Let Go of the Control

THE TOBIAS MATERIALS

The Embodiment Series:
SHOUD 10: "Let Go of the Control" - Featuring Tobias

Presented to the Crimson Circle
May 7, 2005

TOBIAS: And so it is, dear Shaumbra, that we gather together in this classroom of the New Energy. I am Tobias, you are Shaumbra, and we are all family. Amazing times that you live in and that we share with you – it is a time of completion, a time of entire new pathways being opened, entire new dimensions. And even the word “dimensions” doesn't even serve what is truly happening.

We spoke recently to a group of Shaumbra about the Third Circle opening up. The First Circle, of course, was Home, the energy of the Kingdom, All That Was. The Second Circle was everything outside of Home, the existence, the reality that you have been in ever since you went through the Wall of Fire and went into the Void and began creating.

Now, you are on the very edge of completion of that cycle. The New Earth that we spoke of a week ago is indicative of that. The New Earth could not be built; it could not even be conceived if it was not the appropriate time. There are so many questions about the New Earth – where it is, how it is progressing, who can go there. But none of this would be possible, Shaumbra, unless you were at the point right now of completing the Second Circle.

“What is the Second Circle?” you say. It is everything outside of Home. It is your playground. It is where you are learning to be Creators. It is Creator-ship training. That is what you have been doing. You have been learning how to be Creators. You have been doing it in various ways, multi-dimensional. Then, you come to Earth, and you do it here in this very limited, very harsh reality, your last step and your last stop before going on, before going on into the Third Circle.

Words will not even do this justice, Shaumbra, in trying to describe the Third Circle. Let us just say it is the place for full Creators. Full Creators without limitation, without restriction; full Creators, what you have always thought of as the capabilities, the abilities of Spirit itself; full Creators, when you're not limited to any dimensions, any type of specific reality. We are going to ask you to feel it from the heart, not from the mind.

But you are at this point now in the evolution of humanity in the fulfillment of the Order of the Arc where it is time now to go beyond while you are still here on the Earth, still here in these human bodies, still going through this beautiful, sometimes frustrating awakening process. You are doing so many things to open the doors for others, to help others free their energies.

You wonder sometimes why it is difficult. You say to us, “Tobias, Saint Germain, and Kuthumi, Ohamah, why is it that it is difficult sometimes?” Again, it is because you are the first going through this. You are leading the way. The energies are the most difficult, but yet the most exciting.

The times you live in right now are so very exciting indeed. And perhaps you say, “But Tobias, how can you look at a newspaper or listen to the television and say the times are exciting? There is violence. There is sadness on Earth. There are wars. There is poverty.” And we say to you, Shaumbra, it is an exciting time because all of these are in the process of their change also. They are all appropriate, but they are changing, for human consciousness is coming to realize that wars don't solve anything. Human consciousness is beginning to realize that self-imposed poverty doesn't solve anything. Illness doesn't solve anything.

There is a massive shift taking place on Earth right now. What you read about in the papers and see in your news are the remnants – the drama portions, yes, the most difficult – but we’re going to ask you for a moment to feel all around Earth the consciousness of humanity. It is changing. It is tiring of some of the Old ways. It is throwing them out. It is tiring of its own suffering. That was of another time, of another incarnation. It is tiring of the limitations of the human nature. It is tiring of people trying to steal from others, take their energy. It is tired of always going to the outside to look for the answers. It is learning to go on the inside.

Read between the lines, Shaumbra, of what is really taking place on your Earth right now. Go beyond the headlines. Talk to other humans. Feel what is in their heart. When you get out of the mind and into this divine heart, divine energy, you’re going to realize that there is a tremendous, tremendous shift on Earth. Right now, there are millions and millions of humans worldwide that are aching to go through the awakening process, to learn. They don’t know where to start. That is what we have told you before. You are the ones to be the teachers.

Shaumbra, at this time of your completion, the time of Earth coming into its last true cycle before the quantum leap, before a total type of split of consciousness in order to allow a remelding; at this time right now before the quantum leap is a time where you have been going through so many of your processes. You are learning how to release. You are learning how to embody, which may seem to be a contradiction, but totally appropriate with each other.

As you embody, you accept everything fearlessly. You bring it in. You love it – everything about yourself, everything about your past, everything about past lives, your ancestral past lives, your star-seed past lives – you bring all of these in. You welcome them back to this precious, sacred moment of Now. You have this incredible family reunion, this party in the Now. One-by-one they file in. They file into your Now, aspects of you from the past. Energies that have split off from you for a long time, they file back in one-by-one, groups at a time, all coming for your love, for your acceptance, for your fearless acceptance.

No change, Shaumbra, not trying to change a thing. Why would you want to change anything about your past? You created it. The aspects are filing in, filing past you, even right now, just wanting to see that smile on your face, wanting to know that everything is okay, wanting to know that there is no animosity in your heart towards you or any aspect of you, wanting to know that you bless, just as Spirit would bless; that you release, not a release of denial, but a release of total love. Oh, you can only release something when you totally love it. You can only release something when you totally love it, you see.

So, all of those aspects of you from the past that have been waiting. All of those aspects that were buried or wounded or were in a type of frozen energetic state; all those aspects that were splintered, fractured; all of those aspects that were denied, unloved, they come filing back in now at this time of completion for your blessing. That is all. You are God also. These are your creations. They simply want your blessings right now.

Phenomenal times that you live in, Shaumbra! We know we tell you this over and over, but we are so honored to work with you. We line up here, all of us who are working with you – the energies of Quan Yin and Yeshua and Mary, Adamas, Ohamah, Kuthumi, all of us – so honored to work with you, envious in a way that we can't be there on Earth with you right now, laughing right alongside of you, enjoying all of the experiences, understanding when you get aggravated and angry, understanding when you sometimes say, “Damn it, if you’re so honored, you get down here and walk in my shoes (audience laughter). Honor this, Tobias (Tobias making a gesture). Oh, I think it’s the other way (making another gesture) – honor this!” I have seen that sign, and it doesn’t compute, as they say. I’m not sure what that means. I'll have to ask Kuthumi.

Shaumbra, you come to this time of your own completion. I know sometimes it appears that it is elusive, that it is a long way off. But it is not at all. It is here right now – that moment of completion. We’re dancing in the room right now with you. You’re tasting it already. It’s integrating with you already.

There are still vestiges from the Old that are still so present. And that is appropriate. Allow them to be with you. You’re not trying to throw them out. The vestiges of the Old that are fearful, the vestiges of yourself that fear the change, love them, honor them. Let them know that they are released anytime they want to be released. Let them know that they can be free of any structure that limits them.

What an incredible time you live in and an incredible time for Shaumbra! We told you back in August of last year that things were going to change, things were going to get different. And they have been. We told you that we were going to be bringing in different entities, different angels to talk to you about what was going on. And we have been.

And we told you that we were going to make a shift. It was going to be a time where there was no longer a need for processing. There is no longer even a need for healing because the illusion is that there is something to be healed, you see. It is all an illusion. We use those words because you use those words. But we know – and underneath even you know – there is nothing to be healed. And you say, “But I look in the mirror, and I see a body that needs healing. I know that there is a mind that needs healing. But what do you mean, Tobias – nothing to be healed?” There is nothing to be healed. There is only energy that seeks release, blessing, and resolution so it can serve in a new way. It is so very simple.

It is time now for action for Shaumbra for movement of energy. Remember, we said that you go from being the Energy Holders – oh, a wonderful job, but a difficult job. You go from being the Energy Holders to the Energy Movers. You and your consciousness take a new direction and now of just sitting in the chairs it is time to begin truly moving energy. We’re doing that right now with you. Why is that? Why is it that it is so easy for us to do it right now? It is because you have allowed yourself to get out of your head.

