self. Okay good. I
like this. Thank you!
EDITH: Youâre welcome.
ADAMUS: It was damn well time somebody put some nice things
on that board.
EDITH: I totally agree.
ADAMUS: Yeah, somebodyâs got to take the position of
defending the Shaumbra honor. There you go (handing the mic to Linda after
almost tossing it). So, good.
LINDA: Iâm a pretty good catch.
ADAMUS: Now, weâve got a lot of things on the board here.
Letâs ⊠weâll wrap this up now. Letâs take a deep breath.
What are we doing today? Weâll go somewhere with it. Weâre
doing a Shaumbra composite, and the fact is that weâre gossiping about
everybody else, but itâs really all of us. Well, all of you. Itâs everybody;
itâs everybody.
And my point on this day in doing our composite: I donât
know how you get through the day. I really donât. I really donât. If you look
at this board â and these are your answers, we have some what you would call
good things, not so good things â but we have things that are in absolute
discordance, absolute dissonance with other things.
There are a set of beliefs ⊠letâs start with desires out
there. A desire to be an Ascended Master, a desire to love, a desire to heal, a
desire to live a long time, a desire to be happy. Iâm surprised we didnât get
peace, love and joy on the board, because those things usually come out â peace
love and joy and happiness. So all these desires.
Then we have the realities â âIâm broke, Iâm sick, nobody
loves me and I donât even like myselfâ â in direct opposition and conflict to
it. Itâs a massive disconnection, and yet Shaumbra is going through it day
after day after day.
What A Mess!
Now weâre going to play a little game here as we go through
it, hope you donât mind. And now is the time, Suzy. Weâre going to play a game
and itâs called What A Mess! (a few chuckles) What A Mess! And Iâve asked Suzy
to prepare a special treat for everyone, and every time Iâm going through here
showing you why things are in disarray and I say, âWhat a mess!â or you say
spontaneously, âWhat a mess,â you have to take a little sip of my own St. Germain
liqueur (cheering and applause), made from pure elderberries. Yes.
LINDA: Get it. Elder berry. Ha, ha.
ADAMUS: Elderberry. Yes. Itâs a little ⊠and thereâs a
little Tequila also. (Adamus chuckles; the staff passes out small cups with the
beverage)
So the object here is to celebrate life, of course. But the
object ⊠Iâll take the St. Germain. Yes. So now nobodyâs going to get drunk. Yes.
Oh, itâs a delightful liqueur. And if youâre driving, please, please have two.
(laughter)
LINDA: Bad!
ADAMUS: And then find another driver or call a taxi. Yeah,
up here to Coal Creek Canyon.
(people start chattering as the drinks are handed out)
Ah, ahem. (Adamus clears his throat several times trying to
get their attention because he didnât get a cup)
LINDA: (shouting) What a mess!
ADAMUS: What a mess! I canât even get a drink in this damn
bar! What a mess. (Joanne gives Adamus her cup) Oh, but you need one.
JOANNE: We made enough for you.
ADAMUS: Ahh âŠ
EDITH: Sheâs the
driver. Sheâs the driver.
ADAMUS: Ahh! No. See, I said âwhat a mess,â now youâre
supposed to take a drink. (Adamus takes a sip) Ahhh! And it provides a little
relief. No, truly. Oh, itâs deli- ⊠oh, delicious.
There are times, my dear friends, where there is such a
dissonance in whatâs going on in your lives; all of you, all Shaumbra. Itâs
amazing to watch sometimes. Itâs amazing that you can stay embodied. Itâs
amazing that you can have enough food to feed yourself. And more than anything,
amazing that you donât go totally out of your mind as in a breakdown.
We talk about things like enlightenment, but yet I truly
wonder if you know what enlightenment is. Matter of fact, I would actually say
that Shaumbra does not know what enlightenment is. You hear the word, and itâs
just like taking a breath â âAh, enlightenmentâ â whoosh! Out of the body, go off somewhere else.
Weâve done this in some of our gatherings before where Iâve
had Linda pass the microphone, and I said, âWhat is enlightenment?â And itâs
rather clueless. Itâs rather clueless. I say, âWhat is enlightenmentâ and
answers start coming out that fill the makyo trash bin with all sorts of
answers â peace, love and joy. Itâs like what is love? What is peace? What is
joy?
