THE CRIMSON CIRCLE MATERIALS

On the Wings of Hope

SHOUD 7 – Featuring ADAMUS SAINT-GERMAIN, channeled by Geoffrey Hoppe

Presented to the Crimson Circle
April 5, 2025
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I Am that I Am, Adamus of Sovereign Domain.

Ah! Dear Shaumbra, let’s take a good deep breath, as we get into this Shoud, into this beautiful session that we have together. Shoud 7, I believe it is, yes, of The Wings of Hope.

Let’s take a good deep breath.

I’m going to be working with you at many, many different energy levels today, many different levels. So, take a good deep breath. You’re going to hear some words and we’re going to have some merabh music, but there’s a lot more going on.

I invite you as the human facet of your soul right now listening to this – you’re not alone listening to this; you’re with your entire soul Self and the I Am – but as the human that is participating, that’s listening, I ask you to let yourself experience this. That’s the role of the human, the human facet of the soul, and they’re all really together. The soul is not off someplace else, but the human facet is designed to experience. It’s for the experience of the entire soul. Through your experiences, the soul, it expands. It opens. The I Am, through your experience, learns more and more about what I Am is. It basically keeps on falling in love with itself. But it wasn’t until you experienced love that actually the soul even knew anything about it or the I Am. No. It wasn’t until your experience of it.

Time to Experience

You’re here with the illusion – or perception, let’s call it – that you’re the human struggling through all this, trying to figure it all out, work your way into all of it. And that’s, eh, you could say it’s partly true, but you’re here as that part of your soul to experience what you’re going through right now. And I know experience sometimes sucks. I hear it all the time from Cauldre, from Linda, from all the others, “Experience really sucks,” because experience sometimes can be very difficult. And particularly when you, as the human and as the soul, you want the deep experience, the deep dive. You’re not willing to just do the ordinary, skim along the surface, just have, basically a kind of a life that’s just enough. Oh, no, no, no, no. You’re not willing to do that. So, you dive deep into it, and your experiences are big. And they’re not all going to be what you, the human, would say is happy experiences, light easy experiences. No. You dive into all of them, and right now more than anything is the time to experience.

That’s kind of a gift, in a way, because it’s saying you don’t have to work on making all this happen. It’s happening. In a manner of speaking, it’s already happened and you’re just here now experiencing what’s already happened. But you’re adding the elements of gravity, you’re adding the elements of realness, you’re adding all the elements of this material world to it. You’ve already experienced something that has happened. Call it what you want – enlightenment, joy, ascension, completion – you’ve already had that. Now you’re experiencing it and simultaneously all of your past lives are also experiencing it right now. It doesn’t mean that you don’t have free will and free choice. Yes, you can change how you want to experience things. You can just sit on the sofa for a month and experience that, or you can dive deep into it. You do have that choice, that beautiful choice.

But if you just look at it right now from the standpoint that you’re here to experience, you’re here to experience exactly what you’re going through right now. Sometimes you don’t realize what that is, what you’re supposed to be doing, and you wonder, but that’s part of the experience too. What are you here to experience? A grand transformation within yourself. A transformation from lifetimes and lifetimes of being here on the planet as a human, looking for answers, and to experience what it’s like now to find those answers.

The answers aren’t found up here (head). They’re not found in your mind thoughts. Some of them are found here in the heart, but the answers are in your whole beingness. You look sometimes for the answers as a particular set of words or a particular thought or even a belief. That’s not where they are. The answers are, well, we’ll get into that today. But I ask you to allow yourself to experience now everything that you’re going through.

Stop trying to filter things out. Stop trying to change the currents in the stream of consciousness. Allow yourself the experience. You’re going to find it a lot easier, a lot more rewarding, and a lot more insightful to let yourself experience. Stop searching, in other words. Let yourself come back to what the human was designed to do – to experience life, to be in life, to embrace life, to dive straight in, rather than trying to get the hell out of here.

How many of you have often said, “I just want to get out of here. I’m sick and tired of this.” You get out of here, so to speak, not with all that angst and not with all those burdens. You get out of here by allowing yourself to experience it, exactly what you’re going through right now. Really, truly the greatest experience you’ll ever go through. Difficult, yes, but there’s part of you that actually asked for it, sorry to say. Yeah, it’s not the outside world that’s doing it to you. You said, “Give it to me. Bring it on. I can handle it. I’m Shaumbra. I’m tough.” Or even if you don’t identify with being Shaumbra, “Bring it on. I’m ready. I can take anything.” Okay, well, just let yourself experience it right now.

It’s pretty simple, pretty easy, “I am in my experience.” And when you do that, when you say it, now it’s not just the experience of getting out of bed in the morning and dealing with the mundane things in life. Now you start to experience what it’s like on every level. What it’s like for the past lives to be going through their Realization right now. What it’s like for them to be discovering loving themselves, as you’re learning to love yourself and experience what that’s like. So, yes, right now is a prime time to be in your experience.

What a relief not to have to try to figure it out. It’s already figured out, if you want to put it that way. It’s already done. That’s what the Master is here for. The Master has taken all the lifetimes, even what’s not happened yet in your lifetime or the other, but has taken all of that – some of you call it your future self, it’s not really; it’s all what’s happening right now – but the Master has taken that, and you’ve already done whatever you want to call it – the full integration, the coming to Realization, the bringing together of consciousness and love and energy. You’ve already done that in a nonphysical, nonmatter realm. Now, how do you want to experience it? That’s what gives the soul and that’s what gives the Master the realism, the grit, the feeling, the thrill, the euphoria. You see, without you experiencing it, they would have no idea the thrill and the joy of it, or the heartbreak and the agony sometimes. They wouldn’t have that. You’re filling the space between the space. You’re filling this – it’s not an empty slate, but it’s an unfulfilled slate right now with your experiences.

You don’t have to figure it all out. You just embrace what you’re experiencing. Then you’ll quickly see how you got there in the first place. And, yes, you have a choice. You have a choice to do it with a lot of struggle or with a lot of ease. You have that choice. All you have to do is express it to yourself. Go walk in front of a mirror, “I choose to experience my full integration, my coming of being, my coming of the ages; I choose to experience that in a graceful manner, in a playful manner.” Nobody else is manipulating the playing pieces for you. No. You’re doing that all yourself. Even your past lives, while they’re going through all of their things right now, you’re the final one that can choose, that can decide, that can experience the way you want to experience. And that’s it. That’s it.