Oh, yes, we told a group at the Ohamah School not so long ago, “You can't get in your head; you have to use your heart. You can't think it or analyze it. You can only feel it.” What an incredible thing – 5 days of feeling and no thinking! Within hours they were ready to kill each other (some laughter).

Shaumbra, it is because the mind has been controlling. We’re going to talk about that today. You've given it permission to control. The feelings have been blocked up, hidden away, a lack of trust in how to use your feelings.

But you’re different now in a few short months even. We can tell the difference right now looking at you. Yes, even those who aren’t here physically in the room, we’re looking at you sitting in your living room, sitting on your bed, laying on your bed right now. You’re not so much blocked up there in the head. You've slowly, surely, very gracefully been allowing yourself to go into a feeling sense.

This isn’t just about emotion. It is about feeling. It is an expanded state of being, a knowingness that is divine, and not intellectual, a knowingness that you can't put your finger on. You want to try to analyze it. You want to try to figure out where the knowingness is coming from. Don’t! You don’t need to. You are going to know from the depths of your spirit where this is coming from – not from your mind, but from the depths of your spirit.

So, you’re making the shift. You are getting into a new type of balance, a new dynamic right now – of the heart, what you call the heart energy, the divine energy, combined with the human energy of the mind, of the analysis, also of the body, of this reality. It is all melding together. You are coming to the point now where you are letting go, when you are becoming who you truly are. It is difficult to go through, a difficult process. It would seem so easy, but it is difficult letting go of that story to become who you are.

And with all of this, Shaumbra, you are coming to a point where now the fun begins. Now, you are already creating the vehicles that will allow you to do the things that bring you joy, that allow your passion to come out. You’re creating the new Shaumbra venues. Some of you are creating books, others, songs. Soon it will be healing centers. Then, it will be places of truly higher learning. Then, it will be places of a healing that has never truly been practiced en masse as a group on Earth, a healing center that takes the attributes of the Temples of Tien but puts them into your Now moment without the fear, without some of the imbalanced energies that were present in the Temples of Tien but the very essence energies that we had come upon there. True healing that requires no force, no hand-waving, no need to change.

Imagine healing, physical healing where you’re not trying to inflict change. Imagine that! This is where Shaumbra is at.

Some have dropped out recently, as Cauldre has mentioned. Some felt that the – how to say – the intensity of the New Energy was a bit much. And it can be. And you know that; you understand that.

But Shaumbra, we see you moving energy right now. We see in the potential creations – the etheric creations that you are working with on the inter-dimensional levels – we see what you are putting together, the potentials that you are going to be bringing down to Earth soon. But in order to do that, we need to cover a few things with you today. We need to talk about a few elements that would certainly make it even more graceful, make it even more New Energy.

So, over these past several months Adamus, also known as Saint-Germain, has been speaking to you about the true freedom of the soul. The soul has been trapped in an energy, trapped in your Creator-ship. It has been put into a mold, so to speak. It has been put into the birdcage. It is now time for that to come out.

Adamus came and spoke to you about his past, who he was – yes indeed, offended some – but what a delightful thing to be able to talk that well about your story! Why are you ashamed, Shaumbra, to talk so boldly about your story? Perhaps, you are fearful that other humans might run the other way, might think that you are arrogant. Perhaps, one day they too will learn what a beautiful thing to talk well about your stories.

Humans tend to continue to beat themselves up about their stories. Start talking well about yourself. It’s a wonderful thing, even if no one else cares or listens (some laughter). At least you have made a friend with yourself.

So, Adamus talked well about his story, and an incredible story it is. Much of it embellished, I have to add (more laughter), polished off many of the rough edges he did. But his point was – as you already know – to wake you up a bit, to shake you up a bit. He told you the story of how he was trapped in this crystal for 100,000 years. And I have to tell you a bit of a secret. He is not here today, so I can say these things. Time is not what it appears to be. A hundred thousand years in Saint-Germain's exaggerated state of being could be a few minutes of time in your reality (more laughter). So, take it for what it is.

Actually, it brings up a delightful point. Time is a very flexible reality. Many of you get trapped in it. And certainly, you think your world needs to operate in it. But it is much more flexible than what you think. Two thousand years ago, when most of you were here on Earth, time was different than it is now. A day was not a day, as you know now. A year was not a year.

Now, the scientists would argue with that. And they would say, “We have scientific, conclusive proof that this is the way it is. This is how time operates.” But we would remind those very scientists that the ones who came before you also felt that the Earth was the center of all things. There were those who felt that the Earth was flat. There were those who had all sorts of scientific notions that are no longer true in this day and age. So, just as well, your scientists will learn that time is very flexible.

Time speeds up and slows down in this reality all at the same time. You wonder why some days you feel unbalanced. You wonder why some days you hardly know who you are anymore because part of you is trying to stay in the Old track of the time that you have on your wrists. While the reality is shifting, time is slowing down and speeding up all at the same time. It is an incredible thing, so take nothing for granted anymore, Shaumbra. Take nothing for granted.

Adamus talked about how he was trapped in the crystal and how he tried every means he knew to get out. He tried to force his way out. He tried to cry his way out, beg his way out. He tried to psych his way out. He tried everything. And he finally learned that he was only using the tools from his reality. He had to go beyond. He had to live beyond. He had to literally expand his reality-base, for he had placed himself in a limited state of being.

His crystal is both a metaphor and a reality. But it was a limitation, like each of you live in a crystal right now. Yes, you do. You live in a beautiful crystal called “human.” You are inside of it, wondering how to go beyond. You have tried to break out. Some of you even tried to end your life, thinking that would get you out of the crystal. It just puts you in a more solidified crystal, that’s all. Some of you have tried to beg, borrow, steal, cheat, lie, every way out. It just makes the crystal a little bigger, a little harder, and a little brighter.

So, Saint-Germain talked to you about going beyond, living beyond, having such an intimate trust in yourself, to know that you already gave yourself the tools. Oh, the tools aren’t the tools that you would think of. They are not a specific method. It’s not a specific type of ceremony that you have to perform. It’s not a key hidden word, none of those things.

It is about trust. It is about embodying everything. The moment that you bring back in every aspect of yourself and bless it and love it is when you discover this key. As long as there are parts and pieces of you that are scattered out there, parts of you that you don't love, parts of you that are trapped in energy, you won't be able to see what is already right there.

Oh, and you will get angry with us, and you will cry out, and you will say, “Tobias, this is some type of trick. You say that it is there, but I have looked everywhere.” If you’ve looked everywhere, look at the parts and pieces of you that aren’t loved, that aren’t accepted. The Fruit of the Rose, the passion of passions, is a total love and acceptance. Oh, we’re not talking about an intellectual love here, but a true love from the heart, a true love of everything that you are.

So, Shaumbra, let us talk about one of the things that truly, truly is holding you back right now. It is not a major deal. It is not difficult to go beyond. But it is there, sometimes so close to you that you don't even recognize it; you don't even see it.

It is this issue that we spoke of at the end of our last gathering – the control. Now, a Creator who lives within the creation will tend to want to control its energies. You want to control everything about you. And for the sake of our discussion here today, let us not think about you trying to control the outside world. That is truly more manipulation. Let us take a look at the control that you have for yourself. We know many of you worry about controlling others. But that is a whole other discussion, and literally doesn't even occur when you’re not trying to control yourself.

So, what type of controls are there? There are very obvious ones, simple ones. You try to control your thoughts. You try to control your thoughts. You think that you could not have any bad thoughts, for instance, because then you will be a bad person. You will add to this – how would you say – the spiritual pollution that is taking place, the etheric garbage that is floating around all over. Well, that is a wonderful, controlling judgment in itself. You try to control your thoughts. “I cannot have bad thoughts. I can only have good. I must think good things.”

