Triumphant Discovery

THE TOBIAS MATERIALS

The Quantum Leap Series:
SHOUD 5: "Triumphant Discovery" -
Featuring Tobias, channeled by Geoffrey Hoppe

Presented to the Crimson Circle
January 5, 2008

TOBIAS: And so it is. No doubt about it, Shaumbra, we gather together again in this magnificent, magnificent energy that we are creating together.

Some of our finest moments are ones just like this, with music playing, no words being said from us or from you, just total feeling. Here we are glorious, sitting together ... those of you who are here in the physical, sitting together with a fireplace in the background, a loving dog gently helping to move and shift some of the energies ... all of you Shaumbra here, just taking a moment to relax.

Oh, you’re anticipating the new year wondering what Tobias or Saint-Germain or Kuthumi will say, what predictions we might have ... wondering what’s going to happen in your own life ... wondering if you’ll make it to see the end of this year – I hope so! ... wondering what kind of experiences you’re going to have this year. Well I’ll tell you right now, give you a heads up. For those of you who are choosing to stay, and the vast majority of you are, this will be the year of triumphant discovery. Mark my words on it – triumphant discovery – and we choose our words very carefully here ... very carefully. There is an energy behind the word “triumphant.” We’ll get into that in just a little bit, and there is definitely an energy in “discovery.”

It is the year, the time for Shaumbra, for this triumphant discovery to come into your life. And it can be done very easy, very simply. You don’t have to stress about it. We certainly don’t need to study. It’s just about your perception or your choosing of how you’re going to experience this year of triumphant discovery.

Recent Energies

Before we get into today’s Shoud, we have to apologize ... well not really. We have to point something out. We’ve been playing a little game on so many of you here, particularly today, but for some of you it started a day or two ago. I, Tobias, (speaking very passionately) from my soul to yours want you to understand something that you do all the time. You’re an expert at it, but you don’t even realize it. You could make this work for you, but so often it works against you.

You’ve been feeling something. For many of you it began when you woke up this morning – an unsettled feeling, a “not sure” feeling. That old feeling that the other shoe is about to drop but you don’t know when or where or on whom, but you figure it’s probably on you and probably going to be quite soon. A feeling that something very uncertain, unsettling is taking place. Some of you have been feeling this for a couple days and we have to say that we’ve been doing this with you on purpose so that you can understand the essence of what we are saying today and take this energy into the new year. So you can understand this wonderful game or games that you play and now use it to your choosing. Use it any way you want rather than having it create a deeper and more complex game for you.

So take a deep breath and really now absorb and feel that energy that so many of you have been picking up on yesterday, today. That feeling that you don’t like. For some of you it causes a queasiness in your stomach. For some of you it causes confusion and disorientation. Others it causes headaches. And for others who think they’re sleeping right now – you can wake up – it causes you to be half in the zone, or in other words, half in another dimension and half here. I’m not going to explain right now what this energy is, but you’ll come to understand it at the end of this, what will be a short and relatively simple Shoud.

Today’s Guest

As we begin the energy of today, I’m going to invite in our guest for today. Again, you’ve been feeling this energy. And we pause here for a moment and make sure you understand that any consciousness – consciousness is not necessarily energy, but it uses the energy as a tool – any consciousness has many, many layers. “In my Father’s mansion there are many houses.” You’ve heard that before, and it applies to any level of feeling or consciousness has many layers. What you’ve been feeling the last day or two has many layers too. It depends where you’re going to put your focus, where you’re going to direct your attention and what you’re going to choose to experience.

One of the layers that you’ve been feeling is the energy of our guest today. Our guest Yo-ham – you – a transformation of Metatron into the physical and into the personal. Metatron, your voice in spirit, was a type of go-between, between you and the multidimensional realms, between you and your essence. Metatron was the go-between from the earthly state of being to the angelic state of being, help to continue to flow those energies back and forth. Metatron was a spokesperson for all of you, because as your energies were so tied up on Earth, it was difficult for you to have conscious awareness of how you were affecting yourself and Spirit in the other realms.

On the eve of the Quantum Leap, this energy of Metatron was transformed into a more personal, into a more melded state, taking on the new vibration or name of Yo-ham. “You are.” You are All That Is. You are that you are. Metatron transformed into a rather impersonal ... some of you had even a feeling of a metallic or electric energy, a scientific or a type of physics to the very name of Metatron ... and transformed into Yo-ham. You in this reality now. Yo-ham, your essence, comes in today closer and closer than ever before to be part of your reality. Not to rescue you. Not to save you, but to join you in this triumphant discovery of life, of purpose and of expression called the planet Earth.

It had been eons of time since you left the angelic realms, you came to Earth, and the representative for you in the other realms was Metatron. But now with the changing of consciousness, with your choosing of life and choosing of your own sovereignty, this energy of Yo-ham, of you, can be right here. It’s not removed, distant, unknown.

Take a deep breath and allow your human self for a delightful moment to experience Yo-ham, you. Take a deep breath and feel this energy.

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Feeling

So many Shaumbra have told us in the past, “I want to be able to feel.” Okay, you choose it, you got it. And then as feeling started to come in, it confused you. It defied the mind. It defied all the structures that you had given yourself and all of your controls. Feeling – true feeling, sensory perception – doesn’t like controls. Controls kill feeling.

The feeling started to come in and you fought it. You wanted some type of psychic extrasensory perception in a very human sense of the word, but what you got was feeling – deep, real, genuine feeling – and you didn’t like it so much. You tried to turn off the volume on feeling. You tried to temper it. It didn’t work. You tried to fight it in your mind, but it followed you anyway. You tried to hide from it, but you knew it was always there right outside the door of the little consciousness, of the little human. It was right there.

You took feeling, true, true consciousness ... some of you have even tried to turn it into a demon and a monster, or you tried to blame it on others or the world. It is none of those. It is just feeling. Perhaps it feels like a tidal wave of energy or consciousness that’s going to somehow roll over you and take you over. But you know, there are Shaumbra that have just opened up to it and allowed themselves to really feel, boldly, courageously. They’ve gone in for a triumphant discovery of what it’s like to just feel. It’s overwhelming at first. It throws all of the old systems out of whack. It feels like you’ve lost control, but in that swirl, that vortex of energy of feeling that you’ve lost control, you discover that you can really start feeling again.

It’s an amazing thing because you don’t have to use hardly any of your mind energy to feel. You don’t have to use a control energy to allow feeling into your life. It is raw. It is intuitive. It is open. It is wonderful. It’s like taking an amazing ride in a powerful fast vehicle like you’ve never felt before. It’s exhilarating and perhaps a little bit frightening. But it is feeling.

Ah, you know, feeling is living.

Humanity in general tends to try to stop feeling. We’re talking about the ability to sense everything – the physical, the nonphysical – humans try to stop that. You know, you live in a very mental society right now. Everything has to be facts and statistics and it has to be calculable, if that’s a word. It has to fall within very rigid parameters. Mathematics, for instance, is a wonderful science, but the way it’s used and worked with today – it’s so limited. There are mathematics that go into feelings. You can’t calculate it on one of your electronic devices.

Humans, they tend to try to stop the feelings, and they literally stop living. And then you get all of these other byproducts when you’re not feeling and you’re not living. The byproducts – mental disease, depression, anxiety, issues of overweight. And then you know what happens? An odd thing, when humans deliberately try to stop feeling, they need some excitement in their life because they feel dead. They limit their feelings so they just do the ordinary functions everyday, and life becomes so damn boring that they have to find some drama. So they either create it or they go out and pay for it. They create some type of crisis just to remind them for a moment that they’re alive and then they go back to not feeling anymore.

They go out and pay for it. They go to a scary movie. They go to an amusement park and do things they’d never think about doing. They spend money for a thrill, but it’s temporary and then they crash. And then when the feelings try to come knocking at the door again saying, “No, there’s something more genuine, there’s something very real, there’s something filled with spirit and life and love,” humans close the door, lock the door – bolt it, actually – to keep feelings out. They’re afraid of feelings. They’re afraid to sense life, afraid to sense other people. They’re afraid to sense even the angels. So they keep life out. They keep feeling out.