So it creates this mental spinning thatâs going on all the
time. âIâm in search for enlightenment. Iâm in search for enlightenment, but I
donât know what it is.â Wouldnât that make a great childâs book, a childrenâs
book? Searching for something and not knowing what the hell it is. But yet
getting up every morning, having that compulsion to do it over and over again,
looking for enlightenment. And most Shaumbra, Iâm sorry to say in our gossip
session, have no clue.
The good news is youâre not supposed to really have a clue.
Youâre not required to know what enlightenment is. What a mess though!
(audience agrees) Okay. Good. Good. Yes, you take a little sip. Ah, ah. See.
This helps break the tension. This helps break the tension.
So Shaumbra is out there, in a way feeling a little better about
themselves, but yet they ⊠sex life of Shaumbra â letâs be very candid here â not
so good. Not so good. (someone says âWhat a messâ; lots of laughter) He said it;
you drink it! What a mess! Now, not for everyone, but itâs almost like sex is a
sin, and youâve got, again, this contradiction going on inside.
Sometimes Shaumbra will say, âYes, weâre here as embodied
Masters. Weâre here to be in the physical reality. The Ascended Masters in the
past have left the physical body, but weâre here to be in our body,â but yet
not even willing to touch themselves â which Iâm not going to do on camera
here â not willing to touch another, having all sorts of biases about
whether itâs man and man, woman-woman, man-woman, a group or anything else. All
these weird, weird judgments, mental thoughts and all this other stuff about
sex. Sex is a grand thing. Unfortunately, it has gotten distorted over the
ages. But, my dear friends, sex is a wonderful thing.
So, but you have this dissonant energy going on. Iâm really
surprised that some days you can make it through the day. Youâre all out there
looking for soul mates â not all, but many are out there looking for soul
mates â but doing everything they can to make it impossible. Doing everything
they can by a bad attitude, by this long list of requirements for a soul mate.
And what is a soul mate? Itâs your self. Itâs not another being.
A relationship, fine. But many Shaumbra out there right now
are doing everything they can to push relationships away, even though they will
put it on the top 10 list of their desires â âI want a relationship.â And I
look and say, âBut youâre pushing everyone away, including yourself.â What a
mess! (Adamus chuckles, as the audience says it along with him)
And for those who are still new and watching in online, I
told you it would be a little bit different here.
So this whole issue about abundance. One of the saddest
things is you have such a desire to have abundance, such a desire to have some
money in your pocket. Why donât you? Two reasons: (a) there is still â Iâm not
talking to any of you, weâre talking about the ones weâre gossiping about â (a)
because many of you are still not sure you want to be here on this planet.
Youâre still not sure you want to live. Youâre still waiting for someone or
something to say, âHereâs the answer. Hereâs why you should live.â But without
that, thereâs a lot question. And itâs interesting, as much as we have all this
grand talk about DreamWalker Life and about embodied Masters, so often Shaumbra
is saying, âI donât know if I really want to be here.â Well, then youâre not
going to be abundant, period. Because the basics of energy, physics, that
youâre not going to attract energy.
Thereâs also another interesting dynamic thatâs taking place
in spite of all the great feelings and thoughts and (sort of singing) âWeâre on
our path to enlightenment,â thereâs also that âIf I have money Iâm going to do
the same crappy things I did before. If I have money, Iâm going to make more
trouble than ever before.â So what you do is you go on a financial diet,
because you think in the past when you had money you used it for power and
manipulation. You took drugs. You got drunk. You abused yourself and other
people with it. So something in you went on this diet of no abundance. And you
feel more com- ⊠you (to camera); Iâm not talking to you (audience) but
out there. Shaumbra feels more comfortable starving than they do being abundant.
Itâs a plain fact, because anyone â ahem â anyone could have money right now.
But youâre afraid, âIf I had money Iâm
just going to be that bad human that I was before.â
What a mess!
(audience says it along with Adamus) Unbelievable. Unbelievable. You see how
you have these contradictions that are working. And I can barely understand
sometimes how you get through the day.