Let that go, Shaumbra. Have a bad thought right now (audience laughter). Let us have one bad, big, bad thought right now. Let us think something really bad (more laughter). Think something bad. Oh, it even makes you scramble to think about thinking something bad. “Oh, what if we’re so powerful? What if we all think something bad and the roof falls in?”

Shaumbra, that is a control that you have placed on yourself and perhaps one of the most difficult things that you have working against you right now. You are trying to control your mind. And you are literally driving yourself crazy. You have placed so much burden and responsibility on your mind. And then you try to control it. You try to control its functions. And it is constantly trying to respond to you, constantly trying to serve you.

But it is getting very frustrating and very worn down because of the controls that you place on it. You say things like, “I cannot say a bad word, for that will go into the ‘bad bucket.’ And the ‘bad bucket’ will get so big it will take over the ‘good bucket’.” (some laughter) You think you can't even say the word “darkness.” So, you control. And what you have done is limited yourself. You have cut off a vital supply of energy flow. How can you be an Energy Mover when it's not flowing?

There are those of you who have taken these classes and these courses in visualization. Control is all it is. Yes, it was wonderful. Love it. Love going to the class and love the teacher because it served you. But now let go of that control. Visualizing is a type of control. You think, “I can only visualize a good Earth.”

Let’s take a moment here and visualize a very bad Earth (more laughter), very polluted, very overrun with treacherous beings and controlling – oh, that is what it is like (more laughter). Well, you see what you have already created here! You are trying to control your visualizations. You are literally taking a beautiful, very large type of pipeline for energy flow and limiting it to a little one.

It is like your plumbing at home. At first it is open; it is allowing the energies to flow through it, no matter how bad those energies smell. But after a while it plugs up, and the inside of the pipe gets smaller and smaller and smaller. And finally, one day it doesn’t work at all. And then you know what happens. You have to call the plumber. That is why we are here.

Shaumbra, let us take a moment here. Now, this is living beyond. Some of you may not feel comfortable with this. You can leave if you want to right now. We are going to visualize. We are going to allow the image of a very dark and bleak Earth to come in. Can you do that? It hurts, we know. But there's more to it. An Earth that is sad. An Earth that is dark. An Earth that is suffering. An Earth where there is control one person to the other.

You have just allowed yourself to feel or imagine a reality that exists. There is an aspect of the planet Earth that you live on, right now there is an overlay or another – what would you say – dimension where this does exist. It is a potential. It is not being acted out by the actors on Earth. It is setting somewhere slightly offstage. The attributes of it are brought into this beautiful stage-play of Earth at times. Parts of the sadness, parts of the darkness, and the suffering come in. But it is not because humans are visualizing it. It is not because humans are focusing on it. It is that they’re selecting elements to experience.

The point here, Shaumbra, is you try to control not only your thoughts but your dreams, your creativities. Probably for good reasons, you learned a long time ago how powerful you truly are. So, what did you do? You started controlling, rather than creating. You started limiting, rather than opening up.

You try to control your body. And then it gets you in trouble. You try to control your looks. You do this all the time with how you groom yourself, how you dress yourself. You try to control all of that aspect of you.

Take a moment, and for a moment, take off the controls. Let them go. Take a look at your true self, rather than just that aspect that you see in the mirror. See who you really are. Some of you control and say, “I have to pretend that I’m kind of good-looking.” Some of you have a type of other control that says, “I’m not good-looking at all.” You’re controlling yourself. You are defining an energy, and then believing in it and sticking to it, and it sticks to you. You control how you look. Oh, there is tremendous control.

You see that Saint-Germain talked about the hypnosis, the overlays. There are such incredible controls that you buy into. And then you control it even further within yourself. So, if you live by the control of the fashion industry – one of my pet peeves. In my days we wore a simple robe. And one day perhaps we will return to that.

But there are controls that you buy into. Let go of those controls. Do as Cauldre does – dress poorly one day (much audience laughter). He previously agreed to let us say that. Stop trying to control your outer appearance. Someday, get up and dress the way you want, not the way you control yourself to dress, you see.

You try to control your body. You try to control the biology that is taking place. You even pretend some days that you feel good when you don't feel good. You deny that parts of you are aching. Oh, once in a while you go into total collapse, and then admit it all in one sorry moment. But Shaumbra, you try to control your body.

You try to force healing on yourself, and it won't work, not where you are right now. Forced healing won't work. You are trying to manipulate the body. It knows what to do. You designed it that way. You are the Creator. You are the chief engineer. You designed it that way. Your body already knows what to do. It does not need your control anymore. Take off the controls. Take them off.

You try to control your spirituality. And that is one of the most difficult things. You have created this whole thing about your spiritual being, and that is a beautiful thing. But now you try to control it, about what is right and what is wrong. The spiritual being says that you can only eat certain foods or do certain things. Try letting that go. Try doing something – what you would say – bad. Try going the other way.

You try to control the image of God. But all you are trying to do is limit the very nature of God. You’re trying to control who God is and what God is. But you know, you don't know. You don't want to know in the head; you simply want to feel and be with Spirit.

You have concepts. You espouse on them. Many times, you talk to them about your concepts with friends and family. You limit the nature of Spirit, partly because of the fear, partly because the controls. Let go of the controls of God. Stop trying to define it. Just be in that energy of Spirit. You control it through this whole thing that you’ve done in the past, not so much now, but even this whole thing about God and Satan, controlling the nature of what you think is right and wrong.

You control this whole thing about your own abundance, your inner and outer abundance. And you say, “There is only so much. I’m only entitled to so much. I’m only worthy of so much.” You control that. Imagine what it would be like to be outrageously wealthy! But yet you control it. You ask for it on one hand, but yet you control it.

Your reality right now is set up in a series of controls that you have on yourself. One of the most amusing ones is you control yourselves so much, control that you won’t even let yourself get angry. You say you’re a spiritual person, “God doesn't get angry.” Well, God does get angry. God allows that. God embodies that. God loves getting angry, but it does not have to be manifested in the type of ways that you would consider to be harmful for others.

You try to hold it in. Shaumbra, do something in these next 30 days. Try not to hold it in. Try to tell someone exactly how you're feeling. You try to mince your words. You try to control. You say, “Well, I do this out of love.” But it is not love at all. You are choking yourself, and you are literally choking that other person.

But you say, “Tobias, now if I practice this all at once, and I take off all of the controls, I may just walk out the door and hit someone. I may say something to someone that I’ve wanted to say for a long time, but I haven't because I don’t want to hurt them.” Indeed, what a wonderful experience – being honest, being open, letting the energy flow unrestricted!

You say, “But if I take off the controls, I know I will run home, and I will raid that refrigerator for all of the chocolate and all of the cake and all of the pie and chocolate chip cookies and perhaps a glass of wine to wash every one down (some laughter). I have to control myself, Tobias. I have to control myself. I have to control my body, for if I don’t it is going to do all sorts of funny things on me. I have to be socially polite. I can’t let out those little noises in public (more laughter). I have to control myself.”

Shaumbra, you don't have to control a thing anymore. Now, that is a big step. That is a huge step. That is a step that most other humans couldn't even imagine. But we’re at that point now. Can you let go of the controls?

What are the controls? What is control? Well, it’s a limitation of energy. It is a way of the inner being literally trying to hold onto its identity. As we have said before, in the Old Energy every entity identity will try to preserve its own self, you see.

Your story is trying to preserve itself right now, the aspect that is racing right now, saying, “Tobias doesn't know what he is talking about today. I’ll pretend to let go of one or two controls, ones that I didn’t like. But if we let go of all controls, what might happen? What fools we might make of ourselves? What things would become of us in our life? What would others say?” We have to tell you that they’re already saying it, so that doesn't matter (more laughter).