Well, Shaumbra, not you. You’ve tried it, it doesn’t work. You’re starting to open yourself to feelings. Ah, like earlier today, like yesterday, last night. Where did that feeling come from? Did you notice how you tried to run from it? And those who didn’t run tried to figure it out, tried to make some sort of logic out of it. That will drive you crazy in a hurry, because you can’t. You can’t. Feelings are feelings ... senses ... pulses of life. They are meant to be experienced.

Feelings can never take you over. Some of you fear that a feeling will come in and you’ll never escape from it; it will own you. It can’t. It can’t, because you’re the one creating the feelings or accepting the feelings, allowing yourself to sense them.

This year in the triumphant discovery, you’re going to feel things about yourself. Ah yes, Annie, things that you’ve held back. Things that you’ve hidden away, Bonnie. Things that you didn’t want to look at, Vince. Things that you were afraid because you didn’t know if you looked at these things in yourself if you would continue to survive, Mary. These are the things that you’re going to have triumphant discoveries about this year within yourself.

Oh, and Jean, it’s going to take a lot of feeling. It’s going to take a bold, courageous act of feeling like never before. Oh, you think you felt, but you haven’t. You’ve been spending your energies, John, running from feelings, analyzing feelings, getting angry at feelings, Bob, and all of you Shaumbra. We’re not picking anybody in particular. It’s a year of wide open feelings. A year of triumphant discovery.

Oh and I guess you would use the phrase, “you’re going to move a tremendous amount of energy.” But lest you not be afraid, it doesn’t have to be like before. We’ll get into that in just a moment to help you understand why it doesn’t need to be like before.

But we’re just going to ask you to take a moment to feel feelings.

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To breathe in feelings. No, don’t resist them. Don’t fight them.

Some of you have had some not so good experiences with feeling, perceptions, you know, senses. Some of your experiences have taken you into the pits of your own hell. In the pits of your own hell you’ve had to experience – re-experience – some very difficult and very stuck energies from the past. Let’s not call it your past though, the past of an aspect of you. But those really aren’t you.

Some of you have felt that if you succumbed to feelings that it’s going to make you insane. You create these funny little scenarios – “What if I end up in a nuthouse, the crazy farm, the loony bin? If I don’t bar the door against feelings in my life, if I let them in, it’s like letting the big, bad wolf in. It will take me over. I will be lost. I won’t be able to recover.” So you’ve held the feelings off, and you can’t anymore.

The Era of You

We’re in the energy of the Quantum Leap. We’re in the era of you. Remember Kuthumi talking about what’s missing? You. The era of you. No longer the era of community, no longer the era of all humanity. It is the era of you, of opening up to you.

Now, interesting question comes in here. As you open up to feelings, what is you and what is not? And part of the confusion comes from the fact of you’re feeling all these energies around you. What if they’re everybody else? Their feelings, their consciousnesses, their low spots and their hells? What if they come in the door as well into your life? What then? Won’t you be overwhelmed?

Shaumbra, one hundred meetings we’ve had with you! One hundred times we’ve said to you “You are God also.” You choose what is yours. Everything else is not. You choose what you want for you in your life. Everything else blows through like the wind and goes off somewhere else. You choose. No energy, no consciousness is grander than your own, and it’s time to start realizing that. Stop doubting it.

Oh yes indeed, the energy is perfect – whether it is a “one” year, whether Pluto is coming around the first time in 238 years, whether the crystalline structures of Atlantis are rising off the ocean bed floor – no matter what, Shaumbra, this is your year. It is the Quantum Leap. It is the time beyond. It is the New Energy and it is all about you.

Take a deep breath on that one.

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Yes, indeed, triumphant discovery about you ... about you. Things that, well, you know but you don’t know that you know. Things that you long ago forgot. Things that you’ve ran from, hidden from. You’re going to discover that you are amazing ... amazing.

All of this can come quite easy because you are ready for it. We sit here looking at not just the human self here in this room or listening in. We see all of you as ready for it. There’s an impatience, actually, on the part of your divinity, on the part of Yo-ham, of you, to come in to join you in this exciting, expressive and dynamic life. It wants to come in. You can’t hold it off any more. You can try, but it’s not going to work. The energies are such that you want to experience all of you. You want to experience feeling. You want to experience life. You want to get over the things that have held you back, the things that have limited you.

Let’s take a deep breath on that one.

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The New Year

So what does 2008 and beyond hold for the rest of humanity? We’re going to call it the ping-pong year. (some laughter) The ping-pong year. Now as most of you know ping-pong is a game. It’s not one that requires tremendous strength or athletic ability. It requires a little bit of finesse. It’s hard to get hurt at ping-pong unless you’re really a klutz. (some laughter) The ball is quite light. The paddles are not very big or heavy. You’re standing at a great distance from your opponent so they can’t reach out and smack you. So it’s a pretty safe game, but ... but it is a game of finesse. It is an intense game. That should give you an idea of what’s ahead for humanity in 2008.

We bring this up so that you understand our perspective, what we see looking from our Angel’s Peak, looking to Earth to see where humanity is. Humanity is in a great state of flux and change but has no idea what it’s going to change into. At least you understand where your change is taking you. Humanity in general doesn’t know. It really doesn’t want to know. It’s loving the game of ping-pong – back and forth and back and forth and back and forth.

You’re going to see in this year of 2008 this ping-pong energy all around you. It’s going to be in the financial markets. They’re going to go back and forth. One day the greatest loss in the stock market in history, the next day a great gain. One day a company very wealthy, the next day losing its money.

You’re going to see the … we have to mention the stock market. What a great barometer – we talked about barometers in our last gathering – what a great barometer of human consciousness! You know, stock markets all around the world, you ever notice how sensitive they are? If a butterfly flaps its wings in China, the stock market goes up or down in the United States. If one little word is spoken by a world leader that doesn’t seem to fit what should have been said, the markets react. Oh, it is a ... watch the markets.

And then watch the individual sectors within the market. Watch how technology differs, for instance, from things like the biochemical, differs from agriculture. Feel the essence in each one of those submarkets. What is technology? What is that energy? What is the feeling of technology? What is the feeling of agriculture?

The stock market is a wonderful barometer. Look what is happening to what you call green companies, those who are environmentally conscious. Their stock values are far exceeding the actual worth of the company because there is a hope, there is a dream and there’s a consciousness that’s being put into those companies, because humans are starting to realize. They are becoming the stewards of Earth. Gaia is leaving, humans are taking over. That’ll cause the market to crash right away! (Tobias chuckles) But there are enough humans who are accepting that responsibility, that’s having an impact.

It’s going to be a year of the ping-pong for Earth because you’re going to see politics, for instance. Here in America you’re going to see a candidate losing and then the candidate winning, and back and forth. One moment up in the polls and the next moment down in the polls. Back and forth and back and forth.

Shaumbra, stand behind the short wall this year. Don’t get caught into the panic. Certainly don’t get caught into any of the chaos, because the moment the chaos hits the paddle of one side, and everybody’s attention goes over to that side as the ball moves over and hits the paddle, you’re going to know that in just a moment that ball is going to return to the other side. Most humans are going to get stuck and say, “Oh my god, the ball is now on side B, therefore everything is falling apart.” No, it’s just on side B, and then it goes back on the other side.

What this truly is, is a type of ... it is caused by a number of factors. One, an uncertainty in the human consciousness about where it wants to go. It doesn’t know. At one moment consciousness feels very strong about something, feels very … let’s say a very conservative energy. But in the next moment they flip-flop or they ping-pong, and they go to a liberal attitude. The same people, the same consciousness is just going back and forth. It has no idea where it wants to be.

You’re going to see a lot of this in 2008. Never get caught in the drama that oil prices are high because something will come along that will cause them to go low. Never get caught in the drama that a war is going to break out and all things will go to hell, because sure enough that ping-pong is going to go to the other side. Suddenly, there will be an effort for a peace movement, you see. Don’t get caught in any of it. Humans – human consciousness – playing a game, back and forth, back and forth.

It is helping to build a momentum and an energy that you can all relate to. It wasn’t eight years ago that you were playing ping-pong with yourself, that you didn’t know who you wanted to be, where you wanted to go, so you were just hitting the ball back and forth hoping that something would come along, make a decision or at least win the damn game. But in the meantime, remember how you went back and forth, back and forth. A lot of finesse but not a lot of direction. That’s where human consciousness is today. Don’t get caught in it.

In this year of your triumphant discovery of something within you … and that’s not just a vague, empty promise, Shaumbra. That is where your energy is right now. It is not us trying to tell you we’d like you to be there. It is you telling Yo-ham and us you are there.