That’s why in our last message, and, oh, I got a couple of very – ahem – interesting audio messages or dream messages from Shaumbra from our last gathering when I invited those who aren’t ready to go to the next level, who don’t want to, to leave. Please, don’t just hang out thinking that you’re doing us a favor. Not at all. And the reason why I say that isn’t because I’m just callous and careless. Not at all. The reason I say that is because of great compassion. It’s going to hurt too much if you’re still dragging your issues. Not that issues don’t come up. They do come up right now. But if you’re holding on to them, you’re grabbing on to them, you refuse to let go; you’re angry with the rest of the world or even angry with yourself and you’re not willing to let them go, to take a deep breath and feel and experience those issues – actually, really dive straight deep into them. Issues come up right now of all kinds, there’s a lot of commotion going on right now, but you end up in the place, in the place of your true heart, of what I call the Heart Breath. You end up in that place. You’re already there. You’re just experiencing how you got there, and that is up to you. That’s what’s called free will.

So be in the experience of everything you’re going through right now, chaotic times. The world’s crazy right now. There’s so much going on. Right here on the Island we’ve got a big volcano erupting, and there’s so much on the planet in politics, in business. You’ve probably noticed that people either going numb right now, just numbing out, or they’re going crazy, because it’s so intense. So very intense right now. It’s not your issues, but you’re noticing it. You’re feeling it. You almost can’t not. Even if you go climb on top of a mountain far removed from anybody else or you’re even sitting here on an island far removed, you’re still going to feel it, because you can still feel mass consciousness. It doesn’t mean it has to dictate your life or determine what you experience, but you’re still aware of it, because you’re in human form. You’re here on the planet. You’ve got your human senses.

So, yes, it’s challenging. Let yourself experience that. Don’t numb yourself out. It’s not the time to be hiding in a cave. Yes, you do need refuge once in a while. You’ve got to get away from things. But it’s not the time to be hiding from yourself or anything happening in the world. It’s the time for major, quantum experience in life.

So, yes, the last gathering, the energies were intense, even though earlier Cauldre said that I appeared so calm. Yes, on the outside. But on the inside, all of you and me, it’s pretty intense right now. A lot going on.

My point is that if you’re feeling pulled in every different direction, if you’re feeling that everything is moving in different ways, if you’re feeling that not a whole lot makes sense and things are very unanchored right now, that’s absolutely correct. It’s not going to change any time soon. Trying to force yourself into a place of peace and everything else within yourself, of calm and quiet, is not going to work very well. I mean, you’re going to have moments of it. You need moments of it. You need time to yourself, time away from others, time to just breathe and just forget about everything. Not go numb but just stop the obsessive mental trying to figure everything out.

But, yes, it is intense right now, and finding those extended moments of peace and what you would call internal harmony are a little challenging, because everything is moving. Everything is getting pulled in different directions, and it’s going to be that way.

So let yourself experience it. What does it feel like to get torn apart? And not by the dragon. Just torn apart by everything shifting in you right now. What’s that like? What’s that like to be transitioning from the perception of yourself as just a human into the divine being? What’s it like to have your physical biology and all the problems that go along with it, all the issues and the aches and the pains and the sicknesses and everything that goes along with it, and your light body coming in at the same time? These are all happening. Let yourself experience it.

Let yourself experience your emotions. Yeah, the emotions. Emotions, sometimes you curse them because they’re so intense and they seem sometimes to be limited to the mind itself. Not drawing on any outside inspirations or consciousness, and that’s true. But even the emotions are changing right now. The emotions are now going out, drawing on these other parts of you. Not just limited to the mind or to what you call the human heart, but going into more consciousness, more light. And you’ll find emotions to be quite an amazing thing, once you get past the walls of the mind.

That’s going on. You’re finding yourself sometimes, “What’s wrong with me?” It’s like, you know, “I’m so emotional about everything. I want to cry at everything. I’m emotional. I get upset. I get angry.” Let yourself experience it. And I know this is the antithesis of what you’ve trained yourself to do so well – just pack yourself in, focus on certain things, try to ignore everything else; when emotions come along, push them down or deny them in the first place. When you’re having those crazy, crazy thoughts or crazy, crazy dreams, like a lot of you are having right now, it’s like, “Oh, I don’t want to have those anymore. They’re too much work.”

Dive In Deep

They’re too much work because there’s too much resistance, because you’re still trying to figure it all out. Come back to experience. The experience of the moment, of the day. Embrace it. Dive into those emotions. Dive into all the feelings that are coming up, because what’s happening is it’s all shifting. You’re going away from being the emotional/mental human now into a different type of emotion, which eventually helps lead into the self-love. You’re going into a different type of feeling or sensory perception.

But all these things are intermingled right now. They’re all kind of jumbled. They’re all happening one way or the other. Let yourself experience that. I know some of you are like, “Pfft! I can’t take any more.” I do understand that but, first of all, you’re the one that said you want to go fast, you want to dive in, you want to really go for it. Secondly, what you’re going to find is, I guess it would be kind of like the eye of the storm or the eye of the hurricane. There’s a lot of commotion, a lot of swirling clouds and lightning and thunder and rain and wind going on. And you’re like, “You want me to go deeper into that?” Yes, I do. I want you to experience it. I want you to experience its highs and its lows. I want you to feel it, always knowing that it’s never going to overcome you. It’s not because you’re already there. You’re already past that. Now you’re going through what it was like to experience that storm, whatever it happens to be.