Controls are a restriction of energy. They limit it. They actually literally slow energy down. They literally slow time down. They confine space.

So, what we are coming to you with today upon your request upon your Shoud energy is to say, “It is time to let go of the controls.” Now, when you do, things will change. Adamas asked you in our last gathering, “Are you ready for true changes? Are you ready to trust yourself implicitly?”

When you let go of controls, you see, it is trust. You are flying now on trust. You are operating in every moment on pure trust for yourself. Do you trust Spirit and yourself so much that you can let go of the metaphoric controls and the literal controls that you have? Can you let those go?

Now, you’re going to fight for them. You are going to say, “I have to have certain controls to do certain things.” We are going to ask you to look at every one of them. Do you really need it? You are going to say, “But I have to have a certain amount of control when I'm driving my car.” Or do you? Or do you? We won't answer that question now.

You are going to say, “I have to control certain things about my processes. From the moment I get up in the morning I have to control time, so I’m at the office when I'm supposed to be.” When you're supposed to be! What an overlay. What a hypnosis that you have fallen into!

And you say, “But Tobias, if I'm not there on time, then I get fired. And who’s going to pay my bills?” Ah, another control we’ve just run into, a control that says, “I have to go to work to pay my bills.” First of all, who says you have to pay your bills? Who says that the abundance doesn't come in in many other ways that facilitates the proper exchange of energies that should be taking place?

But you see, controls, belief systems, overlays, hypnosis – they have affected you. What do you do about them? You love them. You love them. You bless them, and you let them go now. You let them go.

What would it be to have a life without control of everything around you, without all of that energy, volumes of energy, that you use to control? It makes me tired to see it. That is as one of the only reasons, Shaumbra, it is difficult to come in this close to your reality.

Sometimes we have to back away because the volumes of energy that you go through and the manipulation of energy that you do is very tiring even on our energy. We are not insulated from it. We are that close to you. You consume enormous volumes of energy to live in your reality under the control structure that you have, to live in your reality with its illusions and its beliefs and its hypnosis.

We asked you a while back, “Are you ready to go beyond mass consciousness?” And you said, “Yes,” most of you. And we’ve been working with that ever since. We now get to the point of saying, “Let go of controls.” It certainly will present some challenges.

And again, we are going to remind you very clearly. We are not talking about trying to control your outside world. It is about the control you have on yourself. Don't even worry about what you would call outside world control. Don't start racing through how you control your family – yes, you do, but that's not important right now – how you control your friends; that is incidental.

Once you let go of the control of yourself, the rest of these things are released as well. If you try to work from the other way, in other words, releasing control of the outside first, it simply will grind you in a bit deeper. It is about the internal controls, the control of the mind, the control of your senses.

You have such precise control of your vision right now that you can’t see me. I’m here. I’m so close to you. But you’re controlling your eyes. And as you get on in your biological years, you try even harder to control your vision. You say, “But I must. I must work on putting energy into my eyes, so I can still read without glasses, so I still can see distance.” Or, really, Shaumbra, perhaps you're sending massive amounts of controlling energy to your eyes, and they’re simply crying out to be uncontrolled.

Perhaps, it may get a little blurry at first when you let go of the control. Perhaps, the muscles are going to relax a little bit; they’re working so hard right now. But then you’re going to panic, and say, “Oh, Tobias, you don’t know what you’re talking. I let go of control, and now my vision is truly blurry.” But perhaps, blurry occurs before a new clarity that is based in multi-dimensional vision sets in, you see. You control all of your senses so professionally, so accurately. You try to maintain that control in a time right now when it’s not appropriate to maintain it.

The thoughts. Truly, Shaumbra – we’re not just joking here – truly, go out and think really rotten thoughts. It’s been so long. You need that celebration. You need to think “bad” for a little bit. It is like pent-up, stinking energy that needs to be released. It needs your love as well.

That is probably to me one of the most amusing things about Shaumbra – is your total commitment, your total dedication to this incredible work you are doing that has led you to this thing that you can only think “light;” you can’t think “dark.” You can only think “good,” because if you think “bad,” surely, you'll blow up the world. You see, we asked you several minutes ago to think “bad” about Earth. The Earth is still here. It did not blow up.

We’re going beyond a type of consciousness and into a new type of conscious New Energy creation where you don't need to worry about what you think. We’re going beyond the mind. We’re going beyond limitations. We’re going into this area of trust. We’re going into this area of open, wild, wild, west type of expanded beingness.

But we have to take off the controls. And you control yourself all of the time so very well; so very well, every little thing. And again, you control you – forget about the outside world – how you control yourself.

You control your money so much that it actually hurts. It hurts us to watch it. We laugh; sometimes we cry. You control. You believe that money has energy. You control it. You look at your checkbook, and you control them. Well, you say, “Tobias, I have to. I have to control. I have to balance my checkbook. And I have to watch every penny. And I have to be on a budget.”

It is so tiring, Shaumbra, so limiting, so un-Creator-like, so un-New Energy. Stop controlling your money. Let it go to work for you. Take a few dollars, throw it on the ground (laughter). Truly, you have it so wadded up in that purse or that wallet of yours. It hurts you sometimes to crack that wallet open. Do you think all of the money energy is just going to leave you? No, when you stop controlling, it comes back in ways you couldn't imagine.

You say, “But I don't have the proper education. I don't have the knowledge of the financial markets.” Such control you place on yourself, such limitations that you own and you buy into! Financial energy is truly one of the easiest things to get back into flow.

And we’re working intensely with some Shaumbra right now to do that. We are going to have this whole Shaumbra aid where it is an immense uncontrolled type of pot of energy of money that is going to flow in and out. But you have to let go of the Old controls, the Old beliefs. Think something bad about money for a little while (laughter).

Truly, Shaumbra, we’re going to ask you this whole month, “Think something bad.” We know there might be some who don’t at all understand where we are going with this. They are so controlling of every energy about themselves. They think they almost always have to think “good.” They have to always think the holiest, pure thoughts. They can never think “bad.” You are controlling yourself if you do that. You are controlling yourself. You have just drastically limited the amount of energy that comes in.

Energy is nothing but potential. It doesn’t have a signature on it. It doesn’t have a vibrational imprint on it until your consciousness brings it into the reality. You can think something bad, dark, gruesome even. And you always do, you just pretend you don’t – another form of control. But now you can do it. You have a license to do it. And watch what happens. The dark isn’t dark. The bad isn’t bad. And the light isn’t light either. It is a flow of pure divine energy, uncontrolled, unlimited, unrestricted.

Take off all of the controls, Shaumbra, all of them about yourself. Don’t control money. Don’t control your body. Don’t control what you eat. And especially, don’t control what you think.

Don’t control what you say for the next month. This is true homework. Don’t control it and watch what happens. Oh, it will shake some up! (more laughter) Say it. And when you say it, feel how you are feeling. Feel the energies flow through. Feel how so much of you has been locked up and suppressed and hidden for a long time.

You’re so fearful about letting yourself come out that you control yourself. You’re so fearful that you could hurt another person. You can’t. Trust me, you can’t. You cannot hurt another person, not in the consciousness that you are in now. That is an Old Energy attribute. Yes, there are still humans that can hurt each other and be hurt by each other. But you have moved beyond that. It is about standing behind the short wall.

Watch what happens when you open your mouth, unrestricted, unlimited. Oh, you fear that. You fear, “But Tobias, something will come out of my mouth.” Watch what happens. Feel the energies. Watch the perfection of what happens. Stop controlling.