Reminders for the New Year

In this year a few gentle reminders. These are not commandments or even commitments, they’re just reminders. As you go through some of your real feelings this year – open, raw, wide open, free feelings – remember these things: (a) it’s not about you, unless you want it to be. You’re going to be feeling things from many different levels and layers from human consciousness all around you. You’re going to be feeling, and I’m not just talking about thinking it or maybe being aware of it from a distance. I’m talking about feeling it right within you. This game of ping-pong that’s going on on the Earth right now – you’re going to feel it. You’re going to feel like you’re the ball some days and the paddle, but it’s not about you.

Do you understand the concept? How you can actually feel something, you can sense it? You’re not just thinking about it, but you are living it in a way and experiencing it, but yet it’s not about you. Seems like a contradiction in terms, but it isn’t at all. It is called living ... living.

You’re going to feel tension in the Earth herself. You’re going to feel it in your body, and then you’re going to wonder what’s wrong with your body, and you’re going to conclude that you’re getting old. You’re going to conclude that you’re doing something wrong in your diet and …you see how it goes? It’s not! You’re just feeling Gaia and the tension that is within Earth and that is being released.

You’re going to feel this energy of hopelessness on Earth this year. If you were playing that much ping-pong, you would feel hopeless too! (Tobias chuckles) And the energy of hopelessness ... I’m not just talking about being aware of it like we’re discussing here. I’m talking about feeling it. “Who-o-a, Tobias. Nope, I don’t want that. I don’t want to feel hopelessness.” But you’re going to.

You see, that’s what feeling is all about. Feeling is living it. Feeling it is being aware of it on every level. But it’s not yours, you see. That makes the difference – understanding that it’s not yours. On a day when you are overwhelmed by a feeling of cold, dark, empty hopelessness, what do you normally do? You wonder what’s wrong with you. You wonder why you’re going through this again. You wonder – oh you get mad at us, actually. You say, “But you told us we were going to get over this.” You wonder what you did wrong to make you feel so damn hopeless. Nothing. You’re just feeling hopelessness – everybody else’s. Amazing, isn’t it.

What happens when you feel that hopelessness? Ah, you breathe it in! Well no, actually, you try to run from it! But you should breathe it in. Feel the depths of hopelessness. Sounds pretty exciting, doesn’t it? Feel the cold emptiness of the hopelessness in humanity – one of the layers, there’s many other fine layers – that is a Master. Feeling an energy so intimately you live it. But, Yo-ham, Spirit, it’s not yours. It’s not yours. That’s ... that’s the good news. It’s just humanity.

Now, you might get caught in this trap of feeling this intense hopelessness raining down upon you and you say, “But how do I know it’s not mine? Maybe it was my past life. Maybe it’s my childhood. Maybe it’s my fate. Maybe I’m just a hopeless person. I used to feel hopeless years ago – hell, I felt hopeless yesterday – so this is probably mine.” And you put that suit on and you wear it the rest of the day. It’s not yours, unless you choose it to be, unless you accept it.

So here’s the fine point, an important point: It’s not yours, but yet can you be such a Master and so bold that you can feel it, that you can live it, that you can breathe it in, that you can embody it and understand it’s not yours? That is a Master.

I feel you. I feel your pain. I feel your joys as well. I really feel them and that’s why I can sit here with you one hundred times and we can share journeys and stories and tears and laughter together, and a few snorings also. I allow myself to feel you so intimately that I know you, but I am not you. They are not my feelings. It is not me, you see. That is the difference.

This year, as this intense ping-pong game takes place on Earth, feel it, live it, breathe it, but know it’s not you. Understand what is you is only the things you are choosing. And actually, as I look into the Yo-ham of your energy, you are quite simple. You are quite pure. You are quite – how to say – complete. You don’t need all of these other things. You don’t need to hang onto or own any of these other energies.

In this year of the grand ping-pong game taking place on Earth, understand another very important thing. You’ve already given yourselves every tool to handle every situation. Everything that comes up this year you have the tools to handle. Don’t call on us. Don’t go to others. Stop for a moment. You’ve already put every tool in your path along the way. Some of them may be buried or behind a tree. Some of them may be in a – what you would call – multidimensional state so they’re not quite so obvious to the human eyes or senses, but they’re there. Every tool for this year is there. To activate your own tools that you left for yourself, simply call on them. “What is the tool for this experience?”

Now, if you ask for the tool in order to run from the experience, it will not appear. If you ask for a tool to battle the experience, it will not appear. If you ask for the tool of wisdom to help you understand the experience and what it brings into your life, it will appear. You will know it. It will be there. Thank yourself for having the wisdom to put it in your path well ahead of time. It works, Shaumbra. It works.

Another important thing to remember in this year: This is the year where this concept of divinity, of Yo-ham, goes beyond concept and turns into a living, real experience. The energy of You is choosing to come in, wants to be here and you’ve called for it to be here, so it comes in now. It’s going to at times feel awkward, at times feel out of control, at times feel so grand and overwhelming you’re not sure if you’re worthy for it or if you can actually maintain it in this reality.

But it is here. It’s not just words, it’s not a philosophy at all. It is what we see as your reality. But understand that as it comes in, it doesn’t have the human characteristics that you have. It doesn’t walk or talk or smell like a human. It doesn’t think like a human. It is actually more simple than you can ever imagine right now, because you wanted your divinity to be this complex, super type of energy. It is not. It is so simple.

When your human self is confused, things are complex. Breathe in the simplicity of Yo-ham into your life, because in the simplicity and in the purity are the real answers. Not the old mental answers. Not the – oh, how do you say – your bridges that you tried to build to get you from one challenge to the other. But those bridges were built without the proper foundations. They might have gotten you across on a very shaky way, but Yo-ham comes in different. It is simple. It’s not an escape. It’s not a temporary repair. It doesn’t just get you through the moment. It is that it is, and it’s all you.

So take a deep breath and feel the simplicity of Yo-ham.

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In this energy this year of your triumphant discovery it is also about feeling. We’ve talked about feeling before, the difference between emotion and feeling. Emotion is reaction. You’re emoting a response to something. A feeling is depth … senses … life. A feeling is full. Emotions are rather temporary and surface. Feelings are so real.

It presents a challenge. This is a very interesting reality that you live in. You call it a reality, as in “real,” but it’s actually quite an illusion. It’s a very interesting thing because feelings are so real, they are so pervasive, and you’re going to be feeling this year in a tremendous way.

Let’s take a deep breath on that before we get into our next session or segment in this session.

Ah yes, feelings. Don’t be afraid of them. Don’t run from them. Don’t try to figure them out. Breathe them in and experience them..

A Short Story

Now, let’s talk about one of those very stubborn energies – very stubborn energies – that’s in your way. But before we do let’s tell a story – a short story! (laughter from audience because Tobias is known for his long stories) Short … short story.

So there was a priest, a minister and a rabbi (laughter) and they walked into a bar and ... oh, wrong story! (laughter) They gave us a different script here. Sorry. That was for another group. (more laughter)

There were two explorers who wanted to set out and discover the new world. They were filled with ambition and desire and adventure. They set out from the same port on the same day, so it didn’t matter what the numerology was because it was the same. It didn’t matter how the planets were aligned because they were the same.

The first explorer’s name was Chris and the second explorer’s name was Mark. Chris and Mark set out with the exact same type of ship, the same number of crewmembers, the same provisions on board. Neither knew exactly where they were going, because it was the new world, nobody had been there before. But they knew they were setting off to find these new lands, to have new adventure and to have triumphant discoveries of their own.

They set off at the exact same moment. The only difference was one item of cargo that was on Chris’s ship but not on Mark’s. There was a box in the holding area of Chris’s ship. It was a box, a rather simple looking box, but its contents were very, very powerful. And its contents would come out and be used throughout Chris’s journey. Those contents in that box were doubt. Doubt.

So they left port at the same time on the same day each heading out, and of course … you can probably figure out the story but we’ll tell it anyway. Mark went off on his adventure with his crew. Shortly after they left port, they hit a storm. But instead of wondering why that storm was there, instead of wondering what Spirit was trying to tell them, instead of panicking and wondering why he had gone on this journey in the first place, Mark said, “There is a storm. I feel it. The ship feels it. The men feel it. They’re all getting sick. We have a storm, and the storm is just energy. I don’t own the storm. I am not the storm, but I feel it, I live it, I ride the waves. And that storm will take me to where I am choosing to go. Even though I think I may be going one way, I know that energy of the storm is going to work for me and take me to the grandest possibilities of all.”