And I know how you get through the day sometimes. You fill
yourself with some more spiritual crap. You listen to some more spiritual
information. You prop yourself up a little bit. You get some nice catch phrases
and then suddenly you feel real good for a little while. Itâs the spiritual
sugar that you take in. You come up with a nice little validation and you
think, âWell, tomorrow will be better. I know
tomorrow will be better.â Not really. Not really. Tomorrow is going to be
kind of like today. And whatâs today? What a mess! (audience says it again
along with Adamus, followed by some laughter)
JOANNE: I thought we got through by eating chocolate.
ADAMUS: Eating chocolate and doing all these other things.
What Iâm asking you to do today is to take a look at the
dissonance, the absolute conflict thatâs taking place within your human self,
your spirit self. You have this spirit persona â the spiritual person thatâs on
the path of enlightenment â and it kind of sits up here. You put it off as
this, âThis is the thing thatâs going to save me; this is the grand being,â and
it collects a bunch of junk. It collects a bunch of candy, and it collects a
bunch of makyo that then somehow gets the human, who is over here with its
reality. The reality is generally, not always, but oftentimes pretty broke, not
a lot of money, not really any real relationships, not hardly a degree of
self-love, and health problems. Those are the basics.
Now, itâs not so bad actually if you were a regular unaware
human, if you were asleep. Not so bad, because then you just go through the day
and, you know, so if you donât have any money, you blame it on the man. You
donât get any sex, you blame it on the woman. You donât get any ⊠(Laughter and
Linda says âOhhh!â) You donât get ⊠things
arenât go- ⊠but youâre unaware, and you just say, âWell, thatâs the way it is.
Thatâs the way it is.â
You donât really think about death. Something inside you
knows itâs going to happen, because youâve seen some others drop over, but you
kind of just are asleep to it. You donât really think about God, because, well,
itâs not your place to think about God. Thatâs what the priests and the clergy
and those other folks are for. Theyâre supposed to think about God. And the
answers to God are just too big for most people to handle. They say, âOh, itâs
not my job. Iâm just supposed to live and try to do a good job.â Thatâs the way
most people are.
Youâre different. Youâre kind of waking up. Youâre kind of aware.
That makes it really tough, because now you still have some of the issues â
you, Shaumbra â have some of the issues, but now suddenly youâre aware. Itâs
like youâve got a loaded gun, whereas the others, their guns arenât loaded.
They just have a gun.
Now youâve got a loaded gun, so youâve got that awareness.
But what happens here is this tremendous clash thatâs taking place every day,
and what you do is make excuses for it. And you gloss it over. You come up with
new catchwords or phrases. You go to new classes. You do everything but address
whatâs really taking place on the inside. But what you really got is one great
big What A Mess. Good. And thereâs more where that came from, by the way.
So what do you do? You have a drink! You have a drink. Yeah.
(Adamus chuckles) Weâre not going to talk about it. Weâre not going to process
it. You have a drink.
So, waiting for enlightenment. Waiting for enlightenment.
Thatâs one of my biggest issues, because itâs one of yours â (a) donât know
what enlightenment really is; (b) what are you waiting for? To figure it out?
It will never, ever happen. Sorry to break the news to you. Youâll never figure
it out. Really.
Youâre waiting for somebody to come and tell you how to get
to enlightenment? Not another human is going to do that. Youâre waiting for, I
donât know, the right alignment of clouds and stars and dirts and bunny rabbits
and everything else to all align, and suddenly you have enlightenment? Itâs not
going to happen.
So what you do is you just barely get through every day, and
you wonder sometimes when you hit the bed at night how you got through the day, because youâve got these tremendous
conflicting forces at work. And itâs tougher when youâre on the road to
enlightenment. It gets worse, because the makyo builds up and the manipulation
of the limited being, of the limited consciousness, trying to manipulate
something that itâs called spirituality makes it feel good, makes it feel kind
of special. Itâs like a drug in a way. Itâs a huge distraction on the way. But
Shaumbra will do it. Shaumbra will pull in the junk, and theyâll go to bed at
the end of the day thinking that theyâre going to have a little reprieve when
they go to sleep.
But what happens as you do start to awaken? Your dreams are
no longer like they used to be. The dreams â suddenly youâre aware of what
happens. As a matter of fact, one of the reasons you wake up at two or three in
the morning is you need a recess from your dreams, which were a recess from
your real world. (some laughter and everyone says togetherâŠ) What a mess! What a
mess! Iâ mean, how do you get through the day?!