Some of you want Spirit to speak in you and through you, but yet you control it. Just open it up. Let everything open, Shaumbra. It’s going to be a different experience. You’re going to realize how much you’ve been holding back, how much you’ve been blocking yourself, how much you’ve had these Old Energies limiting you.

We did bring in a guest here earlier today. We wanted them to hear what was going on. We wanted you to feel the intensity of their energy. It is what you would call in your psychological terms, your “parent self.” It has been in this room surrounding you, the parent self.

Now, we’re not talking about your literal parents, although sometimes you identify the archetypical energy with them. But it is the parent self, the part of you that says, “Don’t do this. Don’t do that. You’ll get hurt if you do this. You can’t do that. These are the rules. You must obey them, or else.” You have this matrix of energy built up inside of you, the parent self.

And the parent self quite frankly is tired of its role now. It’s not needed anymore. In the New Energy, as a Divine Human, you don't need the parent self anymore. You don't need that watchful, loving, but controlling energy around you anymore. The parent self comes in today to get its papers, its walking papers from you. The parent self needs you to consciously release it. And it wants to be released. It wants to go back to its pure state of being divineness. It doesn't want to be trapped in parent-rule-control energy anymore.

There are no rules in the New Energy. There are no controls where we’re going to. There are no limitations about who you are and what you can do.

So, Shaumbra, you brought the papers with you. You didn’t know it, but you did. You brought them with you. They just need your signature. They need you to hand over to the parent self of you the release papers. They have served their time with you. They have gone beyond their time.

Just imagine yourself, signing off, if you so choose not to have the parent self controlling your life anymore. They’re done with it. They don’t want controls anymore. They know it doesn't serve you. The loving parent part of them, of you, knows you don't need it anymore. So, whenever you are ready, simply sign off. Let go of the controls.

And again, this is one of these things. It is same thing we talked about with trust. You can't just do some. It is time to let go of all of the controls, the controls you have on yourself, the limitations that you have placed on you.

You even have set up this wonderful illusion that you control that says you are of a certain age. Let go of that control. But you say you look in the mirror, and you see the age. Let go of the control. It doesn't serve you anymore. Literally sign off its papers also. Say, “Dear, Age-control, Age-self, I sign off. I let you go.”

That control energy that you have – that some of you truly love playing with, some of you truly love trying to over-control, that is actually physically backfiring on you now – is the control you have over your gender. “I am a male. I am female.” You control that energy. And you are no more. Sign off those papers as well.

Let the masculine limited energy go, or the feminine. You are no longer a woman, even though you may look like one. When you take off the controls, and you say, “Oh, my gosh, I’m a woman. I’m going to grow hair in the wrong places. (laughter) I’m going to start looking manly, get a low voice like Cauldre.” That is a form of controlling control. Let that go. Perhaps – perhaps, perhaps – you would turn even more feminine, beautiful, but integrate masculine energies that you needed for strength, masculine energies you needed for balance.

Let go of every control, the control that says that you have a certain physical handicap right now. Let that control go. Let yourself return back to a pure state of physical being as well. Break down your controls in these next 30 days. Take a close look at them – how you control your life. It is overwhelming. You are going to have to buy many, many, many notepads (laughter) to write all of your controls. Again, it is not about worrying about others. Don’t worry about how you control others. That will naturally go away.

What this all leads to, Shaumbra – the release of controls, letting go of your story, blessing every part of you and letting the energies become unstructured, become free and open – what this leads to is something that you’re all going to be talking about and writing about and teaching to others. It’s called the “synchronistic life,” the “Shaumbra synchronistic life.” What is that? It is when you have no more control in your mind. It’s coming from your divine inner knowingness where you’re not trying to control your life. You are simply living it. The synchronistic life is when everything truly comes to you, every energy you ever need.

We have talked about this before. It has been a concept. And now it is time to put that into reality. Everything is suddenly there. You don't have to control it into reality. It appears out of service to you. The synchronistic life is there when every resource and tool and bit of energy is there at the appropriate time, perhaps not before, but always at the appropriate time.

The people, the coincidences, everything becomes synchronistic. It just is. It defies even explanation and certainly defies analysis. It is beyond control and now into flow. The synchronistic life is where everything happens so appropriately, gracefully, and divinely in the moment, where the fears of tomorrow are gone and the remorses of the past are released. The synchronistic life is where everything simply appears to you almost out of thin air.

The synchronistic life, Shaumbra, is when the answer is there before the question is ever asked. That is true synchronicity. And that is what some of you are beginning to experience, and all of you will experience. It is when it is there before the need ever, ever comes about. That is the synchronistic life. We will speak more about this in our next gathering of Shaumbra.

But for a moment take off the controls. Feel the energy of the synchronistic life – your life – without controls, without limitations, where everything is in a flow. It is flowing from you. It is not being set up by the others. It is your flow. It is your divinity, truly brought to Earth, living on Earth.

You’ve set up controls for your human condition because you had to. Remember a long, long time ago when you incarnated on Earth, it was so very difficult to hold your energy into this planet into matter. You set up an elaborate series of controls that would keep you here, that would keep you present on Earth. You have built upon those controls. Now it is time to release them. You don’t need those controls to have your energy totally present here on Earth and other places simultaneously.

Shaumbra, the journey can be difficult at times because you are the first going through it. The journey is so very rewarding because you are the first. The journey is so very sacred because the others come after you, after you learn about the synchronistic life, the synchronistic way. The others will cross that bridge also and learn what you have learned from the grandest teacher and the grandest master of all, from you.

And so it is. 

THE TOBIAS MATERIALS

The Embodiment Series: "SHOUD 10" - Featuring Tobias
Questions and Answers

Presented to the Crimson Circle
May 7, 2005

TOBIAS: And so it is, dear Shaumbra, that we continue in this classroom of the New Energy. We continue with the letting go of controls. We continue with the beautiful energy of the music, with the shifting from the Old head energy – which was designed for control on purpose – into a New Energy of the divine heart, the blessed heart that doesn't need controls.

You see, when an actor steps out on stage to create its part, it needs to define itself. It needs to create itself, you see, so it places certain limitations or controls to help define the part that it is playing, to help create the identity. But at a certain point the controls and limitations actually work against the desire for that entity to continue growing on its own. So, you have to take off the control. The actor has to release the controls, the limitations, all the definitions of itself, so that it can truly evolve the role, truly evolve the identity.

Spirit is much like that, giving you total freedom to go out and define yourself. Now it is time for you to give yourself that same freedom also. That is why we say at this juncture that we’re at – this time of completion and fulfillment that some misunderstand to be the end of days – it is just a change of days.

But at this grand time of fulfillment, Shaumbra, it is time to take off this control. Let your own identity spread its wings to be free to experience things that it has not experienced up until now. That is why we say, “Stop controlling your mind. Stop even believing that certain things cannot be done or said. Allow them to come out.” You are going to be quite surprised at what truly does come forward. Your fears about being totally inappropriate, totally – how to say – going the wrong way, are soon going to be alleviated because you are going to feel and hear the wisdom and the love radiating from your very being.

We are going to ask you a question in addition to the homework, the homework being to begin to list all of the controls. Be very aware of the controls that you have on yourself, controls of body, mind, and spirit. Keep a notebook just to help you be aware of how you control things. And it is not a bad thing. It is just something that has been done.

But in addition to the controls, Shaumbra, also ask yourself this question: “Why am I here right now?” Ask yourself, “Why am I here on Earth in this reality?” Write that question down and watch how the answers start coming up in ways that perhaps you can't even think of now, variations of the answers. Different dimensions or levels of the answers will start coming up. Once you take off the controls, once you begin to see who you truly are, you are going to be surprised at some of the things that come back to you – your own inner voice, your inner spirit talking to you.