And the storm is really not a storm, like you’ve done something bad and now you’re going to get all this crap. The storm is the transitional nature of consciousness right now, the evolutionary consciousness that’s taking place. That’s why everything seems to be in disarray, why you seem to feel pulled apart at every different level. But it’s just this wonderful transition, and the best way … the best way to – it’s not even “cope,” that’s not the right word – the best way to be in the experience is to dive straight in. And I know it seems so counterproductive, counterintuitive, and it’s like, “No, no, no. I want to take what I like and throw out what I don’t like. And I want to structure it in a certain way.” Nah. No, not right now. Maybe in the past that’s worked, but right now, that won’t work, because it’s so big and so beyond just what a human could possibly think. It’s so beyond a linear mechanism at this point. Dive in, wholeheartedly into everything that you’re feeling and going through.

Yeah, some of them, I know you don’t like – the sadness or depression. Depression’s terrible, but it’s a big emotion. It’s a big feeling, and you say, “No. I really don’t want to be diving into that,” or whatever it is in your life. And the good stuff too, of course. Of course. Dive into the joy. Dive into those precious moments that you have when you’re loving yourself. Dive into all of it right now.

I could probably end this Shoud right here, but, you know, I get paid by the hour, so I’m going to stretch it out a little bit (Adamus chuckles).

Dive in. That’s the important point. That’s the takeaway from this gathering. Dive into your experience, no matter what it is. With other people, yes, dive into it. Stop running from that. Stop running from your emotions, your feelings, your senses. It’s all in a state of flux and swirl and a quantum change that’s taking place. And it’s difficult to even try to begin to understand where you end up, because right now the human that’s gone through the experience doesn’t have that framework, that understanding. You don’t have the qualia for it.

Qualia means you associate it with something that’s happened in the past. You just simply don’t have the qualia, so you’re trying to say, “Well, what’s it going to be like when I get through all this?” and “How do I know I’m going to be safe?” That’s a good question. How do you know you’re going to be safe? The human wonders and worries about that. It requires a lot of safe space. And right now, more than anything, yeah, you’re feeling that need for, “What’s safe for me?” And I’ll tell you, and again, it doesn’t seem to make a lot of sense, but safe for you is your experiences. Not trying to fashion them in a certain particular way, not trying to kind of only take a portion of that spectrum of your experience.

Dive into all of your experience, no matter what it is. Even if you’ve got a disease, even if you’re sick, yes, dive into it. Experience it, because in that experience, you’re going to encounter your own light, your own wisdom. In that experience you’re going to discover the pearl in the clam. You’re going to discover that it’s just not more and more commotion and turmoil as you get into it, but there’s absolute beauty beyond.

You’re asking to really go fast. You’re asking for more and more. As Shaumbra, you don’t want to be at the back of the parade. Not at all. You want not only be at the front of the parade, but you want to be in front of the front of the parade. You want to be the pre-parade in all of this. So, you’re asking for it. And quite frankly, sometimes it’s a little difficult to, well, to deal with you, hm, from the standpoint of you want to go fast, but then it hurts and then you come and cry or complain or get pissed off.

You want to go fast through all this, and we literally – “we” being the Crimson Council – have to regulate it, have to say, “Okay.” We’re constantly measuring and checking. That’s probably our biggest role right now. Of all the beings in the Crimson Council – there’s about 5,000 – of all the beings that are participating in that, it’s trying to measure and trying to help you understand how fast you can go without blowing up.

You still have circuits – human circuits, of course. You still have a communication network in your body and mind. You still have a very, very complex communication system, the way the mind works and everything else. It’s not about going so fast that you blow them out, because you would. Sometimes in spite of everything, you wake up in the morning and say, “Give it all to me today,” even though you’re also thinking, “Boy, it’s another shitty day.” You want it all. But we’re carefully monitoring, kind of at the center point of Shaumbra, “What is that pace? How much can you take on?” My words are crafted, my energy is designed to convey to you back about how fast to go, without totally burning up. Burning up wouldn’t do you any good. Burning up, you’re not going to end up in the other realms, you know, in a happy place or at the Ascended Masters Club. Not at all. When you burn up like that, you end up having to come back and you end up having to have a redo. There’s no reason to burn up right now, not at all.

Right now, is the time of massive – pfff! – there’s not a human word to describe it, but it’s an integration, a gathering, a coming together. A time of a massive – everything to do with all your aspects, even every part of your human past lives, every part of your angelic origins, it’s all playing into this right now. It’s not just a little human alone on a planet. It’s all playing in. You’re the band director on this. You’re at the lead. You’re going through it yourself. You’re also feeling what all the past is going through and what the future went through. You’re feeling all of it.

So, take a deep breath and let yourself experience.

Yeah, I know you’re like, “Ughh! I don’t know if I can take anymore.” Well, first of all, you asked for more. Secondly, yes, you can. You’ve given us permission on many levels to help regulate – not control – but it’s like to constantly remind you, “Okay, here’s kind of the point where you go over the cliff. Here’s where it’s too much for you to endure. Here’s where it’s too much for your body to endure.”

Let’s say that you’re mentally ready for it, but is your body really ready? Because the body and the mind don’t always move together at the same pace. Sometimes they’re way out of sync. And right now, the body is more behind than the mind is. And, you know, so there’s a constant – I don’t like the word “management” even, Cauldre, or “control” – a constant feedback to you, “Here’s what is safe right now. Here’s what’s safe.” You actually really don’t need to worry about it yourself, because we’re paying such particular attention to it, “This is what’s safe. This is what’s going to work for you without burning up, or without totally losing everything you’ve been building so far.” You know, if you look at it like a building, you’re building all this, like with bricks, and we’re getting more and more close to completion. You don’t want all the bricks to tumble down right now, because you’ll just have to redo the bricks, and it’s not particularly fun.

So, let’s take a deep breath into this experience of being in this lifetime at this particular time. This experience of going into a place of really true awareness of your consciousness and your energy and your love. It’s pretty phenomenal, pretty amazing.

Let’s take a good deep breath with that. Good deep breath.

Remember, let yourself experience it. Dive in.

You’re going to be surprised at what you find when you do. There’s kind of always a constant holdback. You know, like, “I don’t like that experience” or “I’m afraid of what’s in that deep level of experience.” So, there’s a holdback on it. Nah. Dive right in. Don’t be afraid of it. You’re constantly going to be in a safe space, and you’re going to find and you’re going to realize things that you wouldn’t have otherwise.