My dear friends, there is all of these collisions taking
place out there right now, and especially when you get into things like
enlightenment it really actually makes it much more complex. The mind starts
working more than ever before, as you have probably discovered, and now you
have spirit mind â Iâm going to call it â spirit mind operating as
well. You used to have just human mind, now youâve got spirit mind, which means
a limited and restricted sense of spirituality, and itâs actually all a bunch
of crap. It really is. It truly is, because now the mind starts to try to
embrace and to own a lot of spiritual concepts. And the spiritual concept âHeal
thyself. I am in peace, love and joy. Iâm going to om and meditate.â Thatâs the
biggest bunch of crap.
By the way, in enlightenment, youâre not suddenly filled
with peace! Youâre not suddenly â âMmmmmâ â om-ing. That is the biggest
delusion there can possibly be. Eh ⊠it doesnât happen. Not like that. Matter
of fact, the word peace goes out the door in enlightenment. Itâs not even a
word anymore. Itâs not even in your vocabulary.
You know, peace â all peace means to a lot of people is âGive
me fifteen minutes, maybe thirty minutes of just things quieting down for a few
momentsâ â thatâs peace. âI just need to back away. I need to get away
from myselfâ â thatâs peace. There is no peace. But suddenly there is a
consonance. There is a harmony in things. Suddenly, there is not having to figure
it all out. Suddenly, thereâs no longer these conflicts going on. Suddenly,
thereâs such a grace, a natural grace that takes place, and you just break out
laughing. You just crack up laughing, because itâs âŠ
PATRICIA: What a mess! (Adamus chuckles)
ADAMUS: Yeah! Yeah! It just is. And weâll get there in a
moment. But right now weâre still back in What A Mess. (someone says âWhat a
messâ) What a mess. What a mess. What a mess.
And what do you do? You take a drink. What a mess.
You have all these conflicting desires and truths â what you
would think truth â and beliefs about things, and theyâre all conflicting.
Theyâre all conflicting.
The Road to Enlightenment
It would be like ⊠imagine getting into a car â the
car is the symbol of your spiritual journey to your enlightenment â but
having no clue of where youâre going. You get in âŠ
EDITH: Thatâs like getting here today.
ADAMUS: (chuckling) Like getting here! (some chuckles) Yes.
Acting it out, you see. Having no idea where youâre going. Just you get in that
car on the Road to Enlightenment and you start going. Well, what do you start
realizing first? âI donât know where Iâm going.â But you tell yourself, âWell
something will happen along the way. Someone will tell me how to get there.
Somehow Iâm going to get a map so Iâll know how to get to enlightenment.â Itâs
not going to happen. It is not going to happen, sorry to say.
Then youâre driving along on the Road to Enlightenment and
itâs a nice pleasant day, and youâre looking out the window. You say, âOh yeah.
This is okay,â but youâre a little tentative. Youâre like, âI hope this is
okay, Iâll make myself think itâs okay. Iâll make myself think, âOh, what a
beautiful sky and the birds.â Ooh! I just hit a deer.â (laugher) And but, but âŠ
but ... (Adamus chuckles) Front row laughs. (more laughter) What a mess! What a
mess. Yeah.
And then you realize, âOh that car is making a funny noise.
Oh boy, Iâm just going to ignore that noise.â Have you done that? âIâm just
going to ignore the noise. I hear it, but it couldnât, because this is my car
to enlightenment. So Iâm going to ignore that noise.â And you know what
happens. Two miles down the road, psssss!
Could you do the sound effects for us, Mofo?
MARTY: Ppsssss!
ADAMUS: Ah, yeah. So ⊠would you mind giving him the
microphone, Linda, so we can get the sound effects properly put in here? On the
road to enlightenment you hear that clanking, clanking noise. You ignore it,
because youâre on the road to enlightenment. Everything is going to work out,
and all of a sudden âŠ
MARTY: Pffft, psssft, cchhhhtt ⊠bbpprrtt.
(fart sound; lots of laughter) What that good?
ADAMUS: Good. Good. And the car dies. What do you do?