And Mark went off on his journey with his crew and they encountered all sorts of things – storms, they encountered times of no wind – but they didn’t have any doubt, you see. They were experiencing all along the way and they found new lands. They found spices and exotic plants and even peoples and animals that they had never seen before, and it was a tremendous experience and they felt every step of the way. They returned back home after two years of voyages and experiences, richer, happier, more fulfilled and having truly lived.

Chris set out with his ship – his ship with a cargo of doubt – and the moment that he ran into the storm, he wondered why he had ever left. It took away from the experience because then the waves were the demons that are trying to take something from him and trying to kill him, when in fact the waves and the storms were just part of the experience. He altered his course because he felt immediately he had done something wrong. How else would he have driven himself and the crew straight into the storm? So he altered his course.

And the whole time he was worried about this, and the worry that he felt could be seen and felt by his crewmembers and they began to get sick, but not just for a moment. They got very ill, and they started to die.

Chris’s ship was taken in a course that was very, very difficult, and he didn’t discover grand new lands. He didn’t find spice or gold. Each time he landed someplace he found that the natives, those peoples who inhabited the islands or the lands, were hostile and angry, and they fought him. They ran him off. More and more of the crew starved and got sick, and after just a year Chris returned back to his homeland a failure, sad, lacking in any sort of light or any type of expression. He was ridiculed by some, and many others were very, very angry because they had lost loved ones on his ship.

And that, dear friends, is the difference between doubt and triumphant discovery. Doubt.

You’re all explorers in new consciousness. You all headed out from port carrying the same degree of energy and consciousness. None of you, back when in the angelic realms at the Order of the Arc, had any more or any less. You’ve all been on your experience of life. For so many that doubt has taken away the real essence of the journey.

Right now today you are the pioneers of new consciousness. You are the ones setting out, not on the seas and the oceans, you’re setting out onto the dimensions. The dimensions are the new oceans of the New Energy. You go out there all the time. You go out at night. You go out in your thoughts in the day, in your daydreams. You are constantly going out into the new frontiers of consciousness that exist, as once the oceans existed as the unfound or uncharted territory. You’re the ones setting sail out to discovery something new. You don’t know what and you don’t know where. You’re choosing it because you can. It’s expression. It’s real.

But you’re also the ones who so often have let that doubt creep into your journey to take away from the true feeling, the true ability to live. The doubt will drain you. It will run you down. It will make you feel unworthy. It will make you want to crawl into a hole and never go out and journey again.

You are the captains of the consciousness ship going out, expanding and exploring, even where no angel has gone before. You think that the angelic beings have plotted and charted all of the dimensions? They haven’t. They can’t. There are some dimensions that they can, but only the human and the human consciousness can venture into the true new territories of consciousness, and that is what you are doing for yourself, for all of humanity. But when doubt creeps in, it takes away from the whole journey.

Doubt

Doubt is a game and you are playing it. All humans play it, by the way. Don’t be hard on yourself. But I am here today with Yo-ham, with you, to ask, Are you ready to stop playing the game of doubt? Oh, it is a game. It is too fun. It is very distracting. You’ve fallen right into it. You bring doubt into your life so that you can pretend you don’t know. You bring doubt in so you can keep this futile search going. Part of you wonders what will happen if the search ever stops? Part of you loves this game of pioneering so much that you never, ever want to stop. So you bring doubt in so you can continue it and pretend that you’re lost and pretend that you don’t know and pretend that you can come back a failure from your journeys. So you go out and try it again. Doubt is additive. Doubt is sticky. Doubt is a game.

How often every day do you doubt yourself – your decisions, your actions, your thoughts? How often do you let it play with you and guide your ship or at least pretend that it guides your ship, rather than take ownership and responsibility for your journey into new consciousness? Doubt is a game whose time has come, because with doubt on board it’s very hard to have triumphant discovery. It’s very hard to go off into the new realms of consciousness and truly experience it in the fullest way without running. With doubt, and this game of doubt that you play, you can continue to run in circles and you can continue to be disempowered and you can continue to be a victim.

Doubt is a virus, but it is not like the sexual energy virus. It’s not necessarily transmutable to others. It is your own. It is a virus within yourself. It is a cancer, an energetic cancer within you that keeps you playing the game over and over again. Doubt is a way of hiding. Doubt is a way of pretending.

Doubt ... this energy of doubt, doo-daa, comes in – came in – when you first descended your energy down to Earth. Doubt wasn’t known in the angelic realms. You never doubted yourself as an angel, you just had experience. Sometimes the experience was intense. Sometimes it didn’t have the outcome that you might have liked, but at least it was experience.

Doubt was manufactured through a very interesting type of transformation of consciousness going from spirit to human. It entered into the human reality or human consciousness when the very first angels came to Earth, when they pretended that they were no longer angels and they pretended that they were humans. Doubt came in when the angelic beings chose to forget who they were, when you came to Earth. An interesting dynamic happened when you said, “I’m going to forget I’m an angel so I can pretend that I’m a human.” This is when doubt entered in.

Doubt has been part of the human consciousness make-up every since, and right now it is very, very strong – very strong – on Earth. So strong that when humans who die and they cross over to the other realms, into the near Earth realms, they bring doubt with them. That doubt that they brought with them in a way then becomes transferred even in the angelic realms. And, you know, now we have a lot of doubting angels because the humans brought that virus back with them.

Again, it wasn’t transmutable, but an angel allowing themselves to truly feel a human and to see the human’s energy then began to play with that energy themselves. “I wonder what doubt is like?” they said. And they played with it. Now we have doubt on all of the realms, you see. But there are some pioneers on Earth who are going to throw doubt overboard. And that will open yet a new boundary, a new frontier of new consciousness and will have an implication on heaven and on Earth, beyond doubt.

Doubt is a game, Shaumbra, and you play it every day. You pretend you don’t know what to choose. You pretend you are making poor judgments. You can’t. You can only have experience. You can experience the high road, the low road or the invisible road, but you can only have experience. Doubt tells you that you can make a bad choice, and you can’t. You can only experience. Doubt causes you to stay in your little human trap, causes you to stay little, to keep playing the game of “I am little.” You have more fun with doubt than just about any other energy. You love it. You’re addicted to it.

My question to each one of you who is here today, listening today or reading or listening to this later: are you ready to get over the game of doubting yourself so you can truly feel? Because doubt and feeling – the ability to feel – go hand in hand. When you doubt you hold back real feeling. When you doubt, you are afraid to feel, because feeling will make you big.

Feeling will make you real again.

Are you ready to stop playing the game of doubt and discover what it’s like to have triumphant discovery of new consciousness?

And so it is.

THE TOBIAS MATERIALS

The Quantum Leap Series:
SHOUD 5: "Triumphant Discovery" -
Featuring Tobias, channeled by Geoffrey Hoppe
Questions and Answers

Presented to the Crimson Circle
January 5, 2008

TOBIAS: And so it is, dear Shaumbra, no doubt about it! (laughter) We are here sharing this precious moment and sharing our adventure off into new consciousness, into the new dimensions.

The little game that we play with you, by agreement with you, was that we would infuse you with feelings today, yesterday in particular, so that you could really absolutely feel something. Many of you felt, with this kind of an opening of the floodgates, just what is taking place in human consciousness right now. Many of you felt the potential of things that could happen this year. Many of you felt the anxieties and the pains of those who are very close to you. But what we did was allow you to totally feel so you could then observe your reaction. You could observe how your own doubt came in, almost denying the feelings trying to keep them away. You doubted yourself. When you had this tremendous influx of feeling/consciousness/energy come into you, you wondered what you had done wrong. You wondered why you were feeling this way. And it wasn’t about you. It wasn’t. You were feeling external things. You were feeling other people or perhaps just feeling us.

When your doubt came in you noticed how it suffocates the feelings. Then it goes in and confuses the mind. Then it takes away your sovereignty. It takes away your intuition, your natural ability to feel things and to understand them and to deal with them but not to own them. You had a wonderful experience in true feeling.