So, into the experience. That’s what the human is here for. That’s what the human is here for – experience. I’m going to be watching, making sure that you’re allowing experience.

So, dear Shaumbra, yeah, you feel like you’re being pulled in every different direction right now. And the more you try to manage it and control it, it doesn’t work too well, does it? So, what do you do? Stay in bed all day (Adamus chuckles), and eat a lot of chocolate, thinking that’s going to solve the problem. You’re being pulled in every different direction, and there’s some physics behind, which I’ll explain in just a moment, but embrace that. Experience it.

What’s it like to feel like everything you’ve ever learned about life as a human isn’t working anymore? And Cauldre’s telling me I should not be laughing. Okay. I’m trying not to laugh (Adamus tries to rearrange his face, then chuckles). But right now is the time to be, well, experiencing it and feeling what’s it like to be pulled apart in your body and your thoughts and oh, my god, the people around you and what they’re doing to you, and life’s situations and all the rest of that, everything. What’s that like to have a feeling it’s all being pulled at? And it is. I mean, it literally is. And that’s the good news.

Wouldn’t it be terrible if we were sitting here talking in this Shoud and were just talking about trying to get the energies going and talking about, you know, “Nothing is moving and it’s so boring,” and “How do we inspire the energies, and how do we get a little bit of some action in life?” Eh, we’re quite the opposite. We’re talking about it being so intense right now. That’s why I love Shaumbra, because you love that intensity. You complain a lot about it, but you love the intensity. Now dive even deeper into it and watch what happens. The unexpected. I couldn’t even begin to tell you, because it’s not linear.

This is the fun point, fun for me anyway. It’s the fun point – maybe not for you – but where you say, “What the hell?” or whatever other words you want to use, “WTF. I’m just going to go for it right now. I can’t go back. I can’t shut down,” even though you try to shut down. “WTF. I’m just going to go for it,” and you dive straight in. Watch what happens.

And as I’ve said many times, and I have to repeat – I mean, literally, I have to repeat, Shaumbra doesn’t hear me. So much of this was said in one way or the other by Tobias, but sometimes you need to hear it again, so I have to repeat – I mean, have to – that you’re never going to go through this again. You’re going to savor all these memories of all the experiences, of everything you went through. The stories – I mean, my gosh, the stories – that you’re accumulating on this. Don’t blind yourself to what’s going on. Don’t close down.

You’ll never go through this again. Get those stories now. Amazing, wild stories. And embellish a little bit too, if you need to. I mean, not lie about it, but be a little theatrical about it, please. You’re never going to go through this again. You’re writing your book at this very moment. Let yourself go into it and be it. And have fun with it, but also go into the toughest parts of it, the darkest neighborhoods of your own being, the ghettos of yourself. Go into it, because you’re going to learn it’s not what you think it is right now. You’re going to learn that a lot of times there’s fears going into those dark, ugly, difficult parts of yourself. There’s a fear because, well, you say, “I don’t know what’s there.” Well, actually, you do, but you won’t know that you know it until you’re right there. You’re not going to know it from the outside. You’re only going to know it from the inside. So go for it right now. Yeah, go for it.

And we’re constantly going to be monitoring basically how much line is let out, in a manner of speaking, that you’re not going to overdo it. You’re not going to burn out. No, you’re not. No.

How We Got Here

So, Shaumbra, this didn’t just happen. I mean, you’ve been working on this for eons of time. This didn’t just happen the last couple months or years or anything like that. We’ve been preparing for it for a long, long time. Not knowing exactly how you would experience it, but where The Way would take you. We’ve been, all of us – you, me, my lifetimes as a human on the planet – it’s all about coming to this point.

In more recent years, there’s been a series of events. Starting with I think the Quantum Leap was probably – all right, all right, Tobias is complaining. Tobias’ coming to bring Shaumbra together in approximately 1999. I guess that was our beginning point, but then into the Quantum Leap in 2007 and a few other minor events. But the big one is the Quantum Leap. And then COVID, a global phenomenon that occurred. And as a result of COVID, then Heaven’s Cross two years ago. Heaven’s Cross was a huge opening. Of course, all of you expected that day for manna to pour down from heaven. And it did, but you didn’t know what it looked like or smelled like. So, yeah, manna did pour down from heaven in the form of light that was able to come in. But you know, sometimes light works at levels you’re not really aware of right away. It takes a while for it to manifest before your eyes. But that manna came in, that light came in, and it’s been at work. That was big.

Oh, by the way, I’ll back up a little bit. Even before Heaven’s Cross, FM. Remember FM? John Kuderka, former studio manager for Crimson Circle. FM left, went on the other side after a bout with cancer. Which, by the way, to this day, FM said he probably learned more about being a human and about Realization during his time of cancer than any other time. He, you could say, gave it to himself. Better ways to do it maybe, but that’s what he chose. But he said he learned so much during that time of cancer – when death is looking you right in the face, when your human biology is crumbling, when you’re wondering where the real answers are – and we’ve had some really good talks about it. He said that time with cancer was profound. Now, probably you listening right now, you say, “Oh, no. I don’t want to go that way.” But for him it was profound. He learned so much about love and self-love, two things that he had really, really neglected.

He learned a lot about communications. Now, he knew a lot about communications as an engineer, but I mean real communications that are taking place within your body, between you and the divine. He learned so much about it. He said, “If I had to do it all over again …” – he’s saying that right now. He’s actually back at the studio right now. Maybe – eh, Cauldre’s asking if we could switch the camera over there, but probably not. He’s back at the studio tapping into this while we’re here in Kona.

FM is right here with us saying, “If I had to change it, I’d still do it the same way. I’d still do it the same way. That that cancer was, from a human perspective, painful, difficult, challenging, a sense of impending death. But that’s where you meet your Self” – where he met himself. I’m not suggesting that you do it that way, but he said he wouldn’t change a thing, because that’s really what put him in touch with himself and so many other things.

When he came to the other side, the last place he expected to be was the Ascended Masters Club – FM, John Kuderka, again – [didn’t] expect to be at the Ascended Masters Club. He said, “I didn’t have a spiritual life. I was no guru. I didn’t write spiritual books. I studied it. I loved Crimson Circle. My job was to …” In that lifetime of his was to be here to serve Shaumbra. Period. That was the whole thing. He said, “I didn’t expect to be here in the Ascended Masters Club. Is this just like a day pass that I’m getting here and have to go back somewhere else?”