“Why am I here right now?” It is not because of some of the Old Energy thoughts that you might have had about it – that you just happen to be here or you are here for karma, you’re here because you took the wrong turn on the road (audience laughter), you’re here because you’ve been assigned to some godforsaken outpost in the universe (more laughter).

Write down “Why am I here?” And then let the answers come from within you. And you’re going to hear, and you’re going to sense, and you’re going to know certain things that are going to be very interesting. We’d love for you to share some of this at our next gathering. “Why am I here right now?” But feel it for yourself.

So, with that, we are being asked to let go of our control of the platform here and get on with the questions at hand.

LINDA: Tobias, it’s been quite a joy to have you here again. And we’re so grateful to you. Where was our buddy Saint-Germain today?

TOBIAS: He had to take a bit of a vacation, a bit of a respite because of all of the energies that he was using to work with all of you over these past few months. So, he had to go off on his own for a bit.

Even on our side we find it truly very important to go and re-energize and recharge. It is very difficult for those in the angelic realms to come in close to Earth. There is an incredible pull. There is an incredible – how do you say – a sucking sound of energy (audience laughter) when we cross your border and come onto your side.

In a sense, we literally have to establish a type of lifeline going back to our side, for once in a while the entity will fall in and get back into the energy of Earth and not be able to get out. And we have to send in rescue teams, and it gets very messy. And we’re misunderstood as being little aliens and the fighter jets chase us all over the place. We’re just trying to rescue our own who have gotten trapped here (more laughter).

So, Adamus has taken a bit of a break and definitely needed the rest. And he will be returning. Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 1 (from the Internet, read by Linda): Tobias, I attended the Wall of Fire workshop last month. Thank you so much for creating this life-changing opportunity. When I came back to Germany, I felt a very heavy and Old Energy in me and some of my Shaumbra friends. In this lifetime I am together with some wonderful friends. Two years ago, I started a Shaumbra group with them. I noticed a very old and heavy energy in some of us. It feels very wise and strong, but still it’s sitting and not moving at all. It wants to become alive again. We’re stuck with that energy and ask for help. Can you give us some insight into this deep, heavy, and ancient energy, and help us to start moving it?

TOBIAS: Indeed, any time you go through the type of energetic change that you did through the Wall of Fire experience – and truly the changes were because you had given permission, and you were with a very intense, strong group of Shaumbra – so now you go back to your old environment. You go back to a country that is filled with history and filled with experience from the past. You go back to family and friends that also represent so many of the Old attributes of yourself. And it does feel very heavy.

And that is probably the biggest challenge of being Shaumbra – you can have an incredible amount of enlightenment, but you’re still operating in a 3D world. It is still very thick and very heavy. Simply by acknowledging it here and simply by bringing this question out, that in itself begins to move the energies. That in itself helps you to release you from the heaviness of where you are.

But it is very similar, in a sense, to the very last question about Adamus. When he comes to put his energy very close to Earth, it is tiring for him. When you as Shaumbra go back to old places, it is equally as tiring. It is tiring on the body and tiring on the spirit indeed. You need your own type of – how to say – get-away time. You need your own type of energy space that is safe and that is not being intruded on by the others.

And you need your own type of lifeline. And that lifeline could be those of us on our side who will work with you at any time. For any of you, try this as you go off to sleep at night and you are in that comfortable, relaxed state of being. Literally call our energies in. We will literally assemble a lifeline for you, a support line that will infuse you from energies from our side as well as you grounding them from your side.

The energies of Shaumbra in your group, it would be good for all of you to, first of all, breathe together more often. That is so important in moving energies. And it is for you to perhaps as a group go off on your own away from the very dense energies of cities and mass consciousness. Go off and do mini-Shaumbra retreats that last two or three days. We highly encourage this. And there doesn’t have to be any particular schedule. There doesn't have to be any leader. And there certainly doesn't have to be control. You don’t have to do any channeling. You can simply go to be in a safe and rejuvenating energy. Thank you for this delightful question.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 2 (a woman at the microphone): Hi, Tobias. There is a landowner in Black Hawk, Colorado that has spring water on it. And there are six springs. But one of the springs, it comes out of the ground like triple-distilled water. And the instruments can only pick up four elements, but yet people have had miraculous healing experiences by drinking it and by soaking in it. Can you tell us what the magic in the water is, if there is magic in the water?

TOBIAS: Indeed, there are several things here. And first we’re going to say for any of you, the magic is in yourself. It is not contained in any water. Secondly, water is one of the elements that is closest to you and is most conducive when you are doing your own healing. Third, the myth is in the magic. The myth is in the water itself.

So, there is a combination of elements at work here that you do have a type of very pure water that you are speaking about from the spring that also has a myth or an energy associated with it that actually makes it more conducive to those humans who are truly asking for a healing or a rebalancing. So, we ask you not to overemphasize the nature of the water because it can be done – this type of healing to be done – without it. Most humans, though, need an external motivation or an external type of influence. So, they will say it is the water. They will say that it is something in the air or something in the ground. These things have an influence but, as Shaumbra, we’re getting away from that. The rebalancing, the magic, is in the moment that you live in. Nothing else. Water certainly can help facilitate the process.

So, back to your question: it is a very pure water because of the type of geology that it goes through to get there. But it is – how to say – supported by the energies of Gaia and the – what you would call – the devic, the elementals. But do not place any more importance in it then the fact that it is just pure water. Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 3 (from the Internet, read by Linda): Hello, I’m Shaumbra from Romania, looking forward to seeing you very soon. I think I carry a family curse. This has been confirmed by many clairvoyants, very insidious. My wife can feel it very strongly sometimes but I’m rather opaque. That perturbs our family life, which blocks me in all areas of my life from the mundane to the spiritual ones. What can I do to get rid of it? I would be grateful if you could read this at the Shoud.

TOBIAS: Indeed, any of you who have come from a family have a curse (audience laughter). Indeed, there is an element that we spoke of recently and that you have this. You not only have your own past life karma – and karma simply means an energetic type of influence or balance – but you do definitely have a type of ancestral karma. In your case, in particular, there are some very – what you would call – very dramatic, wicked, and violent energies that are associated here. And there are some – what you would say – some very deep, dark secrets. And they influence you because they race through the DNA.

As we spoke of recently in our gathering in the “mecca” of the Midwest, Minneapolis, that there are certain attributes in particular that flow very easily through the bloodline. Diabetes is one. Alcoholism is another. Many physical attributes that are passed down through the DNA – some do not pass as easily as others – but when there is – what you would say – dark ritual combined with torture and combined with death, as in the case that you are speaking about in your family tree, then it does have an influence. And it flows down.

Now, once you understand the influence that it has, you can now release it, every one of those energies of the past. And as we say, some of the most wicked and dark energies, ultimately, they are seeking release also. They will pretend. They will try to scare you. They will try to influence you. They will try to tell you that they are powerful. They will try to tell you that you are possessed, any of these things. But ultimately, they are seeking release also. They are tired of the role they are playing. That's why they are popping back up right now.

They see an Energy Mover and facilitator in you. They see your ability – or any Shaumbra’s ability – to let that energy go. They see the fact that you can bless them and free them of the hell that they exist in. But they are going to challenge you because they want to know how steady and stable and loving you are in your energy. They are going to test your grit to see if you really believe it or if you’re just thinking it. They’re going to test to see where your level of – how to say – balance is. Or are you just saying the words, just talking healing, but not living in that balanced energy?

So, these energies will come forth. You will feel them. You can feel them in your life. They, in a sense, are like a bad driver in a taxicab, taking you to all of the places you didn't want to go. It is time to dismiss that again. You dismiss it by loving it, letting it know it can be released. Hand it its walking papers, literally if you want to create that type of scenario. Hand it its walking papers. You are not bound by your family karma anymore.