EDITH: What a mess.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah! (laughter) There we go again. We
probably needed five bottles for today with all these âwhat a mess.â
Car dies. A lot of things happen. Once again, you get into
this dissonance with saying, âIâm supposed to be on the Road to Enlightenment,
but my car just died. Maybe Spirit is trying to tell me something.â No. Maybe
you forgot to get the car checked before you went on the journey. Maybe you
forgot to check the oil â it was a little low â or make sure that
there was something in the radiator. Spritâs not trying to tell you a damn thing.
Spirit is already enlightened, doesnât really care about your journey, you see.
(one woman laughs)
That was funny, wasnât it. Yeah. (she laughs alone again)
She gets an Adamus Award just for laughing. Please Linda. (someone says, âGet
her a drinkâ) Yeah, she need another drink! Yeah. Yes. Where are those Adamus
Awards, by the way? Linda? Where is Linda, by the way? An Adamus Award for
laughter.
LINDA: I donât have them with me today. You never give them
out. Youâre so stingy I forgot them.
ADAMUS: What a messsss! Oh! The one day. So you get all the
money ⊠I have no idea whatâs in there. (he gives her the cash from Cauldreâs
pocket)
MARTY: Oooh! Two dollars! (lots of laughter)
ADAMUS: So where were we? Oh, youâre on the journey.
So suddenly you have to use the last of your savings to get
your enlightenment car repaired and you start heading back down the road going
to you donât know where. And youâre going down the Road to Enlightenment, and
one day on this long, long, long, long, long
journey that lasts many lifetimes, one day youâre going as fast as you possibly
can, and all youâve done is get nowhere faster. (some laughter) And the next
day your spiritual mind says, âOh I should slow down and smell the roses like
the Masters did.â You know, âThey went very slowly on the Road to Enlightenment, and they observed everything and they breathed while they were
on the Road to Enlightenment,â so you go very slow. So you alternate between â
on this enlightenment journey â going very fast and then going very slow.
Putting on the gas, putting on the brakes. Putting on the gas, putting on the
brakes. Do you see the conflict thatâs going on here?
You continue along this journey of enlightenment, now
getting to a level of frustration and angst that simply would have me leave my
body. I just couldnât have handled what you are going through. Youâre going
along now; youâve been at this journey for years, driving along. Itâs the same
road. Itâs the same set of problems. Itâs the same cheap hotels every night
along the journey and the same people who are trying to rob you blind.
But you keep going because youâre determined, and you think
thatâs an attribute. You think thatâs like one of those on the positive side of
the list â âIâm determined. I have strong will. Damn it, Iâm going to see my
enlightenment through, no matter what. Iâm never giving up.â And when I hear
you say I think, âOh my gosh. I hope, I hope that somebody else comes and helps
me, because this is going to be hard!â (some laughter) When I hear you say,
âIâm never giving up! This is what
Iâm going to do!â I think to myself, âWeâve got a real problem here Houston,
because theyâre determined to go nowhere!â What does even an Ascended Master do
at that point?
You get stubborn. You get brutally cruelly stubborn on your
road to nowhere. But damn it, youâre going to do it, because youâve made a
commitment to yourself. And if you donât do it, youâre really going to be
embarrassed in front of your friends and family because everybody knows about
your little enlightenment journey and they all laughed about it. (laughter) And
if you come back and say, âMy car broke down and I went broke along the way.
Iâm starving. I have nothing and itâs all gone,â theyâre going to laugh at you.
So there is this pride of enlightenment. Pride of the
spiritual mind that you better damn well fulfill this journey or youâre going
to look like a fool.
Thereâs also the factor youâre going to look like a big fool
for yourself, and thatâs probably right as bad or worse than feeling like a
fool in front of others. You are so committed to your journey of enlightenment
within yourself. Itâs everything. Itâs everything. And if this doesnât work
out, and if this magic is not real and you have to go back to that old self âŠ
(someone says âWhat a messâ; Adamus laughs) What a mess!
And the funny thing is you really canât go back. And the
funny thing is you canât go forward. And the funny thing is thereâs nowhere
else to go. Thatâs a real mess. What a big
mess. Is there any more alcohol left, Suzy? (a few people say âYesâ) Yeah.