“No, John. Got your room for you right over here. Big room. You’re welcome here. You are an Ascended Master, because what you learned during that period of your life brought together all of your lifetimes, brought together You. And you used this stress and really the challenge of cancer to do that. Maybe there’s another way, but you used that and, yeah, that brought it all together.”

So, FM – back to the point – once he crossed to the other side with his engineering, communications background, crossed to the other side and he said, “How can I help Shaumbra? How can I set up that link?” He’s always thinking in terms of links and spectrums and electromagnetics and all the rest of that. But “How can I set up that link for Shaumbra and the divine?” He worked on it for quite a while. He worked on it, too, talking to some of the other Shaumbra who had crossed over before him, and the likes of Sart and Edith and some of the others. He worked on it, and back in – what was it – late 2021, he put out this test signal. He called it the Shaumbra FM Radio, a signal going out any Shaumbra could tap into. A signal saying, “Here’s how the divine and the human” – using poetic terms, “divine” and “human” – “Here’s how they can start to communicate and connect.” (This was first mentioned during the Time of the Merlin event, and then in Shouds 4 & 5 of the Art of Benching Series.)

It’s a nonverbal signal. It’s nothing that could be measured in this physical realm, this signal, but he started transmitting it. And after a few months of testing, he shut it down, refined it, fine-tuned it, tweaked it and then put it back out there again for Shaumbra. Kind of a reminder. As he put it, I believe he said, “It was like the way of connecting with the Fruit of the Rose, with the goodness of your own soul.” It’s been out there emanating, radiating, transmitting, reminding ever since.

It’s one of the many tools that are there, but it’s one that John, being so close to Shaumbra and Crimson Circle, it’s one that is very, very effective, and it’s been at work. Most of you forgot about it, didn’t you? Most of you forgot that it was even there. But all the time you’ve been tapping into it, bridging that gap.

And then we had Heaven’s Cross, and, yes, it did have an influence on Heaven’s Cross. It was one of the conduits or pathways for more light to come to this planet, more divinity – whatever you want to call it – but more for that to come into this planet. And now we’re going into the next level post-Heaven’s Cross. We’re into this – I don’t even have a name for it yet – but this next iteration of where you go, where the planet goes. And, again, you’re not just in the parade, not just at the front of the parade, but you’re in front of the parade on all of this.

So that’s happening right now. FM, yes, he’s still there. He’s still very present, very involved with Shaumbra. But that’s there, and that brings me to my point.

Dark Matter and Dark Energy

We have a phenomenon going on right now, and that’s why I want you to experience rather than shut down; dive in rather than pull away. There’s a phenomenon that’s happening on the planet right now, with you right now. It’s pretty simple. I’m going to talk in terms of physics/metaphysics/Adamus 301 Physics.

So, let’s start with dark matter. I’ve talked about dark matter before. Dark matter is a commonly accepted matter of physics. I mean, they accept it. They have no clue what it is. No clue whatsoever. But they say there’s something out there that represents about 95% of the universe, arguably. Some say 65, 95. It doesn’t matter. It really doesn’t. It’s actually probably more than 95%, but it’s dark matter. It’s invisible. There’s not a human instrument that could actually measure it right now. They know it’s there, because they see something influencing something. They see a gravitational force, and dark matter has a gravitational force to it. It pulls things in. They see a force out there that they’ve labeled dark matter, meaning they don’t know what it is. Not “dark” like as in “bad,” but they don’t know what it is, so they call it dark matter, and it has a gravitational force to it. It doesn’t occupy space. They think it does, but it actually doesn’t. It has no weight to it whatsoever. It is not in a time synchronization at all. It’s no time whatsoever. Yet, it represents the vast majority of what’s out there.

Now, let’s talk more in our terms, metaphysical terms. There’s something there that you as a regular human, especially one that only will give yourself limited experience in this realm and only what you feel is kind of manageable or what you’re willing to take on; there’s something there, and you know it. You’ve always known it. It has a gravitational pull to it, which it needs. It needs that gravitational pull, because what it is, it’s like taking a sheet that you would use for music, for writing music, you know, for writing down the notes. I know. You don’t use sheets anymore. You use a computer. But please, bear with me. I like a piece of paper in my hands. A music sheet. This is dark matter. It’s potentials. It’s the screen. It’s very similar to BON. I’ve talked about BON in the past. But regardless, it’s the sheet of paper.

Now, the notes are written upon it, and the notes now adhere to it, because it’s got gravity. It pulls it in. It makes it reality. You can see it. You know just from your experience what that note sounds like. You have the scales and the notes, and suddenly you’re filling the whole sheet with the notes, and you’ve got music. You’ve got a story, a musical story. You’ve got experience. Yet, the sheet here, this dark matter, is the basis for all of this, and there is still the space between the notes. There’s the blank space between the notes that you’ve written down there, and that’s dark matter. It has gravity to it. It holds things in to allow you to experience it.

You see, before you ever came to this planet, it didn’t really have that. Everything was just – whiwww! – I mean, just all over the place. It’s probably difficult to imagine, but at some point in your angelic memories you remember that there was no order. There was no gravity to hold things in. Everything was just floating around. There wasn’t even time and space to hold it in. It was very, you would say, confusing, unstructured, unformed. This dark matter that you have is very, very real. It’s everywhere. And again, we’re not contradicting physics here. They just haven’t really figured out what it is. This dark matter is always there.

Now, you’ve got notes on the sheet and you say, “Reality is those notes on the sheet. The sheet doesn’t matter. The sheet was just there.” Oh, no. It’s quite the other way around. The sheet represents all the potentials. The sheet represents the ability to even be able to write the notes. The sheet becomes ultimately the stage on which the notes dance. That’s what dark matter is.