Now, imagine for a moment what it would be like the next time this avalanche of feelings comes into your life if you didn’t doubt, if you didn’t wonder what you had done wrong. You didn’t wonder what was going on or how you could escape from it. Instead of doubting, you used your pure intuition. Your intuition would allow you to absolutely feel the depths of the experience, of the energy, to feel into its many layers, to feel into all of the potentials of why it was there and the potential of the outcomes without having to manipulate it but just to feel it.

Imagine using intuition instead of doubt, how much richer your life – not just as a human, but as a divine angelic being – how much richer it can actually be. Remembering all of the time that it’s not yours. It’s not yours. Oh, there is going to be times when you feel your own energy, but your intuition will be discerning enough to let you know is it you or is it something else.

We talked about it before and we set it as the reminder for 2008. So many of the things that you take in and you feel and you doubt, are not yours. So many of you have had very challenging experiences, feeling what it’s like to go to the bottom, to lose so much, to have physical ailments and difficulties. You’ve been doing this on the behalf of humanity and of the angels. You love to take it on as your own, so much so that you allow these feelings and awarenesses to put you in a very lonely space.

It’s a game. You’re taking this on for other people, other angels, and you have to put yourself in a lonely space to make it really feel like it’s yours, like you’re doing something with this consciousness. And then you feel lonely as well. You feel nobody understands what you’re going through. And the joke is, you’re going through it for them! You’re taking on these things so you can attempt to find a way to bring resolution to the energy for others. It’s time we stop that.

You’ve been doing it so long and you’ve become such experts at it that it could be a little challenging to let it go. It could be a little challenging to start living your life as your own instead of taking everybody else’s consciousness on. It’s been so long that you have been in service in the leagues of consciousness that you have forgotten what it’s like to do it for you.

There are actually many overlays that you need to do this to be worthy to be on Earth right now. You need to take on everything else for everybody else and pretend it’s yours, because, of course, you are the expert. If you don’t do it, who else is going to? But remember what Kuthumi said, “This is the era of you – You,” and that applies to everyone else. It’s time that they took on responsibility for themselves – for their energies, their feelings, their doubts, if they have them – so that you can evolve and elevate yourself to the next level. And of course, you already know what that is – to be the Standard, the guide and the teacher of new consciousness. To be the one to show others that there is a pathway and on that pathway are all the tools. That there is the desire of God and human to meld.

So it’s up to you, Shaumbra, to be that guide, that Standard, that teacher in the new consciousness. To show others that you have journeyed out into the other realms, into dimensions that have no names or no definition yet, but you have been there, and that when they go there, they will have a safe return as well.

The doubts that are such a part of the human consciousness right now – the doubts suffocate feelings. When the feelings are not there you’re really not living. When you doubt you’re not using your natural intuition. The doubt is a game, and as we said at the close of our session before, it’s time to end that game.

When in doubt, use intuition. When you feel trapped and stifled by doubt, stop for a moment. Take a deep breath. Go for your intuition. “What should you do right now?” Use your intuition and go for the experience. Remember Kuthumi saying, “When in doubt, go for experience.” This all ties together.

This year is the year of truly feeling and experiencing. This year is the time, dear Shaumbra, for you. And with that, we’d be delighted to take your questions.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 1 (read from the internet by Linda): Tobias, on the road to integration ascension, most of the aspects I felt coming back to me were those of fear, pain, lack, et cetera. Two months ago a very different aspect came to me, a magnificent grand voice, very centered and sovereign. It was then very distinct, had a name and I heard that consciousness talk to me. It lasted three weeks or so then kind of vanished. As I was breathing the voice in me, I thought it blended with me in a way. Yesterday I felt it once again very distinct from me but very close. Can you share with me please how you explain this dynamic.

TOBIAS: Indeed, it is that energy of Yo-ham, of yourself, of your divinity. First of all, don’t doubt it! Allow yourself to experience it. Your intuition is written all over that piece of paper. Your intuitive knowing what this essence is. It’s not even – we don’t even want to define it as an aspect. It is the simplicity of you. It is the God-self.

Now, as so many of you experienced, as you start to have these feelings – and you don’t run from them, you actually embody them – your intuition helps you to understand that it really is you. It is also important to understand that you will go through an experience like this and you’ll seem to reach a plateau that’ll seem to even off or you won’t have this overwhelming sense, for a few reasons. Your body, mind, spirit are getting used to the sensation so it’s not so dramatic anymore. But secondly, you are being asked to raise or elevate your own consciousness now to meet this energy of yourself in a new and purer place. You could say that your divinity dived down to your humanity to meet it, but now it wants you to evolve upwards to meet it in a new place that’s more compatible for the New Energy of the human divine self.

Indeed, take a deep breath and stop doubting this wonderful experience!

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 2 (a woman at the microphone): Tobias, I have been choosing to be in my I-consciousness more in trusting myself and I feel more success with that. I’m also choosing to let go of things that are not mine, especially poverty consciousness and the dependency that my mother and I have with each other. So can you please talk to me about that, and very briefly, what’s going on with my throat? Thank you.

TOBIAS: Indeed. You, again, have hit it very specifically. You’ve taken on poverty consciousness for others. You could say this goes into a lot of past life training where you were … you actually accepted that. You chose that, you chose to get into this poverty energy and you can’t seem to shake it. But on the other hand, you tend to right now measure your life or measure your spiritual success based on financial success.

Stop for a moment. Look what you have learned in all these years that you’ve been up asking us questions. Look at the depth and the richness of experience. You’ve been hiding behind this thing about poverty and about making the money, but look at what you really learned. That’s what the soul is interesting in. The soul doesn’t care how much you have in the bank! Actually, you get some really rich experience as you have found by having nothing in the bank.

Now, it’s time to end all of that. It’s time to end the doubts and the dependencies and all of the rest of that. You already know the answer. You come up to ask us for validation, but you know it’s time to let your mother go. You have a lot of guilt surrounding this. You feel she’s going to die when you let her go. You feel that there is ... you are the only one. But truly a soul to soul energy shouldn’t be like that. It should be on a very free and very open basis, not a dependent basis. You’ve allowed yourself to become financially dependent, but really more than anything, emotionally dependent.

So a few things here. First of all, stop struggling in your mind with this. You spend too much time in the mind energy. I absolutely want you to get into breathing in the fullness of life. And not just pretending you’re breathing it in and not just doing it a little bit, but really breathing it in. Open up some of those channels within yourself, those channels where energy flows, open them up and let yourself feel once again. Not just feeling poverty, but feeling everything. And then I also, as you’re doing your very intense breathing – you need to open some of those pathways – then call in the tools that you have placed there for yourself.

I also want you to do one other thing. Acknowledge to yourself – and you may need to sit with another and work with them because sometimes their energy can be a good sounding board – but I want you to talk about the games that you play. I want you to write a book about the intense games that you play and other people do. You’re going to see how this is all intertwined. You can see how there’s part of you that doesn’t want to give up the game so you keep playing it. But once you get this out and acknowledge how you are playing it, and you’re playing a mental game as well as an energy game, you’re going to see that you can let that go.

Now it brings up some frightening things. You’re going to have to learn to live again. You’re going to have to learn to live, not to survive or to exist. And this goes against some very deep and ingrained training that you’ve had in the past by some very, very intense groups – some break-offs of some religious groups in the past – that you still hold onto. It is like a spell that they have placed on you and you have accepted it within yourself, then you can’t seem to shake that because it’s a wonderful game.

Do the intense breathing. Write down or talk to others about how you play the game and then make a choice. Your choice right now, up to now, has been very, very surface. And I know you think you’ve been sincere. You’ve only just been in pain, that’s all. Choose to let go of the game. And more than anything your biggest challenge at the end of the day, as they would say, is the desire to live that goes beyond surviving, that goes beyond old rituals and old concepts. But to … I have to ask you here in front of all of Shaumbra – and you don’t have to answer right now – but are you really ready to live?

SHAUMBRA 2: Yes, I am.

TOBIAS: You say that but ...

SHAUMBRA 2: I am.

TOBIAS: You say that but ...

SHAUMBRA 2: I am, I am! (laughter and Tobias chuckling)

TOBIAS: I want you to do a lot of breathing with that. You say that, but I’m going to ask you ...

SHAUMBRA 2: I recognize there is a deep fear in there. I do recognize that also.

TOBIAS: So I’m going to ask you once again – and you’re welcome to answer out loud – are you ready to really live?