Good, good. What a mess.
I hope by now youâre starting to understand the conflict,
the dissonance in all of this, and I hope youâre starting to understand this is
a big train wreck on the way to happening.
So youâre driving along on this Road to Enlightenment and it
goes on and on and on, and each day is the same as the next, and you keep
having hopes of enlightenment. You keep hoping that Iâll suddenly enlighten
you. You keep hoping if itâs not me youâre going to go leave me; youâre going
to go somewhere else for the enlightenment. You keep hoping that thereâs
something.
EDITH: Pass a bill in Congress against train wrecks.
ADAMUS: (chuckling) Youâre hoping to distract me by
something else. But Iâm going to keep driving home the point. Itâs a mess in
there. Itâs a real mess. Itâs an enlightenment mess.
And the good news is, on this road to nowhere, youâre
exactly where you should be. Thatâs ⊠(inaudible comment) Oh no! No. And let me
rephrase that now for you.
I said on this road to nowhere, on the Road to Enlightenment,
with all the conflict and all the dissonance in it, youâre absolutely exactly
where you should be, because â because ⊠(Adamus writes on the board)
What? A mess? No!
You can have a drink on that. No. Actually, itâs perfect.
Itâs perfect. And all of the things Iâve said up to now are ⊠we need some more
beverages out here. Some more lemonade or whatever people are drinking.
What? A mess? Not really. Itâs absolutely perfect.
Knowingness
And what I would like to do now, especially since youâre a
little more relaxed than you were an hour ago, I want you to take a moment and
remember this whole thing with enlightenment. It didnât start with a thought.
It didnât start with suddenly one day you got so tired of your old life that
you decided youâre going to get enlightened. It didnât start even when somebody
took you to a class or you read a book. No, my friends, it did not. It started
with a deep knowingness, a very profound deep knowingness. It was not a
thought. It was not an action. It was not a journey. It was a knowingness that
emanated from very deep within.
Itâs gotten abused. Itâs gotten distorted. Itâs gotten very,
very diluted along the way. But this knowingness has always been there. You
donât know what enlightenment is, and you shouldnât know, for the limited mind
has no way of knowing. It will try to pretend. It will try to imagine, even â a
very cheap type of imagination â as you being rich and famous and sexy and
having all sorts of relationships and being a grand guru and a Master. Thatâs
what the mind does. Itâs a distraction. Itâs not real.
Who knows what is going to happen, and it doesnât matter.
Period. It doesnât matter. So I ask you to take a moment and come back to the
knowingness, the knowingness that was not a thought. There never was a car.
There never was a journey. It never was about trying to be a perfect human. It
was never about anything other than coming back to yourself. It wasnât makyo.
It wasnât phrases and words. It wasnât sitting here in the Shaumbra audience
and it wasnât efforting. It wasnât about power. It wasnât about even wisdom. It
wasnât about getting anything.
It was a knowingness â a deep loving knowingness; a
knowingness that wasnât an angel or an Ascended Master coming to you; a
knowingness that wasnât given by another, prompted by another, brought into
action by another. It came from you.
It wasnât your golden angel, your higher self or any of
those other words. It was you. It was all
you. Not just the human, not what you call the divine. It was the I Am, the
true I Am, thatâs as present here as the human is. Itâs right here.
Feeling the Knowingness
So Iâd like to do a feeling â Iâm not even going to
call it a merabh, just a feeling â back into that knowingness. If we could
get the lights down please.
After all this mess and all this chaos and confusion, after
all this uncertainty within yourself â because Iâve seen and Iâve heard when
youâve wondered if this was just a big mistake. Youâve wondered if your
spiritual journey was a delusion. Well, yes it was, but it started with
something so pure, so real and so deep.
Now ⊠if we can we get a little music in the background.
(music begins; âThe Enchanted Pathâ from the album âDay of
Lifeâ by Bernward Koch)
Iâm not asking you to go back and think about this, where
this knowingness came from. It doesnât matter. Itâs without a date. Itâs
without an action. Itâs without any relationship. You see, part of the problem
in the spiritual journey is that the mind still tries to relate everything to
everything else. And we say the word âspiritualâ or âenlightenmentâ it tries to
relate to something. Itâll grab onto whatever it can in its relational nature.