Dark matter isn’t something that is an astronomical phenomenon that’s out there. But that’s what most people believe right now. But at one point they believed the world is flat. Which, by the way, there is a flat world, but you’re not on it. But most physicists believe that it’s out there. The fact is it’s right here (points to heart area). That’s the problem. They’re looking out there; it’s all right here. Yes, the dark matter, the unknown, the gravitational force that is invisible and not measurable, it’s right here (points to heart again). That’s so important to understand. It is not out there. It is in other realms, and it is out there, but it emanates from right here (heart). And that’s one of the things right now that’s holding you together and pulling you apart, if that makes any sense.

Makes no sense, but it does make sense. It’s holding you together. It’s keeping you in form as a human with biology and a mind. But on the other hand, this very thing called dark matter, it’s all the potentials – what could be, what you could dream of, everything else – held into stories, held into different realms, experienced here as a human in this realm. It’s all right there, and it’s changing. It’s absolutely changing right now.

So, you could say, actually, it’s no longer just a sheet of paper. It’s many sheets of paper. It’s no longer a sheet of paper, but it’s an ocean, an ocean of Isness that you can write on. It’s no longer just a sheet of paper, but it’s the entire stage. It’s the entire theater. It’s the entire You. That’s what’s happening right now.

Dark matter, which has always been there, is now, you could say – don’t think of it in just terms of changing size or shape but – suddenly, it’s revealing itself. It’s revealing all that it can be. Maybe not just a sheet of paper anymore. Maybe all of BON, maybe this beautiful screen, and that’s what’s happening. It’s emerging. It’s making itself more and more present to you in your life.

So, you’re no longer thinking, “I have one sheet of paper to write a song,” but “I have thousands of sheets. I have thousands of blackboards. I have thousands of screens and projectors now.” You’re no longer limited. It is evolving right now, this dark matter. That’s why you feel so discombobulated. You’re used to that single sheet of paper to write your notes on, and then to kind of live out. It’s all changing right now.

Then there’s dark energy. “Dark energy,” it sounds terrible, but dark energy. They use these terms – “dark” – because they don’t know what it is. They know there’s a lot of dark energy. Again, they say it accounts for anywhere between 60 and 95% of all energy, but they don’t know what it is. It’s a theory. They haven’t been able to actually find it in a laboratory, and they won’t, using current instruments. But it’s a theory that’s out there, because they realize that the universe is growing. The universe is expanding. There was a time actually when it didn’t, but now it is. And it’s measurable up to a degree, but part of the problem is that when they measure the universe, so to speak, they use very linear measurement tools – “How many light years out there” – and the fact is the universe really isn’t linear. It’s circular, radial or, probably better, is a spiral. So, once they learn that, you’ll also learn how to go from one place, a physical location, to another instantly. Because if it was just flat space, linear space, it’d take about 100,000 light years to get there, to a certain place. But when it spirals – which it is, the true nature of the physical universe – you just cut right through the circles of the spiral – schwtt! – go right through. And you can do it instantly. And things are always happening instantly within the spiral. It’s just you’re not aware of them. But anyway, back to dark energy. 5400

Dark energy is the very thing that expands. There’s no gravitational force. It’s antigravity. It’s the very thing that expands, and that’s what’s causing the universe to expand. It’s what’s causing you right now as a human on the planet to expand. That dark energy is not out there somewhere. And they always say, “No, it’s out there in the cosmos, and, you know, it’s not here on the planet.” It’s everywhere, but it emanates from you, this dark energy.

Energy that cannot be defined. Energy that is not structured. Energy that has no goal. Energy that goes beyond anything that humans are aware of when they use the term “energy.” But it’s there. It’s expansional. We talked about this in aerotheon (here). It’s very expansional, and what’s happening right now is that dark energy – we’re going to find a different term for dark energy and dark matter – but that is right now, the right term is not “awakening,” but it is activating on a different level right now.

You could say it’s been kind of dormant. It’s wanting to open things up. It’s its nature – expansional – but it’s been kind of dormant. It wasn’t time to really bring it in. It was time to stay in human energy, TimeSpace energy basically, confined energy, because you had to learn what the sheet of paper was and how to write the notes on the sheet of paper. You had to learn that, go through that and find out how you liked arranging those notes, and how you like changing them up, or when they were out of harmony or when they were totally in harmony.

So, what’s happening right now is the dark matter is changing and emerging, all the potentials. And you also have dark energy right now that is activating, coming out of kind of a neutral, just hanging out, waiting. Now that’s activating right now, and they’re merging together.

And you hear this and I know a lot of you totally get it, totally understand. But I want to remind you. You’re not sitting there at night trying to say, “Okay, dark energy, come over here. Dark matter, come over here,” and you’re trying to put them together, because it wouldn’t work. It’s a natural phenomenon that’s part of your soul being, that’s part of your dark energy and dark matter and Self. On top of that, you couldn’t have. It wouldn’t have worked. It would have been an exercise in futility, and then you would have been frustrated. But it’s happening right now.

I also like to say that dark energy is kind of a “get the hell out of your way” energy. It is very, very different than the energies you use right now. Very, very different type of communication, different type of song, different notes. You know, you’ve got notes on the piece of paper; these are totally different. They’re not the classic style notes that you’re used to. They’re very different. And all this is coming together right now in a very natural way and it’s affecting your human life, and you’re being asked to experience it. The minute you try to figure it out, it doesn’t work. When you experience it, you come to knowingnesses long forgotten and knowingnesses never had. You come to experiences that go beyond what you’ve been experiencing up to now.

Many of you like phenomena. You like these amazing things, levitating, for instance. Yeah, it’s totally possible, but it requires that you allow some of these natural things that are occurring at a soul and a Master level to take place without the human having to fear them or to manage them. And by the way, those go hand in hand so often with humans. You have to manage things because you fear them. You don’t go into dark energy or dark matter because there’s a fear. It’s dark. You don’t know what it is, so why go into it? You try to manage what you already have. That’s all changing right now, and that’s why you feel you’re being pulled in so many different directions.