SHAUMBRA 2: (louder) Yes!

TOBIAS: Ah, the perceptive Shaumbra will feel a large sense of hesitation in there. You’re saying “yes” but the energy is like “perhaps, maybe, kind of, probably.” There is doubt in it. So I want you to really go within and address it, and if you’re willing we’ll come in and kick your butt around a little bit too. (laughter)

SHAUMBRA 2: Alright, thank you.

TOBIAS: Thank you.

SHAUMBRA 2: Can you tell me just briefly about my throat?

TOBIAS: Indeed, restricted energy. There’s so much that needs to be said, and that is why I mentioned it is time to talk about this game that you’re playing and talk about the whole thing of why you are afraid to live. It is right there ready to come out and therefore causing the soreness. Don’t doubt yourself. Don’t worry about some big disease. It is energy restriction. That’s all it is right now. You’re holding back.

SHAUMBRA 2: Thank you.

TOBIAS: Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 3 (read from the internet by Linda): Was the Blessed Virgin Mary really a virgin?

LINDA: Can I answer this? I want to answer this! (laughter) I want to answer this! (Linda laughing)

SHAUMBRA 3: If not, why did religion need to make her a virgin? (laughter)

TOBIAS: Indeed, go and answer. We will just sit here and...

LINDA: (laughing) Go ahead.

TOBIAS: Well there is the energy of Marite, which is one thing, the actual figure. And then there is the energy of the Blessed Virgin Mary, which is manufactured by the church and accepted into the consciousness of those Catholics who aren’t discerning. (lots of laughter) I am channeling you, my dear! (Tobias chuckling)

LINDA: I’m with you!

TOBIAS: So in a sense there is an energetic being that is the one that is worshipped as the Blessed Virgin Mary. It never actually embodied on Earth but does exist in the other realms, and she is so pure she wouldn’t even think about having sex! (laughter) She is constantly worshipped on the other realms, constantly prayed to, and she absolutely loves it because humans and even some of the angelic realms have created that being, you know. They can do that.

But in the reality of the one who lived on Earth as a human, I have to say … she loved sex. (laughter) And why shouldn’t she? It is a sacred experience. It is about sharing at all levels, not just physical, but emotional and even mental and every level, spiritual, with another human. It is the greatest gift perhaps that humans gave themselves when they came to Earth. They knew it would be tough duty down here, so they gave themselves sex to be able to enjoy it more fully.

LINDA: Thank God ...

TOBIAS: So I think we all know the real answer, and it is fun being able to talk about it here. But why should sex be shameful? It should be totally sacred and totally enjoyed. It should never be used to steal energy from another person. You should never use sex to disempower somebody else, and more so for Shaumbra don’t let them use it to take away from you.

If you’re going to share sex with somebody – share your bodies and every part of you – start with some breathing before ripping off your clothes. (laughter) Even after you rip off your clothes, before you – how do you say – engage, do a little bit more breathing. When you engage with each other, a little bit more breathing. You will have the greatest orgasm that you have ever had. So breathe that one in! (laughter) Thank you.

LINDA: The Virgin Mary liked that answer.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 4 (a woman at the microphone): Tobias, during this last month, which has been a very emotional kind of month, I managed to lose my keys and then a couple of weeks later I lost my credit card, and I’m wondering if this is part of “on the way to ascension you lose everything”? I’m kind of hoping that’s what it is.

TOBIAS: Actually, you haven’t lost a thing. They are still there and you can actually call them back if you are ready. You can simply call them back to you, and you’ll find them in some very strange and unusual places. So let’s get over the concept that they are lost.

These are some of the barometers that we were talking about last month of your own … let’s not say a severe imbalance, but just you were going through some energy changes and pretty soon you begin to lose things. They literally go off sometimes into another dimension, they’re not of the Earth anymore. But when you call them back, they do reappear. So look at this as a wonderful opportunity to take a look at perhaps saying, yes it is about losing things that are going off somewhere else, but they do come back in a new and balanced way. Don’t read too much into all this.

SHAUMBRA 4: Thank you.

TOBIAS: Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 5 (read from the internet by Linda): As the three wise men have said, “Let go of everything,” and I find that I certainly am. Emotion fluctuates, imbalances – I now see the real possibility of my home going into foreclosure. While on the market for some time, neither the house nor my parcel of land have sold. I do want to move to a smaller home, a different environment and eliminate paper and books and old stuff. Renting also feels like a part of a freeing up to be more mobile. It’s all of the fall-out, loss of investment, cash flow, credit issues, the general embarrassment and the “why did I create this way” questions that haunt me. I know that it’s a much larger process and I flip back and forth between feeling “I am that I am” on one hand and this emotional rollercoaster on the other. Staying out of the mental, the worrying and figuring options has been the theme of this process. I know that when I’m fully in the moment, truly present ...

LINDA: She goes on for a long time about this not good situation.

TOBIAS: Indeed. Here’s a wonderful example – a wonderful example, Shaumbra.

LINDA: And this is a Shaumbra person who is truly committed to teaching.

TOBIAS: Indeed. Here is a wonderful example of taking on energies that really aren’t your own but pretending that they are so you can help ... your assumption is that you are helping other humans. So here we have on a – actually it’s a global scale, but particularly in the United States – you have a situation with a great imbalance in the housing market for a variety of energetic or consciousness reasons. People are losing their homes and what this really translates to in a lot of ways is they are shifting. They are losing the old comfort level. They are actually going through a consciousness evolution process.

Now, here you are, a very wise and very experienced Shaumbra, but finding yourself in the same situation. Why? Because you have compassion for those hundreds of thousands who are losing their home right now. You dove – you jumped – into that consciousness and said, “How can I help them? I’ll go through the same experience. What is it like to lose my house, everything I thought was me – my land, my money.” You have such tremendous empathy you’re giving yourself that experience on behalf of them.

Now, the interesting thing is you’re going to find your way out of it. You’re going to find out – even if you do lose your house – you’re going to find out what it’s like to regain self-worth and finances but in a new and a very efficient way. Your perception is that you’re doing all of these people a grand service by going through the exact same energy, and then by coming up with a solution, sharing that on more of a global consciousness level, opening up new potentials.

The “you,” the limited human self, doesn’t look at it that way. You think you made some mistakes. You think you perhaps took the wrong job or made the wrong investment. You’re doubting yourself now. So that doubt takes away from truly experiencing what it’s like to go through this process. The doubt also takes away from the potentials of resolution that you have for yourself that can also be shared with hundreds of thousands of families who are going through the same process right now.

But at the end I have to ask, do you really need to go through all of that now in this New Energy? Do you really need to dive in that same pool to understand how deep and how cold the water is? Or is there a new part of you, a consciousness part of you, that could actually experience this feeling and the problem and the solution in a different dimensional level rather than having to have your human self experience it here? Is there a way to have the compassion and the feelings without having to go through the actual 3D physical experience of all of this? So you would still have the compassion to help others and perhaps find a more efficient solution, an easier solution that can be shared in a global consciousness way as a potential with all these other humans.

Shaumbra, you don’t have to jump into the physical pool to know what it feels like and to know how to bring resolution to energy imbalances. This is what we started off saying earlier. You tend to take it on yourself and think it’s about you, and it’s not. You are guides and teachers in the New Energy, but we encourage you to find new ways to share potentials, to share new consciousness with humanity instead of taking it directly on yourself. Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 6 (a woman at the microphone): Hello Tobias. It’s been just about exactly four years ago that I came here to the Now Year celebration and found home. It’s been an amazing journey … gone through all sort of things ... found myself ... and as you know, I have a new job and I’m off on a new adventure. I would like to know anything that you want to share with me, want me to know, want me to remember as I take off.

TOBIAS: Yes, don’t forget to turn off the gas and the lights before you leave. (some laughter and Tobias chuckling)

SHAUMBRA 6: Okay.

TOBIAS: Indeed. (pause) Yes, I do. You have taken on many of the energies of Shaumbra, in particular, because of your past association with them – Shaumbra all around the world – and taking on so many of their challenges and their pains and their difficulties. And I think you found the hard way, or sometimes the hard way, that they need to take it on themselves. They need to resolve their own issues.