When Saint-Germain says the words, “I am, yes, I am,” that means I am free of all of those other things. “I am my own sacred and sovereign identity. I am, yes, I am.” So, thank you for the delightful question. And it was a good opportunity to also – how to say – market our ancestral karma CD (audience laughter).

LINDA: Shameless!

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 4 (a woman at the microphone): Thank you, Tobias. My question… well, I’m quite a bit “shooken-up” by some of the things you said today.

TOBIAS: Indeed! We’ve done our job; now we can go home.

SHAUMBRA 4: Okay. Specifically, about your comments of thinking bad things about money and the world and life. I’ve spent what feels like decades working on positive thinking and positive…

TOBIAS: Look where it’s gotten you now!

SHAUMBRA 4: I got here…

TOBIAS: … in a wonderful place where you are now ready to learn that you can’t control your mind. Your mind doesn’t want you to control it anymore. And in order to understand what letting go of control is you have to literally force yourself to have some bad thoughts. You’re using a fraction of your energy, your intelligence, and almost none of your divinity. But continue with your question (more laughter).

SHAUMBRA 4: So, I guess I’ve been under hypnosis, thinking that what you think, you create, and where your mind goes, the energy flows to. And if I let those thoughts go, come out, and think those bad things, where is the line of the consciousness creating that in your life?

TOBIAS: Indeed, there is no line. You will find that when you let go of the controls – the control that said you could not think a bad thought – when you truly try to think a bad thought, it won’t come out as bad. It will come out as energy, as potential. It will come out as New Energy looking for expression.

But you see, if you're still living in the Old Energy dualistic world, you are going to have the impression that there are either good thoughts or bad thoughts. What you’re going to realize is that there is nothing but divine beingness. You don't have to worry about it anymore.

But in order to get that flow going, in order to get that valve activated again, that’s why we’re suggesting you try a bad thought. You have so much blocked up in there, so much potential for yourself. Some of the dreams that you’ve had – and we’ve talked about lately – are not being manifested because you have limited the pathway for that energy to come into your reality. You have shut down all of the routes, the pathways, because you said, “It can’t come in that way. That would be bad. I cannot think bad things.” Even when you try to realize those dreams that we talked about, you say, “I can only dream of the dream as bright and fluffy and goody-two-shoes.”

And you’re being asked now to let go of all that judgment and think a bad thought. Feel what happens when you do that. Feel how it opens the door that was shut. It is so very important. And we understand your training, your dedication to your training. But you've told us now you’re ready to move to the next level.

We’re taking a big jump here. It may frighten some because they have vowed that they would never think bad, or do bad, or any of that. So, they have a type of energetic block. We’re not encouraging you to go out and be axe murderers (some laughter). But we’re telling you to stop thinking in the old, limited way. And the limited way said that I can only have one thought.

Every time you think you can only have a good thought, what do you think happens to the potential of the other side, the opposite, the mirror of that good thought? It is causing a very imbalanced, suffocating energy. It is as much a part of you and wants your love as much. Could you imagine just loving one child and not another? Could you imagine that you only love those who are of a certain race, or a certain gender?

You are closing down potentials. And you are doing that within yourself. That's why we're saying, “Play around. Be an actor on the stage. Have some bad thoughts. Say some bad words. Say ‘shit’ out loud (audience laugher).”

SHAUMBRA 4: Shit. Shit.

TOBIAS: We didn’t hear you (much more laughter).

SHAUMBRA 4: Shit, shit, shit.

TOBIAS: It is about letting that suppressed energy back out. It is not that you have to say “shit” to be spiritual. But it is about letting the suppressed energies out.

And so many of you have controls and limitations also when it comes to sexuality, too much to even get into a discussion here. You have infinite controls. Most in that was placed there, Shaumbra, the sexual controls that you have, because you were protecting yourself. So, you shut down. Now, it is time to open up. Try doing it a little bit different way. And we are not speaking to you. We are speaking to all of Shaumbra (more laughter).

SHAUMBRA 4: Thank you.

TOBIAS: Thank you.

LINDA: By the way, next month I’m going to be offering a class, for those that are stuck, on remedial bad-talking (more laughter).

TOBIAS: We do not see this as one of your energetic blocks (much more laughter).

LINDA: That’s why I offered to teach it.

LINDA (referring to the next question): This was actually directed to Saint-Germain, but I bet you can help.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 5 (from the Internet, read by Linda): I appreciate that the churches on Earth hold a great deal of perverse energy. But aren’t we supposed to have no agenda, and release, and accept everything? Why do you get to kick religious butt (some laughter) when we have to accept and allow? How can I get a piece of that action without breaking my stepmother’s heart?

TOBIAS: Indeed, you’ll get to the point where you can truly be an observer without getting into all of the drama. In other words, you can see things for what they are. And Adamas gets quite – how to say – emphatic about the churches. But he sees it as a tremendous overlay, a tremendous state of hypnosis that is serving those who enter through its doors.

But for so many other humans, like Shaumbra, it is now – how to say – a barrier. It is a heavy weight. It is literally holding you back. For those who still go there, there is total honor. But for you who are asking us to come here and help you to understand what is going on – why you feel stuck, why you are frustrated, why you feel empty – we have to be very direct.

And we are not saying it is good or bad. We are just saying the churches – which are simply a consciousness of humanity – the church energy is holding many of you back. Go back and look at the controls that you have, particularly through the parent-self, based on the early church teachings. Then, go back and look at the controls, the massive series of controls, that you have from past lifetimes when you were in the churches. You took the vows. You spent hours on your knees and hours in very disciplined types of procedures or ceremonies. And it does carry a tremendous overlay.

We are not – how to say – saying churches are bad. We are not saying they are good. They simply have an overlay or hypnosis. But thank you for the delightful question.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 6 (a woman at the microphone): Hi, Tobias, I have listened to you long enough to know that I can do whatever I want. And therein lies the dilemma. I have a love/hate relationship with my job that I can leave soon. And I don’t know whether to stay because I love it or leave because I hate it. And I’ve wanted to live in Colorado for eight years, and I moved to Tulsa instead. And now I feel stuck there. Could you tell me why I’m so stuck, frustrated, and empty?

TOBIAS: Indeed, it is truly part of this whole process of going through the awakening and being amongst the first. It is – how to say – ripping down old belief systems, old thoughts about yourself. It is a very difficult thing to go through. And we never, ever want to – how to say – diminish that. You humans who are doing this first are incredible beings, not only doing it first, but doing it in one lifetime. It is never fathomed on this side of the veil.

So, you are literally in between two worlds right now. You are in between the Old Energy. You are in between an old identity of yourself, and the new identity that is emerging that says, “I can do anything.” But you see so many things every day in your life all around you that will try to tell you otherwise, that will try to say that you are less than God also, you are less than capable of walking out on your job and having an abundant life.

So, yes, indeed you do feel trapped. And you do feel stuck. You can feel how close you are to this freedom. But yet you still feel that all of the doors are shut. You still feel it's not quite there, so a very frustrating time. And it is easier to work through this than what you have built up in your mind and your belief systems. It is as easy as taking off the controls, letting them go.

They don't really want to be there anymore. They weren’t put there for any negative purpose. They weren’t put there by alien beings, or they actually weren’t even put there by your true biological parents. It was a series of energetic maneuvers that had to be done by you and by humanity to create this beautiful experience.

So, now you, God, can begin releasing the controls. You don't have to know what every control is. But we do say to write it down on a piece of paper so you can begin understanding, so you can truly see it in your reality, the things that you control. Let them go. Simply say, or write down, that you are ready to let go of any controls that you have about your job, actually any controls that you have about your spiritual service.