Let’s take a deep breath with that and feel exactly what’s happening and why there’s really kind of this culmination of many, many things that have been occurring over a long period of time leading up to this. And this is the time. It’s not “carrot in front of the horse” time. I wouldn’t even suggest that. Right now, it’s time for the horse to eat the carrot and experience what that’s like. There’s no more promises of a bright future. The bright future is already there. Would you please eat it? Would you please take it in and experience it and taste it? Not be afraid of it. Not just nibble on it a little bit. Devour it. You’re in a safe space. You’ve trained for this. You train – even in this lifetime you train and train and train – in your nocturnal state, when you’re sleeping at night. You’re ready for it. But stop trying to manage it. Stop trying to tell it what to do. Stop basically limiting it, and that’s exactly what so many of you’ve been doing. You’ve been limiting it because you think you have to think it through, that you’re the one that has to do it.

You’re here to experience it. That’s it. And from that experience you grow in your richness. Your soul grows rich. There’s a whole new depth of beingness. You transcend just this physical realm, and you truly go into the And. You’re still here as a human. You still know what it’s like to have physical pain. You still know what it’s like to interact in a physical world, but yet you’re in the And as well. You’re in the And as well.

So, dear Shaumbra, you’ve got dark matter, dark energy changing, emerging, all coming into your reality, all because of these events that I mentioned – from the Quantum Leap to the Heaven’s Cross, FM’s signal, everything else, building up to this. Now get in there and experience.

And remember this dark energy, it’s the “get the hell out of the way human, limited human; let’s really dive into this.” And what you’re going to experience and discover isn’t just a little bigger, better, brighter version of what you’ve experienced before. That’s what many of you expect. You say, “It’s going to be a little bit nicer weather” or “I’m going to have a little bit more money.” Not even close. It’s not about “more” in terms of what you already have in human reality.

It’s about quantum difference. It’s about the And. It’s not just about living a little bit longer, having a little bit more money, and being a little bit happier. Those things become absolutely irrelevant. Meaningless. Really, truly, they become meaningless, because suddenly your consciousness is now on so many – you’re aware of your consciousness on so many different levels and realms. Suddenly, you don’t wake up in the morning to survive. You wake up in the morning to live. You don’t plan your day based on avoiding death and trying to have a little bit more money or more friends. Meaningless. Absolutely meaningless.

You exist in a whole different perception, a whole different level of consciousness, and one that basically ultimately is a lot more free. That’s really one of the big issues, not feeling free. You try to pretend you’re free, but you all know you’re not really free. It’s one of the things that occurs. Suddenly, you realize freedom. And freedom is to be able to be free and not be free at the same time. As a human, there’s a lot of non-freedom, and you can be in that. True freedom is to be able to also step out, to have both.

So, all this is really a lot about that freedom. And even when you were an angelic being in the other realms, there was not that sense of true freedom. It was a lot more free than what it is here, because you didn’t have physical reality. But it wasn’t the sense of true freedom. And true freedom and self-love are the same thing. Same thing. I know you’re like – Cauldre cannot figure this out. He’ll have to go ponder it some night. True freedom and self-love, basically the same thing.

Feel into that for a moment. We’re going to put on some music right now. We’re going to do a merabh.

Merabh of Free Presence

Let’s take a good deep breath.

I am so amazed at what you are doing and what you are learning.

(music begins)

I truly am. I didn’t think we’d ever be talking about consciousness, energy, freedom, self-love all together. I thought it was going to take forever to get you to shake your issues, to get over it, because you wanted to keep holding on to them. But then look where we are – at this beautiful, beautiful point.

I’m excited. I can literally sense, feel how dark matter, with all of its gravity – it’s a beautiful gravity that allows you to write the notes on the sheet of paper – but how that’s changing right now. And dark energy, the expansional force, the thing that inspires and moves, opens up and ultimately frees.

You didn’t have to work at it. You didn’t have to sit up long hours and work at trying to emerge or to basically bring about this new expression of dark energy and dark matter. And they’re coming together now like this (Adamus interlocks his fingers). They’ve been kind of like this (moves hands apart), but now they’re opening up, and they’re coming together like this (interlocks his fingers again). And just think, you didn’t have to work at it.

Let’s allow that right now. Let’s allow it.

(pause)

For some of you who think this is just a big physics lesson – it kind of is, kind of is not – just imagine that it’s that hidden space within yourself, the thing I call dark matter. That hidden space of potentials that you just couldn’t see, and now you’re going to start seeing them. They’re not going to be what you think it’s going to be. They’re going to be far grander.

And think of dark energy in terms of kind of the thing that lets everything open up. The thing that allows the expansion. It’s not really a force. It’s a – (Adamus sighs) – it’s a state of Presence actually. It’s not like a dynamic force that pushes. It actually, if anything, it kind of pulls. But it’s not really a force.

Dark energy is, well, it’s a different song. And that song, that communication of the energy really opens things up. And now all that coming together. That’s why you’re feeling so many things that you’re feeling. That’s why I ask you to stop thinking about it and experience it.

Let’s do that right now, the experience of everything you’re going through.

(pause)

Dark matter, dark energy, yeah, a lot of physicists are focusing on it right now, and they’re going to get closer and closer to some answers, particular with the use of AI, artificial intelligence, and they’re going to be running their theories through AI. Heh, I just wish one of them had Shaumbra consciousness, because between their brilliant minds as physicists and their shining consciousness as Shaumbra, the answers would come out a lot quicker. Maybe it’s something some of you can try and find out – what’s happening right now with dark matter, dark energy; how do they come together.

So, let’s take a deep breath and allow it. Allow it and experience it.

The emerging of potentials that the human could have never constructed. The activation of energies that enable freedom.

And please don’t think about it. Oh! Oh, oh, oh!

Stop the music for a minute. Just pause, please. It hurts to go on.

(music stops)

Okay. Let’s stop and take a deep breath. You’re – pffff – Shaumbra, I did this beautiful setup.

Here we are, going into the merabh, drifting away, and what do you do on me? You start thinking about it. You start working at it. You start trying to figure out – you try to quantify it, “What is the dark energy? What is the dark matter? And how do I make it bigger? And how do I apply it to my aching foot today.” Would you stop it, please.

Okay. Take a deep breath. You’re not going to do a thing. You’re not going to think about it. You are not going to try to design it and build it, because you’ll fail. You’re going to experience it. It’s already there. You don’t have to start thinking about what it is and how you’re going to control it. You missed the point. Do we want to start the Shoud over from the beginning? Cauldre says no. He’s tired (Adamus chuckles), so we won’t.