You finally got to a point, and we’ve talked about this quite often, where I kept on saying, “But what are you going to do about you? When are you going to take care of you? When are you going to trust you? When are you going to stop ...” and I said these words to you, I’ll say them again, “…when are you stop going to be the Shaumbra martyr? When are you going to take care of your needs, your consciousness, your evolution?” That would be a far grander beacon to all of the other Shaumbra than taking on their difficulties and pains. You’re far grander than what you’ve allowed yourself to go through, and you know that, although you doubt it.

It’s time now. You had to … you reached an impasse. You reached a place where you had to let go of Shaumbra not so long ago, but yet, as you know, you just felt such compassion to still be there with them, but now you’re taking care of yourself. Let that be an example for all of Shaumbra – how to take care of themselves. How to allow things like abundance and happiness and joy into their life. Let that be the example rather than how you were doing it before. The martyr energy is very old. Just ask Jesus. (some laughter)

SHAUMBRA 6: Thank you very much.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 7 (read from the internet by Linda): I’m confused about my relationship with my child who died 12 years ago. When I did DreamWalker Birth Home Study, which was an absolutely amazing course, I felt she was getting ready to incarnate again. I’m so excited she’s coming back and that I’ll get to see her. Thank you for that info, Adamus. If it’s appropriate, I’d like to know about the bond with her and I don’t want the love I have for her to limit her in any way. Thank you.

TOBIAS: Indeed. This dear one is coming back. It would not be appropriate for us to give an exact date or location, but it’s one of those things that you’ll know it when you look into the eyes of this one. The love goes back eons of time.

There are those that – this is for all of Shaumbra here – but there are those that you first met and you first played with and you first loved when you left the Wall of Fire. Remember when we talked that you left and you felt very alone, but suddenly you started to realize there were other spirits around you. And you started to develop … you would now call them friendships or really the first love that many of you had. And these are some of the strongest most beautiful ties. They go back through your spiritual family and even before.

So the one you’re referring to has that energy. Some of you confuse it with what you call a soul mate or a twin flame, that it is a missing part of yourself, but it is like – how to say – remember your earliest childhood friends that you learned so much from each other because you were so young and innocent? That’s what some of these beings are like and the one you referred to is like that also. They almost can’t resist coming back and being with you again. Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 8 (a woman at the microphone): Hi Tobias. Hi Shaumbra. Hi Shaumbra. It’s nice to be up here and not be absolutely terrified! So for those of you who are too terrified, just keep working on it. I have a question that relates to the conversation today about feelings, but it is with regard to parenting and children. I have three children. My house gets a little hairy, because children are very highly feeling beings. And I’d like you to talk about, if you would, maybe from your own perspective or the perspective of Sam, what it is like to be a child and what they are feeling. What I have found in my marriage recently – thank you, honey, my love – is that understanding brings peace, and when you can understand there is no more angst or fear or upset. And if you could help us to understand our children, what they’re going through as feeling beings so we can help them stay connected to their feelings to become intuitive knowing beings. Thank you.

TOBIAS: Indeed. Well said. And children these days – we are generalizing here – but they are living in a state of constant contradiction. A contradiction because they have their own feelings and their own intuition, but they are also living in a very complex and mental world right now. So they feel that they are walking between worlds constantly, and we’re not talking spirit world and human world. We’re talking world of feeling, intuition and creativity versus the feeling of the mental, the statistical and the structure. It is very, very confusing for them.

They give up at a certain point, generally about the age 7 or 8, where they feel that they’re going to have to give in to the energies of structure and the mental. There is a resistance and almost a depression as they slowly but surely give in to that and by the time they reach puberty, they have fully accepted that this other world – what I would call “their” world, the world of feelings – is going to have to go into hiding, and that’s exactly what they do. They hide it. As they come out of puberty, there’s a part of them that is angry that they did that. It’s rebellious and it will take that rebellion out on the nearest parent or sibling or teacher that it can. So you get a very angry, rebellious type of attitude that lasts for anywhere from three to perhaps even ten years afterwards.

The interesting thing is to acknowledge that they are living in two worlds, the world of … I guess what we would simply call the creative/feeling versus the world of the mental and control or structure. They are very conflicted by it, and they need somebody to listen to them more than anything. They don’t need rhetoric. They don’t need a lot of talk. They don’t need rules. They need somebody to listen to them. Even if it sounds contradictory and crazy, just listen. Ask questions perhaps, but allow them to speak, because as they do it gets their feelings more clear and it gets their reality more clear to them so they aren’t going to feel as conflicted. They’ll understand it is a duality world. So it’s very, very important right now to listen to them. And, instead of giving them demands, give them choices. Always.

SHAUMBRA 8: One more brief question and a brief answer is all that’s required, but I have a project that I’ve done on behalf of parents and children and I’m hoping to launch it this year. It feels complete to me, but can you take a quick look at it and let me know if there would be anything else I should include, that would be most helpful. Thank you.

TOBIAS: Indeed. We would be happy to take an energetic look, and we feel that those in the Crimson Circle, in the company, would be happy to take a human look at it, and we’ll combine to give you an answer on it.

SHAUMBRA 8: Later?

TOBIAS: Indeed.

SHAUMBRA 8: Okay.

TOBIAS: Yes, because it is not I, it is Cauldre and even a little bit of Linda saying, “Oh Tobias, do you realize what you’re opening up here?” for if one does it, many, many. But we would be happy to take a look.

SHAUMBRA 8: Okay, thank you.

LINDA: What he’s really trying to say I think is that we’re open to doing a lot with education and children. That was covered a lot in the “Ask Tobias” about education. And so there’s a window opening up for that. So I think he’s trying to answer you saying that at some point we’re going to reach a point very quickly where we’ll be able to be more open to actually look at these projects and actually assist and work at creating these things. Correct?

TOBIAS: Aren’t you the little channeler?! (laughter)

LINDA: Well, I’d say big! (giggling) Tobias, here’s a question for you, this is the second to the last question of the day.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 9 (read from the internet by Linda): Hello everybody. I live in a small country called Belgium, which was created by putting together people from two main different cultures with different languages who are the Dutch and French speaking communities. There is much tension between them on the political level with some people wanting to split the country, and this year it took six months after the elections to create a temporary government because we couldn’t come to an agreement for a fully working government. Could you give us an overview of the situation coming from a higher perspective on this old conflict, its origin and potential or way out of it? Thank you for your answer.

TOBIAS: We see this as somewhat of an experiment in can you take two groups that are very, very strong about their own backgrounds, about their own lineage in history, and have them try to work out their differences? It is like an actual cultural experiment in the making and sometimes it goes good and sometimes it doesn’t go good. So if you want to ask our take on the energy in Belgium, particularly this year, it’s going to be the ping-pong. It’s going to be back and forth. It’s going to be wanting to split, wanting to join together.

And it is an energetically – it can be – an energetically draining area for Shaumbra to live in. It can be very stimulating for other humans, but for Shaumbra who are aware of feelings, it can be very, very difficult. Because there is struggle, there is challenge, and right now if we have to say where is that ping-pong ball, it’s on the side of the table that’s says “Split and go back to your original cultures.” But very quickly it can come back to the other side of the table saying, “Let’s try to work this out together.” As we said, for Shaumbra in particular it’s a very energetically draining area, so understand that if you’re going to be living there. Thank you.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 10 (a man at the microphone): Greetings Tobias. And it’s not sunset yet, so good Shabbat as well. Just like to thank you and Linda, you guys rock. You’re just really, really awesome. And my Australian Shepherd, Marty, at the back of the room who’s been contributing energy would like to thank you too.

LINDA: Coming from a real rocker, that’s a compliment.

SHAUMBRA 10: Totally! Well it kind of feels like I’m Van Halen’s new bass player and I’m about to play in Madison Square Garden or something! In either case, nine years ago I chose to have ... and I’ve been coming here for a year and I’ve wanted to ask this, and almost not to ask the question but to get a viewpoint. Nine years ago I chose to allow one of my heart valves to break and I had open heart surgery. And during that time I had what I could share as a near-death experience in which I experienced myself in a lavender dimension of pure bliss as a ball of living light. And as I stretched out with my feelings during this time – and it was about a five hour, six hour operation – I experienced six to eight other beings similarly surrounding me. And as I stretched out with my feelings, we started an interrogative and it was telepathic. And at first I thought, “Wow, everything that I’ve ever read is true!” And I don’t remember the interrogative, although I did for about a month after, in my recuperation, but I do remember very distinctly at the end of the experience I did not want to come back. And they said to me, “You don’t have a choice. You have to come back, your work isn’t finished.” And since then it’s been a real interesting ride. And I’d just like to get your viewpoint from a broader perspective where was I in this lavender dimension of pure bliss? As a ball of living light, is that part of the true nature as a spiritual being outside of a physical body? And generally, what’s your take on the whole thing? Thank you. (some laughter)

TOBIAS: Indeed. Isn’t it amazing what legal meds can do for you?! (audience laughter and Tobias chuckling) We’re joking with you here for what you experienced was very real. Now I’m going to ... you asked the question so I’ll quantify it and qualify it. You asked where you were. You were literally in your heart during this operation. I mean that’s where the action was taking place. And you allowed yourself to go into your heart, not just your physical heart but your feelings, your compassion, your … even the colors surrounding it were all part of the experience.