And that is probably one of the biggest things in your life right now. You have a very deep-seated conviction and a belief that said you’re here to serve. You’re here to serve Spirit. You need to be placed in situations that need your energy. And that is a control. It is a beautiful control. It is one that you are honored for. But now it is time to let that go.

Part of the conflict is you may feel selfish. You may feel that you aren’t doing the work that you are so good at doing. But in order to do a new level of work – help other humans understand how to move energy – it is time to let go of those controls. Specifically, let go of the control that says, “I will be here in strict spiritual service. I will be here in the most difficult situations. I will allow myself to be assigned to the hardest of energies.”

Let that go now. Give yourself freedom to be a teacher of the New Energy in a new way. And you’re going to see your life change. And then we’ll have to talk about it again – all the changes going on. But you’re going to see some beautiful changes in your own life.

SHAUMBRA 6: Thank you.

TOBIAS: Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 7 (from the Internet, read by Linda): Dear Tobias, I’m not sure if I’m an Indigo child, but if I am, I’m not contributing to the world very successfully. I see people around me who have lost the ability to see beauty in things that ought to be beautiful and instead see ugliness. I am agonizing over the knowing that they may be unable to recover. I have tried putting myself in their position and become afflicted and still haven’t recovered despite great trying. And so, my question is – why? Why can this happen to humans?

TOBIAS: Indeed, because they can (some laughter), because they are choosing it, because they are in an illusion that they want to be in. And when they raise their hand, or they call out, and say, “Dear Spirit, I’m ready to get out; dear Spirit, I’m ready for my awakening; I’m ready to discover the Fruit of the Rose,” then we come swarming in. We come flooding into your reality to begin working with you, to begin the whole awakening process.

But in the meantime, try honoring the humans who are in the situations that they are in. Oh, they cry out sometimes. They cry out, and say, “Dear God, give me a little bit more money, so I can make my life even more miserable. Dear God, make me a little healthier, so I can be a little unhappier for a few more years in my life.” We don't respond to those calls.

We respond to the true call of the heart, the call that says, “Dear God, I am ready to remember. Dear God, I'm ready for my divinity to come into my reality.” Those are the calls that we respond to, the prayers that we respond to.

So, please have no judgment of the other humans. Please don't allow yourself to get pulled into their drama. Please let go of the controls that you have in how you think you should be there to help others, a big issue for many Shaumbra. You have certain definitions of what you think spiritual work is. You are going to learn that it is quite different than what you thought it was.

LINDA: Last question if you so choose.

TOBIAS: We’ll take a few more.

LINDA: Okay.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 8 (a woman at the microphone): Hello, Tobias. For a number of years now I have done soul portraits.

TOBIAS: Yes.

SHAUMBRA 8: And I’ve taken great pleasure in doing it, except in the last couple of years every time I do any kind of painting, I either have a stroke, have an accident, get sick afterwards, including one I just did a month ago and immediately caught the flu for a month. And I realized, okay, this is happening with my paintings, and I don’t understand what this process is, except that I have a feeling that I am painting what you call “stuck energy.”

TOBIAS: Indeed.

SHAUMBRA 8: And I’m wanting to know, you know, if… I don’t know whether I should just be giving up painting at all for the time being, or whether there’s some way that I can be working with moving energy in my work.

TOBIAS: Interesting, and you already have answered it. But let us clarify this for you. Your painting opens inter-dimensional pathways. And that’s why you have the ability to do soul paintings because you pull in from all aspects, not just the physical being who is sitting there. You pull in from all of their different – how to say – multi-dimensional personalities.

But you also have the incredible empath energy where you feel everything at such a deep level. And now you are literally taking it on as your own. You are not just processing it and letting it move through you in a creative way. You feel you have to live it in order to paint it. Well, you can bypass that. You don't have to bring it into your system. Again, it's being the observer of the energies flowing in.

But we’re going to challenge you and ask you to do something. As you paint now – you’ve thought of a painting as being a type of snapshot of the moment, of a given energy – but we’re going to ask you now to paint as if the painting was always going to be moving, evolving, and changing. To the naked human eye, it may look like the colors and the media on your board are always the same. But you will know – and many others will know – that everything is always shifting and changing.

Somebody may see one of your paintings one time, and then see it again a year later, and they’re going to say, “But that painting has totally changed. What is different about it?” It is because you’re being asked now; you’re being – how to say – you have assistance from our side to do the moving paintings, the dynamic paintings, the New Energy paintings that aren't static but constantly evolving and changing. And it is time for that now. And you are highly feeling, sensory. Let that flow through totally to the canvas. Stop trying to hold it inside of you.

Another good thing for other Shaumbra to know – so often you are literally adapting things from other people. We have said before – only a tiny portion of things you are feeling and experiencing are about you. And some have complained and said, “But Tobias, you mean this flu isn't really mine, this flu that I'm experiencing? I'm so sick. It obviously is mine.” But we say, “Where did you get it?” You picked it up from someone else. You didn’t create it. That was a bird in Hong Kong (audience laughter). You simply picked it up and have taken it on as your own. So, we encourage you to move forward now with your paintings, and you won't feel all these physical effects coming about.

SHAUMBRA 8: Thank you so much.

TOBIAS: Indeed.

LINDA: Last question.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 9 (a woman at the microphone): Hello, Tobias.

TOBIAS: Hello.

SHAUMBRA 9: This question is on behalf of quite a number of Shaumbra. It is about parenting in the New Energy.

TOBIAS: Indeed.

SHAUMBRA 9: We’re learning to love ourselves and take care of ourselves. When you have the needs and the agendas of the little ones, your own needs have to go on the back burner quite often. We’re learning to follow our passion and allow the abundance to come to us. Yet this is a lot harder, it seems harder with children. For many of us we don’t even often get to see our children because of the changes that have been in our lives. The limitations that parenting creates, especially for mothers, seem very real and are not so easy to dismiss. They’re not simply story or hypnotism or illusions. So, would you please speak about this? Thank you.

TOBIAS: Indeed, we’re going to make this very simple. Within these children, this ball of energy that you have – and many Shaumbra have right now – is not a limitation or a restriction. It is a tremendous gift of abundance and health and life and New Energy. And it is right there in that little package that some days would annoy you and some days distract you, some days perhaps make you feel that you got less than your share.

But literally you got more than your share. You got a completely beautiful New Energy package that will take some nurturing, that will take some loving. But it is unfolding. The gifts that they bring in they bring in for you also. So, you are not receiving any less. We’re going to ask you to shift your focus on this.

We’re going to ask you to also take a look at many – how do you say – non-New Energy families that have children and where both parents are having to work, day in and day out, they never see their children; where there is no true – how to say – family connection, no true camaraderie in the family; where the true soul needs of the little ones are being ignored in favor of the social needs, how to look like right and appear right and go to the right schools.

What you are doing is sacred. And everything that you need is already contained in this thing. So, yes, it is challenging. Indeed, some days it would be easier to – how to say – be totally free of these responsibilities. But given a short period of time away from these dear loved ones, you would realize how much they truly mean and what they are bringing in to you and to the world at this time. So, be so thankful for what you have created here.

SHAUMBRA 9: Thank you.

TOBIAS: Thank you. And there are no limitations on your abundance. We need you to let go of that.

Indeed, and with that, Shaumbra, we bring to a conclusion the energy of this Shoud, the energy that you have placed here for all of the others who follow, the ones who will be reading perhaps this material, perhaps its derivatives that you are helping to create. But you planted the energy here today. You planted the next step, the next brick in the road. You planted it where no other road existed before. You helped to create the pathway into the New Energy.

You are not alone in it. We are here with you for the entire process.

And so it is.