Please stop it. You’re here to experience what is already happening. You don’t have to work on it. You don’t have to go and set a trap for it and hopefully enough gets in where you can take it later. You’re here to experience it. That’s it. That’s it. Okay.

Let’s take a deep breath and let’s resume the music. Let’s start at the beginning, if that’s possible. Let’s start all over. Let’s pretend this never happened (Adamus chuckles).

(music begins)

All right, let’s take a deep breath. We’re going to go back in time now and redo this (Adamus chuckles again). Tobias is over here in the corner laughing with Kuthumi. Tobias is like, “Yeah, now you know what I had to put up with.”

Let’s take a deep breath and allow. Allow that dark matter now to reveal itself in your consciousness.

And let’s take a deep breath and allow dark energy to open and expand, to give wings of hope. To open up from a very defined spectrum now into the Beyond. And it’s not just more humanness in that Beyond. It’s more You.

Let’s take a deep breath and it’s happening. It’s happening. Could you please experience it?

I’m asking Kuthumi to please shut up. He’s over in the corner making comments. And Kuderka too. What do I have, a peanut gallery here today! Tobias, Kuthumi, FM. Oh, Sart just came in. I’m going to end this right now (Adamus chuckles). Would you guys please keep quiet? We’re doing something very serious.

Okay, let’s take a good, deep breath and experience dark matter and dark energy.

Some of you, Shaumbra, you say, “Would you please tell us again what dark matter is?” No. Just feel it. I’m not going to go back into mental descriptions. And dark energy, just feel it. It’s happening.

(pause)

Yes, it’s unfolding right now.

These are not tools, by the way. It’s a state of Presence. It’s just a state of Presence, not tools.

(pause)

Oh, now, Yeshua’s coming in. What is this today? Didn’t even invite – you’ve got all these beings over here observing and laughing, telling jokes to each other.

I swear. I come down here to talk to you and want a little time with you by myself, and now they’re all barging in.

Let’s take a deep breath and be in that state of Presence.

(pause)

All the work you did, all the experiences you had have brought it to this point now where we can open up dark matter, dark energy, and let them now dance together.

(pause)

They’re two very different things, but yet, well, they’re very common. They love to merge together.

(pause)

Please try to ignore the other entities. They’re having too much fun over there (Adamus chuckles softly).

(pause)

Take a good deep breath.

And let’s now just forget the words “dark matter” and “dark energy.” Let’s just forget them. They don’t really matter.

They get kind of mental, so let’s just take a deep breath – if we have to use any word at all – into Presence. Free Presence.

Ah, feel into that, that state of Free Presence.

(pause)

And you don’t have to do a thing. You do not need to work at it. You don’t need to try to hold on to it. All you’re doing is breathing in the awareness of it.

(pause)

That’s it.

As we sit here like this, as you’re breathing in that Presence, yeah, then you become more and more aware of it. You don’t even have to attach words to it or descriptions. You don’t have to write it down. No, not at all.

It’s really just allowing it.

(pause)

Just take a deep breath.

(pause)

Free Presence.

This is the convergence of what you’ve done over your lifetimes. This is the thing that brings you to that point where I said earlier, “It’s already done. Now you’re just going through the experience of how you got there.”

(pause)

Free Presence lets you go into that, lets you go into your experience without fear, without doubt, without having to try to figure it out, because you can’t.

That’s why in our last Shoud I invited those who insist on staying in their mind, on the human having to manage and build and control everything, and the ones that insist on hanging on to their issues – it’s one thing to experience emotions or challenges or whatever, but it’s quite another to hang on to the wounds, like a badge of honor of some type – that’s why I had to invite them to leave. They’re not going to get to this place of Free Presence. They might try to think they understand the metaphysics behind it, but it simply is not going to work. And then they’re going to get frustrated.

Right now, it’s just about taking a deep breath and allowing it.

You don’t really have to even focus on it. Just allow it.

(longer pause)

My esteemed angelic Ascended Master friends who have barged in today and are sitting off on the side – Kuthumi, Tobias, FM, Jesus – eh, Yeshua, sorry; he doesn’t like when I call him Jesus – Yeshua, Sart – they’re being very annoying. Throwing popcorn. Laughing.

But we’re here in this state of Free Presence. They can try to distract us all they want.

(pause)

They can think that they’re going to get my goat, that I’m going to get annoyed with them. No. I was already annoyed with them (Adamus chuckles).

And you see, Shaumbra, what we’re all doing here also, and the reason why they’re really here, is once in a while you’ve got to be distracted. Otherwise, you dip back into mind thought. A little distraction from my friends. Oh, and now Blavatsky comes in too.

A little distraction is good because it gets you out of the mind. That’s when all that Presence can really slip into awareness. Imagine that. Presence and awareness together.

(pause)

Dark matter, dark energies. I guess you could all sum it up as just saying the true unfolding, opening, liberation is occurring.

And you just have to be here to receive it. That’s it. You just be here to receive it and to experience it.

They are gifts of the soul, gifts of your future self, however you want to put it. They’re gifts to you from You. The parts of yourself that you probably forgot a long time ago, intentionally. Not by mistake, intentionally.

Take a good deep breath.

(pause)

Okay.

So, dear Shaumbra, we’ll bring this to a close. No reason to kind of carry on with it. We’ve done what we came here to do.

Just take a few moments to allow that Free Presence, to allow your Self, and to experience all that you are.

Yes, I know it’s tough at times, very, very tough. The likes of us, the Ascended Masters and beloved friends that are here with us today, they didn’t get to this part. They got to their Realization; they didn’t get to this part of staying here on this planet, emerging into a totally different being, bringing new levels of light. Really creating a whole new planet of love that’ll be shared with all of creation, all the cosmos.

Let’s take a good deep breath for all that you are and all you’re doing. And with that, just remember at all times, all is well in all of creation.

And with that, you have my blessings. You have the applause of the other Ascended Masters.

With that, I Am Adamus of Sovereign Domain. Thank you.