You were joined there by angelic beings who you work with on a regular basis, who come in at times like this particularly of surgery to help maintain a very, very delicate balance of energy networks and energy connections. But you were much more … in your altered state you were much more open to the discussions with them. You meet them regularly, as all of you do, you work with the angelic beings, but it is very difficult to remember those experiences. Because of the intensity and to a degree because of the drugs that were involved in this, you were able to remember more than you normally would on a given night, out venturing into the other realms.

There is a grand difficulty in retaining the essence or the information and bringing it back to this earthly dimension, for a variety of reasons. One is because of the different operating systems between the two realms. One is very much mental. It uses a language, defines words, where on the other realms … there are no words that are used in the pure angelic realms. So it’s very difficult to bring back what you would call a dream or an idea. It doesn’t have a definition of words. It seems to dissolve when you try to bring it back here. It still exists, however, but your mind doesn’t know how to comprehend it. However, that being said, you are coming into an era where you can start bringing that information into this realm and not having to define it in words but to understand it in feelings, in general.

You actually did have a choice about whether to return or not. It is very, very compelling to stay in these other realms, particularly if you have any health issues, particularly if you have any major human crises taking place in your life. It is very compelling to stay in these other realms. But yet you and nearly all Shaumbra have basically planted an energetic re-grounding device back here on Earth because you know it is so seductive … oh, that’s not the right word, Cauldre … but compelling to stay in the other realms. But you know you have given yourself the commitment to keep coming back here to do your work from here.

You go through this almost every night – all of you, in your sleep state – every night of wondering why you’re going to (Tobias chuckling) drag yourself back to that carcass and go through it one more time! (laughter) Some of you don’t. Some of you just choose to stay, but all of you remember the love and the commitment and the compassion and you allow yourselves to come back here. Nearly all of you feel like it would be such a waste of so many lifetimes to leave now, because this is it. This is the time of new consciousness. This is the era of You. So that helps to bring you back here.

Now, the real question here is, (a): “Are these experiences real?” Absolutely. More real than this experience you call the human. The second question is “How can you retain that sense? How can you remember what has happened?” It is several things. It is making the choice. It is letting go of the doubt – that is a big part of it, the mind will doubt the experience because it’s not tangible – letting that go and allowing yourself to intuitively remember the experience. Some of you are going to say, “But I don’t remember anything, I just don’t have these type of experiences.” I’m going to challenge every one of you who says that, this year, to let yourself feel.

Now, that’s a big challenge because feelings can be overwhelming. As you know from our little experience before this Shoud, we gave you a blast of feelings and you didn’t necessarily like it. You felt something was wrong, something wasn’t … you had done something wrong. So you filter out or lock out these experiences. But we’re challenging you in this new year to allow feelings into your life, whether they are your own or whether they are from the outside.

Let yourself feel once again. As you do, you will start remembering at least having the feelings of these other dimensional experiences that you have all the time. They are going to then start melding into your life, into your reality here on Earth. Sometimes it’s going to feel uncomfortable because you’re going to feel ungrounded, you’re going to feel disoriented, because you’re melding together two very intense and very real energies.

You’re going to eventually be able to function where you can be doing your normal everyday human thing and at the same time be experiencing and be aware of the other dimensional experiences that you are having at the same time. So in other words, instead of being in the lavender dimension with the angelic beings in an altered state, you can actually be experiencing that and having that happen while you stand in front of a group of Shaumbra in your physical body right now. That’s where you’re all going.

But the challenge is to let feeling come in. Release the doubt, let the feeling come in, then you will start to have these experiences on a regular basis. Thank you.

SHAUMBRA 10: Thank you. Just one more question with this.

TOBIAS: Indeed.

SHAUMBRA 10: If I may, just one? Are these indeed my angelic family or are they just aspects of me?

TOBIAS: The ones that you met during this experience were actually angelic beings, not aspects of you, but those who we would call your correspondents or angelic beings whom you work with on a regular basis that are there particularly in times like this when there is a type of dramatic operation going on … ones that you have known and loved quite often. Old friends.

SHAUMBRA 10: Thank you.

LINDA: One last quickie question.

TOBIAS: Indeed.

QUESTION FROM SHAUMBRA 11 (a man at the microphone): Tobias, I chose to come into this world after my father past away, exactly five months, and after 30 years I decided to deal with it. And I flew down to Peru and I had a complete ceremony to make me see what had happened, why I had chose that and then I flew back to the U.S. And I had felt a connection there so I decided to fly back to Peru. And I sold everything and I moved down there without a doubt knowing that I was going down there for some reason. And I ended up coming across this book that was channeled over seven years. It’s called “Stairway from the First and the Seventh Heaven,” and it’s in Spanish, it’s in Portuguese, and my role in this is to translate it to English. And when I was down there the woman who presented it to me actually introduced me to Crimson Circle. So now that I’m back here and I have already been presented this, you know, I’ve come to be passionate about the realization of my soul’s purpose, how do I continue daily to move forward with this when there’s objects and challenges in life?

TOBIAS: It goes back to the message from today. Don’t doubt. And remember in the story – brilliant story! (laughter) – of Mark and Chris. Mark set out and even when there were storms, even when there were times of no wind, he never doubted. He understood that it was part of the experience and it would give him the fullness. So often humans doubt, for instance, if they run into a time of no money or they run into challenges from other people.

(pause) I’m trying to channel this through Cauldre … but – it’s a bit confusing – but you were actually instrumental in the writing or the creation of this book, using your energy in a very multidimensional way in working with a group of others who helped bring this in. So as you read the book there was tremendous familiarity because a part of it is your essence. Part of your own commitment was to bring this information into other languages, because there’s more than just the words that are on the paper. There is an embedded type of energy that will be very, very attractive to a lot of humans that explains some of what they would call the mysteries, which aren’t mysteries at all, they’re just natural spiritual physics. So you’re deeply connected with this book.

It’s time to let go of the doubt. It’s time to continue on with what you’ve already chosen to do. If you take a look at the events that you even talked about here and that have taken you from one place to the other, from one group of people to the other, it is the journey of Mark. It is totally for purpose, for reason and will allow you to have such a triumphant, triumphant discovery this year.

LINDA: How coincidental that you’re answering a question from Mark.

TOBIAS: Indeed! (some laughter, Tobias chuckling) And Cauldre’s saying for each additional question he will need one additional glass of wine tonight! So ... (laughter)

LINDA: I have a final question I think that others would be interested in.

TOBIAS: There’s another one for him! (laughter)

LINDA: There we go! How is Sam doing?

TOBIAS: We’re going to talk about Sam soon. Sam is ... Sam sometimes is – how to say –

LINDA: How was his Christmas?

TOBIAS: Nothing.

LINDA: Awww.

TOBIAS: It was uneventful. Those damn parents, I’m going to have to ... They don’t understand the joy of giving and ... It was quiet, but Sam is actually going through some very big internal experiences. His outer ... this is why in answer to the children before I could be so clear about it. His outer world is telling him that there’s something wrong with him. His inner world is telling him that everything is right.

Now, which does he believe? Which does he default to? So now he has the brilliant counsel from not only Saint-Germain but from myself on an oversoul type of level. But you have to understand he is also autonomous and independent, so he can choose anything he wants. We’re trying to get him to understand, we’re going through some very, very interesting work with him right now. Can you imagine the personal attention from both Saint-Germain and I in his development, in his inner world development right now?

So perhaps you could say the quiet over the holiday period was fine, but I have to remind all of the parents out there. Gifts of underwear and socks – do not do it. Do not do it! (laughter)

And so it is.