But the knowingness, that deep knowingness that you had
doesnât need to relate to anything. It just knows. Itâs just there.
The mind tries to figure out the Road to Enlightenment. Itâs
just trying to serve you. Itâs trying to do for you. But it canât know. The
mind will try to relate to something. Itâll create a visual of a car going down
the highway, breaking down. It will create the visual of you in your
determination and stubbornness for enlightenment. But the reality is there is
no car. The reality is thereâs no place to go, nothing that has to be done.
Certainly, nothing that has to be fixed. Absolutely. Thatâs one of the tricks
or the delusions of enlightenment â something has to be fixed before
enlightenment can occur. And it doesnât. Nothing needs to be fixed whatsoever.
Not one thing needs fixing. Not a single thing. I donât care if youâre an
alcoholic or if youâre an idiot. It doesnât need to be fixed. Some of you related
to that, didnât you? (a few giggles) Nothing needs to be fixed.
So I ask you to take a deep breath and stay in your body
this time. Come back to that knowingness. You
created it. Not some grand golden angel. Not some higher self. That was you,
the knowingness of the I Am.
(pause)
Following this knowingness came thoughts and dreams and
imaginations about awakening and enlightenment.
Following this knowingness came a change in energy dynamics
in your life, in relationships, in the way you interact with yourself and
others. But none of those even are very important. None of them. Theyâre not
the thing that brings enlightenment.
Itâs the simple knowingness. So simple, thereâs no
definition; so simple that the mind cannot relate anything to it; so simple
that you cannot recreate it. You cannot recreate it, because itâs still there,
my friends. It never left.
That knowingness of the I Am, it was never extinguished.
In front of that flame of knowingness you put a lot of other
things â grand, interesting experience into your own awakening â but that flame
was always there. I know at times youâve tried to recreate it â âWhere is that
feeling?â Itâs still there. It actually is whatâs really guiding you.
Sometimes when you wonder why certain things happen in your
life, why certain events, situations happen, itâs because that knowingness is
still there. In spite of your stubbornness and your determination, it knows the truth. It knows it is the
way. It knows that itâs the awakening. Itâs the only thing â only thing, my
friends â that will remain true and real.
When I say that I cringe when I hear Shaumbra saying, âIâm
going to keep going, no matter what,â I truly wish they would just stop. Get
rid of that car. Get rid of their journey. Get rid of all the makyo, and the
makyo is the gas for the journey. Never fill that tank again. Get rid of the
whole thing. Just come back to the knowingness. Nothing else matters. Nothing
else is important. Nothing else is going to bring the awareness of the
enlightenment.
Nothing.
The knowingness is so subtle. It canât even be defined. The
mind has no concept. The mind has no way to relate to it.
Take a deep breath and let yourself fall right into your own
knowingness.
Be in that beautiful embrace of the knowingness.
The knowingness was never a directive. It wasnât a directive
that said, âYou have to awaken now.â It had nothing to do with destiny or timing.
You got a glimpse of it, a glimpse of it, just a taste of it when you let down
your guard, when you surrendered to the I Am, to yourself for a moment. That
glimpse of it created a lot of mind thought, a lot of makyo, a lot of
determination. I love you, Shaumbra, for your determination. But determined to
what?
Come now and let all that battling, determination, will,
drive, push, force, power â let it all down. And amazing, youâll be okay.
Actually, better than ever before.
You can stop trying so hard. You can stop being afraid. Itâs
all right there in you â not me, in you â the knowingness, the
I Am. The knowingness itâs time to come home. Time to come home to the I Am, to
the awareness. Time to integrate, just time to come home.
Isnât it funny that you had the knowingness that it was time
to come home to the I Am, but you got in a car and went off on a long journey.
Oh, home was right there, absolutely right there. I guess thatâs why I say it
was just perfect, in a way. Exactly where you should be.
Eh, you kind of had to go through all of the trials and
tribulations before you just wore yourself out and said, âOh, here I am.â So
you stop the searching. There should be a law against spiritual searching.
There should be a law against laws, so ⊠(a few chuckles)
Oh, spiritual searching, itâs an industry, you know. Itâs a
distraction. I guess itâs an experience. Itâs frustrating, because itâs all right
if youâre doing the spiritual searching and youâre aware that youâre just searching
for the sake of searching. It gets a little sad when youâre doing the searching
and you think itâs real and you think itâs actually going to get you somewhere.
No, home â home is calling you. Home is within. No place to
go. No words to hide behind. Nothing to do. Nothing to fix. Just coming back
home.
Without buts. Without the buts â âBut what am I going to do
when I walk out the door?â Not a damn thing. You can go about gossiping if you
want, drinking, carousing, searching, thinking, battling. When you walk out
that door today, youâre going to do it at least aware that youâre doing it, at
least aware that you donât need to do it, at least aware that it was that
knowingness that called you, thatâs still calling. Itâs still there, and
thereâs not a damn thing you need to do. Nothing.
Take a good deep breath. Try to stay in your body.
Let go of some of that tension. Oh my, the tension about
awakening and enlightenment. The stress. Thatâd be a good song â Stress of Enlightenment.
If I had told you, if Tobias had told you twelve years ago
you donât need to do anything, you would have still gone out searching. Youâd have
still gone broke, had health issues and all the rest of the stuff. So I guess
youâre exactly where youâre supposed to be right now. Right now.
Home is calling all the time.
Good deep breath.
So, my dear friends ⊠oh you can bring down the music a
little bit. Weâll just stay in this nice quiet lighting for a moment.
Looking Forward
Remember, itâs your knowingness. If you ever get in trouble
while youâre out there doing your everyday human things, you just remember a
couple of things from today.
Iâm amazed that you got through it. That was a big mess, a
big, big dissonance. And you kept on trying to fix the dissonance. Thatâs the
interesting thing, and that caused more dissonance. You kept on trying to fix
things that could not be fixed, ever. But it made you feel good. Like at least
youâre fixing something, working on something. And the more you tried to fix,
the more broken it got.
Thatâs it. It was just about remembering. Home is calling.
Always is. Thatâs all. Thatâs all you need to do.
I bring this up now because 2014 is going to be an
interesting year for the world, for this planet. I am going to call it the year
of tough love for the planet. Tough love. And Iâm not talking now about
Shaumbra, about you, because youâll be able to just be the observer. Youâll be
able to stand back. Youâll be able to actually identify with what the planet,
what humans are going through, because youâll have seen â you went through
it â youâll have seen the craziness, the conflict, the dissonance, the
battling. Youâll have seen the absurdity of it all.
Youâll be able to stand back and with a few deep breaths be
able to say, âAh, theyâre just going through their experience.â
Itâs going to be a crazy year for systems and countries and
really any type of structure or method, anything thatâs rigid. Itâs going to be
a year of tough love. Itâll have its ups and down. I would say that
energetically more difficult than most other years, because thereâs more energy
now than ever. And just as your consciousness is rising and bringing in more
energy to the planet, itâs causing more awareness of dissidence and more
conflict and battling. Youâre going to see people and institutions with their
resolve â âI will never give up. I
will never let anybody take my land
or take my country or change my viewpoint.â So youâre going to see a lot of
stubbornness and determination. And youâre going to see bizarre, crazy things
coming from the mind. Youâre seeing more and more of it every day.
Iâm going to drop in a little footnote here. As there are
more of these mental medications out there, youâre going to see crazier things
happening, because you can put a sewer lid on it over here, but itâs going to
blow up over there. And itâs not going to be pretty when it blows up over
there. So youâre going to see more and more of that imbalance. You donât have
to buy into it, or if you do you realize itâs just a game you can get out of any
time. But itâll be a wild year, a wild ride.
It doesnât mean to panic; it actually means to laugh. It
doesnât mean to withdraw; it means to bring more energy to yourself. It doesnât
mean youâre going to go broke; actually, it can be a year of grand abundance
for you. Thereâs more energy than ever before.
Weâll be talking more about it in our Shouds to come, all of
us. But for now, my dear friends, itâs really about taking a deep breath and
remember that home is calling. Itâs there. Itâs there.
What? A mess? Nah.
With that, remember also that, in spite of how things may
appear to be, all is well in all of creation.
Thank you. Thank you. (audience applause)
Wonderful gossip today. Wonderful gossip. Thank you.
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